I dont expect anything from nostr. I treat it like my own personal blog of sorts. Post things i find funny, interesting or whatever. Little moments here and there. I'm sorry you're not enjoying it like you used to. Maybe some detox time is needed to renew yourself? Shadow work maybe?
Alot of what i read above is your own perception "i don't feel like i belong"
Says who?
"Tech convos i know nothing about"
Well you could choose to learn about them but if this isn't your bag don't force yourself to learn about things you've no interest in.
"I felt like i was annoying people or came off disingenuous "
This is another perception that you have, did anyone actually tell you this or was this just battles you were facing with yourself in your own head?
You moved to el Salvador? I wasn't aware of that. Good for you! Id read a similar thread about someone else that has said they also had the same feelings you did towards the whole thing. Unfortunate. I never understood why people act like one thing online then another IRL.
Don't force yourself to have to "keep up" with anything but you dear! Bitcoin is just a tool, at the end of the day the goal is happiness, make sure you keep that goal square in mind and you'll go far.
Cheers.
