Thank you for sharing. Yes, these were mainly triggers that led me to eventually leave the church. I have grown up, and I have realised that I could actually come back aware of what is behind the curtain (or the priest in that case)... But the reason I will not do that is the impact the church and my catholic education had on me. It made me feel divided, separated from God and from myself, separated from nature, and cut me off from other spiritual traditions that were despised in religious class (when not erased by the church in history). It took me a long time to find that back and I am still struggling for this. I re-learn to trust my guts and feelings, to live my life more connected to my intuitions, my heart and the divine. Reading about Jesus helps me for this but the church (and institutionalised religion in general) does not. I need to draw my own spiritual path and share with others the fundamental message of all religions, which is always Love.