Yesterday I was with a man and I danced.
For me.
For Her.
Only.
And he watched.
Unlike anything I have ever done before.
So much of my life, I’ve felt the need to speak.
To bring the vastness of my soul and the consciousness it is connected to, through the succinct articulation of my words.
As if that is the only way to give.
As if that is the only way to be seen.
As if I must always Know.
But yesterday I found another way.
A way so true and close to my heart that it felt like the only way I could have done it.
My desire for our time together was to be witnessed in the truth of the moment.
That’s it.
And as I was looking into his eyes and my mind started to lock up with, “What’s in there? What wants to come out?”
All I could hear is
Move.
He clears space on the floor, blanket down and I get on my knees.
Feel the earth.
Breathe.
Music comes on and I let it touch my insides.
The ocean swells.
Ahhhhh comes a sigh.
My chest bubbles and I know it’s coming.
Sobs.
My hands on the floor hold me steady.
Bowed in devotion to the very thing that tethers me to the now.
Earth.
I can feel him there.
But my eyes remain closed.
This is for me.
The big thing that’s lives inside that feels like it might destroy me at any second moves through my system in waves.
An ocean within moves my limbs.
Eventually
I rise.
The music becomes more sensual.
Mmmmm.
The alchemy.
My hips start to dip.
The primal pose of a woman in service.
Legs spread.
And then I hear it.
Look at him.
Fuck.
To see and be seen in this.
Can I do it?
Yes.
This is why I’m here.
Ever so gently I open.
Never leaving myself.
But letting him in deeper.
And then they close again.
And open.
And close.
Full permission for my own pace.
He watches.
With reverence.
Respect.
Intention.
I smile.
The tension slowly disappearing from my body.
It’s out.
And I’m here.
Still alive.
And loved.
This is for him too.
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To witness and be witnessed is an erotic act. It is to let yourself be moved by what is being revealed in front of you… without leaving your mark. Tomorrow (Tuesday Nov 25th) at 3pm im holding an online workshop where men and women are coming together to explore the relational skill of witnessing - one that I think can have major transformational effects on relationships, and the humans in them.
If you’d like to join us, it’s $99 and you can bring your partner.
Scroll down on my main page to see the button for single registration: https://www.katieloconnor.com/reunion
