but lately i’ve been out of sorts! among many other things, i have been drinking too much caffeine and i have ~really~ quit nicotine recently 😃

it took me 40 years to get there, but adderall really helped me

adderall for being calm and not being out of sorts? or for quitting nicotine? all of the above?

for replacing the need for caffeine / nicotine. though I still like coffee, and have never used nicotine

oh. i see. now im wondering how adderall works like that. i would tho prefer not to do “drugs” and have actually been thinking a lot about even totally quitting the light ones that i still use, caffeine and weed. but maybe i will need to think about trying adderall later on. idunno. ✨🙏✨🤗✨

~mother~ of gob i think im delirious

it was very surprising to me. i had never considered that I might be affected by adhd, but I eventually realized that some everyday things continued to be difficult for me as an adult. i did a formal evaluation that confirmed it, and started adderall. it provided the state of mind that i associated with having coffee, but for 6 ~ 8 hours and with no jitters. where i had frequently needed to "warm up" before working on something, i would often just do it. there is some emotional suppression, but on a measured dose it isn't much and it's generally improved my patience with people. i was also worried about addiction, but it seems to be more of a dependence, like coffee had been for me. ymmv, but my wife agrees that it has broadly improved my life

i appreciate this so much. thank you. i honestly believe my main issue is stress, which can cause lots of havoc in people. but, at the same time, you’ve given me good reasons to question what i believe about myself. i am so very thankful for your kindness and will be looking into things further and differently now.