She said so, but if she wanted to be left alone, she shouldn't have constantly made me panic about her more and more. That's got me pretty locked in to obsessing over her forever, which also makes me think she was kinda lying about wanting to be left alone.

Thank you for the replies by the way. Getting to talk about her for a few replies in a row really helps. I'll try to be a good listener if you ever need to talk about anything too.