A reminder

It was painful back when I generally cared about humans even though nobody cared about me as much as they cared about people that wanted to kill me. I've learned to care about ALMOST 0 humans, but it's still unbearably painful to care about people like Digit who never seemed to care about me as much as she cared about people that want to kill me. And I can't imagine how painful it would be to finally learn to care about absolutely 0 humans. I have no good options after being born into a world of suicide cultists.

I guess the painful thing is that 2 people liking each other is not the same thing as friendship. There are people I don't hate at all, who don't seem to hate me at all, but they all take the side of the suicide cult instead of mine, so liking each other doesn't make us friends.

@Kayne why do you support scammers raising money to pay the Israelis? People in Gaza should be on nostr so they can talk about what the Israelis are doing without getting removed or banned, not so they can do fundraisers for the Israelis. I've been quiet about this lately and tried to show you some support but it's just criminal and I have to stand against it

This video is a micro-summary of the past several years of my life. No matter what I need to do, it's just me spamming my part of it for no fucking results because the other people I'm relying on won't do their fucking parts of the process. View quoted note →

Npubs other than me who care that lightning is a scam, don't at all seem to care what happens to me personally. Npubs who might kinda seem to care what happens to me, don't at all seem to care that lightning is a scam, no matter how much of my life is fucking wasted by the scammers that run nostr and other social media. People off nostr don't even care what happens to me enough to be on nostr. I don't think I have any real friends.

Remember that I gave @primal A MILLION FUCKING SATS because I was so fucking tired of people pretending it was my fucking fault for not paying when they blocked and censored me. And still nobody fucking cares, a lot of you temporarily got upset over fuckstr being banned but nobody fucking stands up for me. I'm so fucking tired of life this morning. I can't stop fucking crying. I'm so fucking tired of not knowing if Digit is alive and being surrounded by people that just constantly remind me there's no one else like her How the fuck would you feel if everyone around you just stole your fucking money and spent years psychologically torturing you and not fucking caring

Having a different name kept making me more and more scared so I changed it back. I guess I'll still probably change it sometimes but keep changing it back until I know Digit is safe.

Odysseus is a bitch married to a bigger bitch, but Homer made him really strong and lucky and called him "smart" for being lucky with all his bitch plans. Absolute shit story that reflects how shitty and dumb humans are. Still surprised Nolan managed to make it even worse.

Was not on nostr much for the past 24 hours because my main nostr machine was busy processing gigabytes of files. Did I miss anything?

As long as there's no proof the fight is over, we have to keep fighting.

I've always said I might be one of the US citizens that gets drone striked on American soil someday, and the merging of the US and Israeli militaries makes it feel increasingly likely. Still not sure how to change this and stop the US from getting to where citizens keep getting hit with drones on US soil.

Having one of those days where I just keep panicking about the safety of Digit and myself and everyone. Operate your machinery safely pls folks

I just backed up the project files for my current project, you should too if you're reading this. I have a feeling

Homer's epics are extremely shitty storytelling, especially the Odyssey, but Nolan somehow made it even worse.