Ostensibly yeah, that was the point of deleting her accounts and leaving. Best case it's the best way to utilize my obsession with her while she tries to grieve her boyfriend that committed suicide. Worst case it's reverse psychology trying to distract me from even more scary shit. Middle ground, it's her wanting me to die, or it's her assuming I've moved on because nobody cares enough to tell her I talk about her all the time and she thinks someone would care enough to tell her. I really hope it's just her best way to utilize me while she's grieving. That way I'm being useful to her with all this fear instead of just hurting her by being hurt by her.

Have you considered that maybe she just wants to be left alone? Where does that lie on the scale?