I feel this most right now in trying not to be entitled to quiet evenings and weekends. Leisure can be productive — I don't need to (or get to) just sit around and read/play/watch in my quiet time. Better to play music, do woodworking, draw, talk, write, or even do paperwork. The idea that personal energy is a zero-sum game is something I'm still unlearning.

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That’s a really good framing. Unlearning the zero sum view of energy is huge. I wonder how much of that mindset comes from the industrial model of work, the idea that effort always drains instead of enriches. What helped you start to unlearn that?
I think just being an adult. My kids play rugby on saturdays, things in my house break at inconvenient times, my son is now allowed to stay up late 2 days of the week. I need to read difficult books in the evenings. I have to get up early to accomplish everything. I have to do my taxes, vote, etc. But also getting older means I won't live forever, and there is so much I want to do. I won't regret not watching TV, but I will regret never building a house, taking my kids backpacking, writing poetry, etc
My story is simmilar. Retirement doesn't mean playing golf and drinking Mai-Tai's to me. It's about doing stuff that's more valuable to me than my employer.