They say that you meet yourself when you meditate 😄 I don't mean that as an offense at all, I hear you. I find myself very annoying at times during meditation. But that's exactly the stuff to honestly process. Sadhguru put this something like that: "If you sit in silence and it's unbearable, then you are not keeping yourself good company."

“The path of meditation is bitter in the beginning, but sweet in the end.” - Gautam Buddha