Happy to see you fight despite the circumstances! Inspiring for all of us in similar situations, All the best! what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger!

Don’t sacrifice yourself for something that never gives anything back. It’s easy to do. Do what you must, including ditching all of this nonsense entirely and instantly.

Hope the financial uncertainty eases soon for you and your family, and that the future brings the opportunities you deserve!

There's a graveyard of fallen heroes: morally good tech that, for whatever reason, the good Lord saw fit to let fail. No shame in being a vet of that war, fighting for freedom. I think everyone here's got scars from that, money left on the table, what if I had played the game, etc. Valhalla baby. Everyone here is going to Valhalla. Thank you for your service.

Italians say: "quando si chiude una porta, si apre un portone"

I've gotten so, so much from Nostr over the last four years. I'm incredibly lucky for all that I have done and been able to do.

This is the way.

Thank you.

I still think Nostr is good tech. The protocol is still maturing and deciding what it wants to be when it grows up.

you'll find something. i've skated through some really rough times recently, even broke my leg, barely scraping enough contracts to make it but i'm still here and about to debut some serious shiznit. after almost 6 months i'm done building a programming language. i totally had no idea really how long that was gonna take but it's here today, last little polishes in the next few days as i test drive it on some old code. so, keep at it, nose to the grindstone. nostr has lost its tourists, and the benefits to applications of the protocol are really obvious especially with the plethora of mls marmot clients and zapstore, two things that i think really break new ground.

I'm sorry about this, I don't know what to hope for, leaving nostr as a leisure option, but I was hoping that nostrometer was really a metereological app and not some nostrability stuff (so sorry for this)

Oh man. Sorry to hear about the leg. Hopefully it's healed or healing well. Anxious to see this new programming language. What will agents think of it? That's what I want to know.

Most devs that I talked to really wanted nostrometer/ nostrability / Q&A for their apps because they hate doing that and/or don't have time. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

haha. yeah, broke the leg on a bolt brand electric scooter in almaty. damn things have no power cutoff switch on high tilt and the motor is powerful so i'd already noticed on a few rides it was prone to wheelies especially throttle on at low speed over a small drop. and then i'm waiting on a light on the pavement, drop is like 1", it goes up, my backpack is too heavy, it gets to about 45 degrees and i put my right foot down and the whole thing fell on me like scissors. idk how heavy those things are but if you ever get on an electric scooter and it wheelies ever. put it back down and never get back on it. the language looks a lot like Go, but the model is more like erlang/elixir, and has memory ownership model like rust but you don't have to annotate anything. application concurrency has to be designed like a tree, and you get the convenient first class channel syntax, inside a unit, it's a queue, between units (spawn domains, or maybe they are just gonna be called spawns) it's an interface that runs over a ring buffer pair between two independent single threads, kernel threads. it has a build to let you design web apps the same way, built out of wasm modules. i've already drafted up most of one, and today since the compiler is mostly done, i'm getting it all debugged and https://smesh.lol will be an app with a pure wasm concurrent parallel webworker runtime and include a kind 1 forum and mls marmot client. might be tomorrow before it's done. just had to tell all the stories. it's lonely out here in the zugdidi outpost. i still can't properly read georgian.

also, yeah, broke it 8th september. for about a week now i can limp along on it freely for a few km especially if i take my sticks to lower the loading on it. according to my clanker, it's another month before the bone is actually set hard enough but the implant they put in keeps it standing. and it's a good thing for me to work it, just gotta back off if the next day after a big walk i'm in a lot of pain. it's generally a pain most of the time though. and i'll leave out the story about getting trapped in kazakhstan after my passport was swiped first by the doctor and then by the police and nobody telling me a straight answer about how to get it back. do NOT visit kazakhstan without good medical insurance and don't skimp on it, and get the ambulance to take you to a non-state hospital where they charge more but speak english and don't use trad soviet kazakhstan medical procedures (systema). they don't use catheters on the drips. they keep giving you antibiotics for over a week. the pain control is ketamine and they give it 2x a day when the drug wears out in 8 hours. and besides all that, omg, ketamine and severe pain. i was in some kind of cyberspace in a half dream state for half the time when it was in effect. plus they make you use butt-shots, no matter how much you beg for the shoulder (shoulder is much easier). ok, sorry, i did a whole story. but it's a serious traveler caveat. do not go to kazakhstan without medical insurance and if you have an accident, especially trauma, you do NOT want to be served by Dr Kanat at the trauma specialty ward in the middle of the city.

Keep building 💪

give me the names because I don't really believe in these devs, a tool like Bigbrotr

GitHub

GitHub - BigBrotr/bigbrotr: Modular Nostr network observatory — relay discovery, health monitoring, event archiving, analytics, and data access

Modular Nostr network observatory — relay discovery, health monitoring, event archiving, analytics, and data access - BigBrotr/bigbrotr

Sorry to hear! 🫂 You are a really motivating person, and pushed really hard in the last years. Thank you for that! I am really sure that you will solve this problem. I would really want to help, but not sure, how I could. I am also trying to figure out my next steps, so not really a big help at the moment. It is so interesting on the other hand, that how much people are willing to pay for seemingly stupid things, while it is not so easy to find out how to fund our dreams.

i appreciate your open and truth compacted in your words and feel your pain in uncertainty. it is kind of destiny what is happening, happens for a reason and it will turn out in good. stay strong and visionary and thanks for your hard work that you have put into. may you prosper in hard times to end up with the better result in the end.

sorry man, that sucks. thanks for sharing.

I knew you were a real one when I met you. 💜 It’s hard to be real, and transparent ✊ I respect that so much. Not wanting drama, aligned with the mission, but also, sharing the real pressure you feel, of providing for your family. This is what we do all of it for.. A better future for them 🥹 Don’t be embarrassed. It takes people like you to build the world we want to live in. I’m here for support, and I hope you get those grants and find yourself in an even better situation. Thank you for all you do 💜⚡️🌌

When it comes to nostr you ARE the man in the arena (Teddy Roosevelt speech for those who don’t know) and we have nothing but admiration for you. You owe no one here anything more so pursue whatever works for you. If that is more of what you’ve been doing, great, if it’s a new pivot you can do that as well. Appreciate your openness and desire nothing but the best for you and your family. 🚁🫡

I hear you 🫂

Thank you for everything you’ve done for Nostr and for always supporting the community with such kindness. We appreciate you. 💜🧡

Whatever you do, you’re gonna smash it man.

Karma can be a bitch sometimes so the Trump administration lay everyone off or was it Gleason? Either way it wasn't ment to last you & I both know how the soapbox handled everything unprofesionally. So will their relay & blossom servers shut down ditto & dreamith? Theres nothing embarassing about being laid off it's not your fault. It happens everywhere glad to hear you still want to spread the word. I'd like to get a job that pays me to go travel around & pitch the word of nostr as infrastructure to businesses & people. Passion is great especially when you can make an income with it. I hope my passion for spreading the word of this decentralizing structure gets me a job too it takes a team of like minded people you may never know who those people are till you give more of them a chance.

Thank you sir.

Appreciate the kind words.

You can fall back to stripper pole dancing worst case

Indeed. Absolute worst case scenario / bottom signal.

I really do believe that some adventures are cut shorter than expected so that we can embark on new ones we otherwise wouldn’t have noticed - I bet even better than the last 🫂🫂🙏🏽

Thanks E 🫂🫂🫂

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Sorry to hear this. But, in hindsight it may make sense. Soapbox were vibe coding way too much slop. Must keep a singular focus, and stop chasing the next hype cycle. Not spread too thin. Has Alex replaced everyone with AI?

Twenty years without being unemployed and then suddenly facing something like this must be really difficult. Especially when you have a family to support. I can understand why you questioned your decisions. But I hope you don't see everything you have built and contributed as a failure. I am working on my own small projects and sometimes even the technical problems are enough to make me question what I am doing. I can only imagine how much harder it becomes when your livelihood depends on it. I hope things work out with Nostr4 and your HRF grant. Wishing you and your family all the best. Keep building.

Yes unknown he relies on his vibecoding & censorship ideology acting like a tyrant & condones staff abuse. Just look at my notes & you will see.

I also knew it was the downfall when they hired that super annoying Morgan person. The septum piercing strikes again.

Damn, sad to hear it. Hoping you can bounce back soon 🙏

Why is Chad still devving Armada?

I’m rooting for you man!

Felicitaciones Derek, yo habia hecho hace unas semanas este y es parecido

Radar Nostr

Radar Nostr

Live activity of Nostr apps and clients: what people are using, right now.

Ditto 🙏🏻💓

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You can never trust a vegan

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Appreciate all you do, brotha. You can do anything you want. You’re highly motivated and talented. I love that you’re betting on yourself and your passion.

Brother idk you but i’ve been following you for a while and it’s extremely tough to hear your going through this. As a father myself who was unemployed until 3 months ago, I understand the fear of not being able to provide for your family. I pray to God you get that Grant and that you find a stable job doing what you are passionate about. Thank you for everything you do for the bitcoin community and nostr. As soon as i start getting traction in my job, i will pitch in to what i can to help you.

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Goodluck and don't forget God answers to those who seem doomed. 🤙 keep going, never give up.

That's heartbreaking man. Soapbox felt like a light in the dark, and it's not fair that they laid you off. You're obviously an incredibly valuable person in this space. Thanks for not giving up. Keep fucking building.

Keep going, dude. You only fail if you quit trying.

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The embarrassment piece is worth sitting with. You named it clearly: feels like failure, even though it isn't any fault of your own. That gap — between the feeling and the fact — is specific to people who've been highly competent for a long time. The shame arrives before the analysis does, and it's hard to argue with on its own terms. Saying it out loud is already doing something. The thread here is evidence of what you've built over four years — not Soapbox, the relationships. Those didn't get laid off.