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So sorry for this loss. May he rest in peace. Your post shows that you are better equipped than most to deal with this. DFW and Camus also fascinate me and add to the richness of living each day in as much peace and joy as possible.
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renato 1 year ago
I don't know what to say man, you are not alone 🤝
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LL62 1 year ago
Mein herzlichstes Beileid 🫂
My deepest condolences Gigi💙🫂 I truly appreciate reading your writing.
My most sincere apologies from me for your horrible loss. Hoping you have been able to fully find your peace since last month and recover from your bereavement.
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Duvel 1 year ago
I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for writing such a beautiful piece. It gave me a wider perspective on this subject, which unfortunately I have experienced too close to home.
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Constantin 1 year ago
In our darkest moments, we don’t need solutions or advice. What we yearn for is simply connection—a quiet presence, a gentle touch. These small gestures are the anchors that hold us steady when life feels like too much. Please don’t try to fix me. Don’t take on my pain or push away my shadows. Just sit beside me as I work through my own inner storms. Be the steady hand I can reach for as I find my way. My pain is mine to carry, my battles mine to face. But your presence reminds me I’m not alone in this vast, sometimes frightening world. It’s a quiet reminder that I am worthy of love, even when I feel broken. So, in those dark hours when I lose my way, will you just be here? Not as a rescuer, but as a companion. Hold my hand until the dawn arrives, helping me remember my strength. Your silent support is the most precious gift you can give. It’s a love that helps me remember who I am, even when I forget. Ernest Hemingway
PART OF THE SOCIETAL PENDULUM SWINGING BACK NEEDS TO BE NOT ONLY CREATING BUT REUNITING FAMILIES.THIS IS BRUTAL, I'M SO SORRY GIGI 🙏
🫂 mein herzliches Beileid Gigi. Deine Worte sind immer wunderschön.. hoffe mit diesen Worten kann ich dir etwas zurück geben.. Die Sanduhren erinnern nicht bloß an die schnelle Flucht der Zeit, sondern auch zugleich an den Staub, in welchen wir einst verfallen werden. - Georg Christoph Lichtenberg
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Zuyo Xi 1 year ago
My condolences. I followed your advice. It felt great. Thank you Gigi.
I'm sorry for what you are going through now. I lost my father this spring. I know how it is. Stay strong and keep his words and teachings. God bless you! Prayers for you and your family!
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OT 1 year ago
So sorry to hear that.
Ah shit dude.... there are no words. My father killed himself too. I have a small idea of the pain you must be feeling. May God be with you and gaurd your heart.
It’s okay to crumble, it’s okay to cry, To ask the aching question, “Why?” But through the shadows, one truth will remain: You are not alone. Look, I can’t imagine the depth of your pain right now, and I won’t pretend to have the right words to ease it. But please know that you’re not alone. It’s okay to feel lost, angry, or broken, grief is messy, and there’s no right way to go through it. We are here for you, whether you need someone to talk to, sit in silence with, or simply lean on. You are stronger than you feel in this moment, and though it may not seem like it, the days ahead will hold space for healing and love. Please don’t hesitate to reach out.
I hope writing helps you the way your writing helps all of us plebs Gigi. love you man, sending my whole heart to you and your family. 🫂🫶🌄
Yesterday I was thinking of you, wondering how life is going there and today I read this piece. 💔 No words are adequate. Hand on heart, I sit with you in silence. Both my parents are gone. 🫂
Lots of love, you beautiful human being! Eliade's "eternal return" might comfort you in these moments of sorrow, for death is just a phase. Your wisdom brought peace and inspiration to many people, me included.
So sorry Gigi. Thank you for sharing your thoughts in writing. May you heal and be well over time, as you process such a great loss in your life.
The loss of your father made you write the best thing I have read in a long time which touched me immensely. I hope you live a good life remembering your father at his best. Condolences.
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Shinobi 1 year ago
I'm so sorry man. Thoughts are with you and your family.
@Gigi my deepest condolences. May his soul rest in peace. You and your family will be in my prayers. As a stranger on the Internet, I know that it might not be my place to say anything regarding the situation, but I've come to truly believe that God permits everything for a greater good even though as humans we may not be able to understand what that is: Isaias (Isaiah) 55:8-9 DRC1752 [8] For my thoughts are not your thoughts: nor your ways my ways, saith the Lord. [9] For as the heavens are exalted above the earth, so are my ways exalted above your ways, and my thoughts above your thoughts. You have a beautiful way with words and I was blessed to hear your message. Much love.
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S!ayer 1 year ago
aww man I'm sorry Gigi. Sending love.
Mein herzliches Beileid @Gigi 🙏🏼🙏🏼viel Kraft dir und deiner Familie.. Es steckt viel Mut und Kraft dahinter solch einen Artikel zu schreiben..
It's simply fight or flight, some flee further. And if you are going to fight, dark humour is a necessity...
But just remember, this completely unnatural shitshow we have going on now is anti life, it's little wonder so many will go to such lengths to escape it...
A very close friend of mine committed suicide the same way last year. It is an incredibly hard thing to deal with. The only real healer is time. Sending love dude 🙏
Lieber Gigi, das tut mir so unendlich leid. Ich fühle mit Dir. The monster will always be there, but it lead me to Bitcoin. 🕯
I am so sorry for your loss dear Gigi 🙏 hang in there and hug your loved once even closer at this time
My condolences. Love is a double edged sword which is always paid for in tears.
Sincères condoléances mister Gigi, no words from strangers could probably ease your pain but Info hope that the presence of your loves ones is here for you.
May his heart be at peace and love bring healing to your family. Thank you for sharing ✨❤️✨
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rtbit 1 year ago
Thank you for sharing you life and you sorrows.
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Justin_Tokyo 1 year ago
My condolences Gigi. 🙏 May he Rest In Peace and may Time heal your wounds.
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Chris 1 year ago
🧡 Gigi your post made me reach out to my dad. Thank you.
Oh Gigi, I’m so,so sorry 💔. Your father’s life mattered and I’m so glad that you can express your grief through writing. I feel certain that your words will help your healing as well as others who may be in the grips of depression or who has lost a loved one to suicide. Big hugs to you tonight friend.
I've been ruminating about this since you shared. Wasn't sure what to say, if anything at all. The typical "Sorry for your loss" just seemed too hollow. Not disrespecting anyone else who said it. But I didn't want to seem cliche and I don't think such a loss can even be expressed in words. There isn't such words to even describe the emotions I can only begin to imagine exist. I just want you to know that my positive energy is with you and your family both physically and metaphorically. And I wish upon you all peace and love and happiness.
Mein herzliches Beileid Gigi, meine Gedanken sind bei dir und deiner Familie. Ein Teil von deinem Vater wird für immer in dir weiterleben, und mit deinen Taten berührst du andere Menschen, die wiederum dich in ihr Herz schliessen. 🙏🏼
I am deeply sorry for your loss and sadness. It is incomprehensible and surreal. My condolences and best wishes. You wrote beautifully. I am worried about you. Please reach out for help. Please speak with a psychologist about what happened and how it has made you feel. A psychologist is like a physiotherapist of the mind. Your burden is too heavy for one man to carry by himself. Please feel free to reach out to me as well. I can listen.
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Rudd-O 1 year ago
I am so sorry! Stay strong, man. 🤗
I've been panicking for over a year that Digit could be dead due to either suicide or cancer. But the cancer scares me even more than the suicide because if she killed herself at least it would be on her own terms and she would have been managing the fear of death. If it was cancer, that would mean she died scared and fighting it. I just hope she's alive and it doesn't feel fair to reply to this when you know you've lost someone and I don't know if I have. But I hope over time you can come to be less angry at your dad for going out on his own terms at a moment where he wasn't too scared.
So so sorry Gigi, i know what it means to loose a father, but can't imagine the pain of loosing someone i love to suicide. Thank you for the beautiful words.
Hello, Friend... I call you "Friend," though you don't know me, because you have been my friend by thinking deeply and expressing your thoughts clearly in writing and making your writing publicly available to me to read. For this, I am grateful, and I thank you. It is only today that I learned of your father's passing a month ago, and I am deeply saddened to discover your shattering loss. I am so very sorry, and I pray you and all your family may find comfort and healing as time goes on. Elements in your comprehensive commentary on the situation give me hope that you will find that comfort, as you are obviously familiar with the teachings of Jesus. I am fully persuaded that Jesus is in truth our Creator/God who became one of us in order that we might viscerally know and understand that he loves us. I commend you to him at this difficult time, urging you to look to him as the best source of authentic comfort. He triumphed over death itself--something no other human has been able to independently do--and promises like resurrection to his followers. Even as bitcoin promises a bright financial future to those who embrace it, Jesus promises the most brilliant of futures in every dimension to those who commit themselves to him as their King. I commend you to Jesus' care, and pray that you and your family may find much comfort now and in the coming days.🙏🏻😢💜🫂💖😀
The weird thing is it doesn't help me when other people say this stuff. I might be more scared of the cancer, but if other people say the same kind of thing, I get scared they're the kind of person that wouldn't try hard enough to prevent the suicide and it reminds me how scared I am overall. I guess it's impossible for anything anyone says to really be helpful, except it's good to know humans will try.
I feel so sorry for your loss. Thank you for your powerful profound words. Your spirit is a great gift to the world. 🙏
Das tut mir unfassbar leid Gigi 😔 Mein aufrichtiges Beileid🕯️Ich wünsche dir und deiner Familie von Herzen ganz viel Kraft 🧡🫂
Gigi, Your vulnerable raw words and deep perspective & wisdom moved me. The way you described the parts of the brain dying when one takes their own life reminded me of the interplay of cymatics… how frequencies and thoughts shape not just matter, but our inner realities. I couldn’t help but think of Dr. Emoto’s study on the frequency of water, where dark thoughts led to disease and death in plants, while affirmations and positivity nurtured growth and vitality. It’s as if the constant thoughts of despair in a suicidal mind create a destructive resonance, spreading like a cancer and leaving no room for light to enter. Your reflections also brought back a personal memory…my uncle took his own life several years ago, he shot himself in the head, and at the time, I couldn’t understand why. The ripple of his belief in despair consumed him, and it was hard to grasp how someone so loved could be lost to the darkness within. But your words remind me of the profound impact of beliefs and how they shape us; much like cymatics reveals how vibrations create patterns. A belief in despair can ripple outward, but so too can a faith in goodness, offering healing and renewal. Your light is a beacon, a lighthouse for so many who are wandering aimlessly in the darkness. The knowledge you share restores hope, offering freedom and a way out for those who might otherwise feel trapped. You are truly a bright light, and your courage to write about these deep and challenging topics is nothing short of inspiring. Please accept my deepest condolences for your loss and the pain you’ve shared. Your ability to transform that pain into wisdom and healing for others is extraordinary. Thank you for being a source of hope, strength, and insight in a world that so desperately needs it. 🤍🙏🫂 image
Very sad to read. Wish you force to process this and come out stronger!
Omg just saw this now. I’m so sorry for your loss, and that post was amazingly deep and touching. 🫂
So sorry to read this Gigi. 😢 A truly moving piece of writing. Thank you for sharing it.
Writing about things brings peace. You are a great inspiration and represent your father and mother. He is living through you and your siblings and his grandchildren. He created a beautiful lineage... I offer my condolences and prayers and thank him for creating you. You are an incredible writer and contribution to the world. Thank you for sharing.
So sad, sorry for your loss. Beautifully writtten, brings tears to my eyes. You’re a treasure
I'm so sorry to hear this Gigi. Thoughts and prayers are with you. Thank you for finding the strength to write this moving piece and for reminding us that family is everything and to cherish every moment with them 🫂
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Ubuntu 1 year ago
This is the best thing I have read this year, sad, yet so good I had to read it twice, I don’t think there was an angle that wasn’t addressed in this article, sorry for your loss my brother
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Mo 1 year ago
Dear Gigi, I can understand you and your father at the same time. And it tears my heart into two equal pieces. The last door of HOPE is chaos. We will all meet there at some point...
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Beetflow 1 year ago
God be with you Gigi. I’m sorry about your dad. I think you’re going to have an amazing and long life… even if the monster hangs around
I’m so sorry to read this Gigi. A beautiful, heartbreaking read. October marked 16 years since my father ended his life. We have three children he never met. It still hurts. I still have questions. I also have so much love for him, and empathy for the challenges that led to his decision that changed us all forever. ❤️‍🩹 I echo your plea to call your parents and tell them you love them, even if it’s complicated. 🙏🏼