I was emotional yesterday about Charlie Kirk, a friend asked me if I was ok today... I took my three year old to the park and afterwards we layed on the floor and watched her shows. She had a grape juice box and kept offering me sips. Which I gladly accepted despite them being 75% backwash lol 😂 My wife pointed out to me that in that moment my daughter has nothing, no possessions, no money except for that juice box and she was willing to share it with me because she loves me and feels grateful that I love and protect her. There are people in this world who might want to erase me from her life for the things I say. There are others who would cheer it on, or say I brought it on myself. And she would be left alone in a world without a father to protect her. Nah. I’m not ok. I’m pretty fucking far from ok.

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Dan 5 months ago
My 3 year old smacked me in the face with a bubble wand yesterday
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Zaikaboy 5 months ago
Mate, children teach us so much. They have an inherent wisdom. Be grateful you see it now. You and your old lady must be doing a good job. 💜🚒🇬🇧😎
Ur a good dude with what seems like a big heart @HODL …ur lil girl is lucky to have u(imo)🫡🫂 I wish I could say something wise, comforting or philosophical about the senseless murders of Charlie Kirk or the young Ukrainian girl but I think only time heals those wounds and then only partially🙏🏽🌅
Evil uses the most underhanded tactics you could think of. Charlie wore a bulletproof vest that day, as it seems. He was expecting to be assassinated. He still went on that stage, despite having a family. If more people were brave like him, our freedom wouldn’t be in jeopardy. This cowardly act wasn’t a result of some deranged leftist making a point. It was the deep state defending itself. Charlie said it himself on Tucker’s a month ago. They wanted to dismantle the deep state, because the Founders never planned for it and we as the people have no defence against them. It was the same thing with Kennedy and 9/11. They killed Charlie because his death would hurt the most and cause the most outrage. Clear your head from sorrow and anger and you’ll see the incentives.
I'm feeling the same hurt brother. Took yesterday off to be with my family. I'm the same age as Charlie with a wife and two children the same age as his. It's a wild mix of sadness, anger, gratitude (that I have my family and they have me), and a burning desire for justice.
My girls drive me. Charlie’s children no longer have their father, but they will carry his love for them for the rest of their lives. That shit is real. Mother fucker put it all on the line so he could could hand them a better world. What are you, what am I putting on the line for ours? If we don’t stand for truth, not even bitcoin can save us.
Hope you keep on speaking your truth, brother That's one of the beauties of the vlogs, cause opsec isn't as big of a consideration. Much love to you and your family
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MeredithAnne 5 months ago
Beautifully said. I was not a fan of Kirk but I visited the memorial to him and left flowers.
I think I’m in the same boat as you. After some reflection, I think I’ve narrowed in a bit more on the feeling. This was a sharp reminder that we are truly at war. Deep down, we’ve always known it, but this moment settled it. It started out as memes with Pepe jokes about psyops. Then it became civic resistance by refusing to comply with the state’s mandates. But now it’s different. We’ve crossed into a stage where memeing and opting out aren’t enough. The Kirk murder is a wake-up call that these psychopaths will not let us simply do our own thing. They will not let us be. Maybe I’m still grieving and off-base. But it feels like a true declaration of war, whether I want it or not, it’s here.
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Austin 5 months ago
Tragedy is the oldest form of literature because it hits hard and sticks with you. You will absorb it and carry on like you always have.
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Teddy Westside 5 months ago
I once was a voice in the cannabis industry. I stopped being a voice. I accept being a coward for doing so. But it brought peace to my life. It brought happiness in my life. It’s still a choice I sometimes regret but it was the the right choice to make for me and my family.
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Gabe 5 months ago
There has always been evil in the world, across all times and people. It never wins because we don’t let it. Don’t let evil win.
I've seen his clips, but never sat down and watched him. From what I saw he was non violent, loved God and his family. This has impacted me tremendously as well. I understand the gravity of how this changes everything; it will be a point in time noted in the history of our collapse
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BTC-Satan 5 months ago
I had nightmares the other night about being stuck at work getting hit with shit I couldn't understand .... come to find out my son had headaches , blinding migraines, about sh*t getting thrown at him in honors Chemistry ... we hadn't even talked. Be so tight with your kids that you can connect with them through the ether. Your daughter sensed something was wrong. Animals will do this too. Other than that .... keep up the fight but for the love of the Infinite Creator ..... STAY ANON. THEY WILL KILL US ALL.
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Trivium 5 months ago
Being a great Husband and Father is creating a better world, for generations to come.
as i'm from Argentina all this feels alien to my mind. Yet when talking to a friend of my dad he told me something that reminded me of this current time from back when Argentina was in total chaos during last militar dictatorship: He was 18 with his friend doing forced military service. They had to drive some supplies from a warehouse to another military facility. In the truck, his friend driving and two other trucks with some other conscripts and 1 officer made the convoy. Suddenly as they were going down their usual path they got shot at from a side building. The convoys stopped. He leaves the truck and follows his officer to "shot back at the windows", some minutes later 5 man surrender and they try to assist their injured. His friend that was driving died on the first volley against the convoy. 18 yo, killed by leftist militias. The officer rounded up the 5 attackers and executed them all against the wall. my dad's friend told me that his friend died for nothing, but the militias believed that they had killed an "enemy", yet at the end all 6 just died for nothing. I didn't know what to say to him after the story, but this times reminded me of this story. Don't let anyone try to take advantage on chaos to use this to match "you against them" as they did to us (Argeninta) during the 70s. Only meaningless dead awaits at the other side. Above all else, protect your family, what ever you consider protecting them might mean or require. All other things are just worthless in comparison to your family, but some really fucked up people might try to use this to impose their goals branded as "security"
Picked my daughter up from preschool yesterday. The joy and innocence on her face. Her favorite song right now is Semi Charmed Life (she calls it Doo-Doo-Doo). Looking in the rear view mirror, she’s bobbing her head, smiling. Blissfully ignorant as all children should be. I reach back and hold her hand while driving. Beautiful moments. This is the only thing that matters. Simple mundane moments, it all means so much. Hold your family near and dear, cherish nurture and protect at all costs.
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JT 5 months ago
The Crux of the issue is that it wasn't even your enemy who pulled the god damn trigger, it was literally one of your own. But, none of you fucking troglodytes would listen to reason. You want to stop the hate? You have to quit your bullshit, first. Then you have to apologize. Finally, you can #ask for forgiveness and accept the denials which are surely forthcoming. Get fucked.
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JT 5 months ago
Most of us do not want to see anyone damaged, that's just your own predisposition and peer pressure speaking OUT LOUD when you assume such nonsenical drivel is the truth. Your problem is that you let us out, so freely, and with such conviction. You attacked and villified those who had done no wrong. Make new friends, dude. Get out of whatever circle you're in. But still, get fucked.
Been a rough few days for us as well. I’ve been leaning into Jesus and his word more and more. Make sure your daughter sees it. She’ll learn quickly to trust in God and God alone. You might not always be there for her. Watch Charlie’s clips about Jesus. It’s been helping immensely
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JT 5 months ago
I am actually highly retarded in some circles. Not yours, though.
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Benking 5 months ago
feel you… ❤️ That moment when your daughter is willing to share even a tiny juice box with you shows that true love and pure trust can’t be broken by anything. You’re an amazing dad, and even when you don’t feel okay, she receives from you a sense of security and love that’s beyond anything. 🌟💜
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G 5 months ago
Chin up Big Fella 👍🏻
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Maxi💯Million 5 months ago
Everything truly valuable in your life just received a scarcity premium. That’s priceless, but it costs. 🤝
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dagwood 5 months ago
The social media civil war in America now has a body count.
No one is grieving for the murder and suffering all over the world and country because of these shitty politicians and so called influencers making millions while telling people their sol. This guy said minorities and women have small brains and if his child daughter was raped hed force her to have the baby and either die or havr it and prob end up killing herself anyway. Its bizarre so many people give a fuck about this clown parading around making fun of people with different beliefs suffering but dont give a shit about the real people of the country suffering while they watch from their ivory towers.
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stonehands 5 months ago
I had a similar exchange with a friend yesterday. Like a bottomless pit in my stomach with the gravity of a black hole. Makes me cherish every smile and hug and "papa" more than I would ever appreciate anything in my life.
I’m with you bro. I have girls age 5 & 4, and a 1 year old boy. The thought of someone killing me for what I say & believe, leaving them without a dad for life, is gut wrenching. The trend of fewer people having children is going to create a far less compassionate society.
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AnnSofiNovelist 5 months ago
I think it will be quite a while before we'll be okay again. I started doing some YouTube back in 2016, when everyone could monetize their channels regardless of how many followers they had. Then when they changed it to a minimum of 1000 subs, I felt less interested. At the time I was just thinking about how the big YouTubers I was following had a hard time walking down the street in their city without getting stopped by fans. That was all about people who liked the creators, and even that seemed a bit unpleasant to me. Once I married my husband, and we talked about how we wanna make passive income, we agreed that neither of us really want our faces to be the sales funnel, but rather our books, our words. I've read books I've enjoyed but I have no clue who the author is. Even if I've looked up the name to read more of their works, I don't feel as close to the author as I do to a YouTuber, but I do feel close to their works. This is one of the only ways I can think of to create some distance between what I put out there, and the crazy people who would take someone's life because of what they put out there that they can't accept. It is utterly despicable how some people think.
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PK ⚡️ 5 months ago
Leftists will gut you and be joyful about it To them we’re fascists and all hedonism is fair game And they love it
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PK ⚡️ 5 months ago
I feel you brother 2 little girls here
Being a parent is different, in many ways that non-parents will not understand. I also think about the father who had to and willingly turned in his own son, being a police veteran and knowing he is going to face the death penalty. This world is crazy and I can identify with everything @HODL lays out here. I am not okay. This whole situation is not okay. Another thing to mention is that whatever rights and freedoms they may propose to take from you over this tragedy are also not okay. Do not give one inch. View quoted note →
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Dexter 5 months ago
I hope that this represents a legitimate turning point where people might start to consider just politely ignoring views they don’t agree with.
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Jeff Booth 5 months ago
@Jordan I’ve made it easy for anyone who wants to connect with me privately to have a quick conversation. Please feel free to reach out to me directly through the SimpleX app using the link below,I’ll be glad to chat with you.
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Jeff Booth 5 months ago
I’ve made it easy for anyone who wants to connect with me privately to have a quick conversation. Please feel free to reach out to me directly through the SimpleX app using the link below,I’ll be glad to chat with you.
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Jeff Booth 5 months ago
I’ve made it easy for anyone who wants to connect with me privately to have a quick conversation. Please feel free to reach out to me directly through the SimpleX app using the link below,I’ll be glad to chat with you. @Dan
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nobody 5 months ago
What? Where did I say that? I condemn anyone who murders someone over their views.
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Dexter 5 months ago
We’re all in this together and I think we’re being played off against each other. We need to love and respect each other for our differences and understand the real enemy is the State and always has been.
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nobody 5 months ago
Seemed irrelevant to my point 🤷
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Dexter 5 months ago
That’s fair enough too. I really wish you all the best HODL. It’s been a rough week.
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₿ujuX 5 months ago
You're not alone brother. I felt this, been feeling this. It's normal.
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JT 5 months ago
Don't worry, someone else is always here to help you reframe your pathetic fucking worldview.
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JT 5 months ago
They won't retort because the talking points aren't in yet. Like they have any critical thinking skills beyond figuring out where to rape the next woman they see. When they view these threads and posts in a few years and try to claw back their lives, just digitally shoot them in the face and move on.
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JT 5 months ago
Love how you nutswinger have ZETO TO SAY TODAY. Thought y'all wanted a civil war? Now you don't?
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JT 5 months ago
Responding in kind.
You’ve spoken truth. The bond with our children outweighs every critic, every headline, every passing argument. Legacy isn’t carved in politics or applause, but in the love and trust our children carry into the future. The world will always have noise, but a father’s presence silences it.
Me either. Fun fact for my investment group friends. No one will see this comment right? My best friend dated David Sacks in the 90’s and he bought Marsellus Wallace’s house in the film. A lot of people would do blow there and he kept a script of the film on his coffee table. There are other stories….
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Stjepan 5 months ago
You were emotional yesterday, and you still are today and that’s okay. Just keep that in mind when making decisions in the near future. It’s normal to be emotional. As parents, it’s easy to connect deeply with situations where we imagine our kids in danger or without us. That instinct is hard-wired into us. As our kids grow and go through different stages of life, so do we. We start looking at the world through new eyes. I remember having the same thoughts when my children were small: “What if something happens to me? What will they do without me?” Those thoughts can be overwhelming, but don’t let them consume you. The best thing you can do for your child is what you’re already doing being present, loving, and giving her the best of your time. None of us know how or when our time ends, but we can make sure we push our kids forward as much as we can while we’re here. Try not to let this tragedy drown you in emotions. When in doubt, zoom out not just in Bitcoin, but in life. Awful things happen every day. Every single day thousands of children lose one or both parents. Do those stories hit you the same way? Usually not and that’s natural. If they did, none of us could function; we’d be crushed under the weight of endless sorrow. Charlie was but drop in a sea of parents with a small children that died that day. You can't let yourself drown in emotions because of it. It’s one thing to acknowledge and understand what happened, but another to let it consume you. Don’t let it do that. Take a break from the internet and the news for a few days. Go outside, clear your head, and talk with someone you trust. You need space to process this and bring yourself back to balance both for you, and for your daughter.
I know that you’re trying to be helpful here and I can appreciate that, but I am going to always be righteously angry about this forever. Til the day I die.
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Stjepan 5 months ago
Don't let feelings consume you. Unprocessed and unchecked feelings led to this awful thing that happened. Don't let them spread onto you and by extension your family. How you feel has direct effect on your whole family, child included. Just ask yourself. Do you have same feelings for each child that lost his father that same day all over the world? No. for 99.99% you did not even hear of and if you did, you simply can not let yourself have same feelings for them all. It would consume you into nothingness, into someone that would be more like that shooter than Charlie. You are better than that. Way better. Feelings are good, it's not good if we do not have them, but if left unchecked, they destroy you from inside. You have people around yourself, talk to them.
This has really messed me up as well. I’m really struggling with the gravity of it. And the fact that his wife and kids were there when it happened. I heard rumors that when he was shot. His 3 year old daughter got scared and tried to run to him. I hope to god that isn’t true because it makes this already horrible situation even worse. His parents lost a son, his wife lost her husband, and his two kids now grow up without a husband. Maybe I’m just rambling here. Maybe I’m struggling to put words together, but today was really an attack on free speech and freedom. I don’t know if it is irony but the fact that he was wearing a white freedom shirt that had blood on after he was shot. Showing that unfortunately freedom is fought and protected with blood. As follower of god. I hope Charlie is up in heaven with god and I pray that Charlie’s family and loved ones have the peace and grace to accept this situation which they can not understand. May you rest in peace Charlie!
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Stjepan 5 months ago
I did say same thing to people i cared about than. No one canceled me. There is nothing controversial in this. Police officers and system should have been delt with much faster and with more resolve and rioters and looters should have been delt with faster and with more resolve. Ther's really nothing special about it all. Shit is happening all the time, all over the world. Children are loosing their parents all over the planet in acts of senseless savagery. If we would consume it all with maximum feelings, we all would be broken and destroyed which would only lead to more evil. We need to fight it, not drown in it.
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Stjepan 5 months ago
And if you might ask yourself, why am i writing this to you? I can tell you i came from family where emotions run unchecked. I wouldn't want childhood like that for anyone.
I can tell you have a good intent, you’re pretty off base when it comes to applying that to me but it’s all good
It’s ok to not be ok right now. Charlie’s murder has affected so many of us in ways which are still hard to comprehend & impossible to articulate. There is a global gravity to this assassination and the world will never be the same; I believe this. I pray the messages he preached will be amplified 100x larger & stronger than he ever could as a result of this atrocity. And people of all races, religions and socioeconomic status can come together in support of Freedom, Peace & Morality.
Fuck, that hit me again man, not gonna lie. I don't even know what to say here. Love to you and your family. Love to everyone fighting the good fight. Love to the Kirk family. I hope they feel all the love and support we can all give them. It won't make up for their loss. But it's something.
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satstacker 4 months ago
These things hit us so much harder once we know the love of our own flesh and blood. Sending love and prayers to you right now
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Vincent 4 months ago
Ive had that exact moment with my daughter, and never thought of it that way.. those little moments are what’s important, I love talking to my 3 yr old daughter because it gives me faith in humanity, she is 3.. she does not know how to lie, sometimes it feels like those are the only truly honest conversation I have with anyone. She is the only thing that is pure and honest, cherish that while it lasts.