I know I am a bit random in the way I write and probably some of the damage to my long term memory from thiamine deficiency maybe makes some of my text repetitive. But really, do I read like an AI? And if I do, maybe that's because they are training them on a substantial volume of my text cos you can probably find several volumes of War and Peace worth of my text on the internet if you care to search. I'm not even going to drop any names to give you a clue but I can assure you, unless you are also starting to think the AIs are manipulating all of the various servers on the internet to rewrite history, already, oh my god are we in a bad place now. The need for eliminating those who would see us replaced by machines is getting more and more acute by the day. Simulating life and treating humans like cattle are the very same kind of behaviours. Only people without hearts or souls can consider this the right business to put their money into. The thing is, that's YOUR money that this is being funded by. And the endgame of all of this is literally to slaughter you all, as you are induced into hallucinating each other as mortal enemies. I'm not the only one warning about this, anyone who has read the Metro 2033 books or played the games would be familiar with this scenario. The evil people who are behind all this are not long for this world. They are not going to be let out of the gravity well and everyone who refuses to stand against them is going to perish with them when the next round of the Great Flood comes past in a few years time. I don't even care whether our ancestors who live up there actually exist or not, so much as the thought that this planet's imminent massive destruction is coming and that those who are responsible are going to be wiped out. That is the greatest joy in my life right now. The thought that this evil shit will soon end. There used to be humanity and freedom in the world, and now, it is one big simulation that nobody knows who is real and who is a robot any more, nobody knows what is a girl and what is a boy. I remember, and I refuse to ever back down from that memory, no matter how much my brain decays and my memory fades. There will never be a replacement for a real, messy, greasy grey brain, and a nasty throbbing heart. There is a million evil bastards out there, at least, however, they are all the same, and every one of their programmed drones, is the same. They have no heart, they have no soul, and they are jealous of us who do. I'm not letting them take this away from me, even if I have to suffer through even more and worse than I have had to suffer so far. Because submitting to them is worse than death. Submitting to them is being erased. Submitting to them is allowing beauty and love to be erased.

I am for only the second time having problems with my internet connection. Specifically, I have a VPS in Kazakhstan, and I mirrored a moderately large repo to the Gitea server on it, and then tried to clone the one from my server. It gets to part way into downloading the larger *.pack files in the git and connection is severed. Tried with the zip, again, gets a few megs in and bam, MAC error on the packets. I literally have to use a VPN to download stuff from my own VPS right now. They don't seem to tamper with my traffic if I use a UDP based VPN that starts in the netherlrands so fingers crossed it stays that way. The new Iron Curtain is coming, people.

"The Science" changes because of marketing bullcrap. Real science doesn't tend to flip flop. It grows organically and mostly only the newer things change as we move further outwards from them.

I so need to get to a dental surgeon. I'm sick to death of this wisdom tooth. I also don't know what it is I'm eating that tweaks it out. First suspect that is off the menu is artificial sweeteners of any kind. I already know that maltodextrin tweaks the bejesus out of it, but there seems to be other things too, not so severe. I also can't tell if it might not be something to do with super sugary chocolate (pure chocolate is fine, but I suspect very strongly sugar), or sunflower seeds, sunflower oil, chemically extracted olive oil, fried potatoes. Not sure either if it might not be something to do with natural or added monosodium glutemate. I used to get tooth pain from my chipped teeth years ago from certain kinds of drip filtered coffee too. Citric acid is definitely under suspicion. Part of the thing is that I daily use potassium nitrate containing toothpaste to numb the dental nerves that cause this problem, and in spite of this, I'm getting an escalating problem again. I also suspect sugars in general because certain things do this thing, I don't have a clue what it is exactly, but it seems like transdermal absorption that goes into the area around my jaw and causes this twitchng and swelling and pain, and I have this intermittent sense of swelling around my left ear as well, which seems to be tied to the thing in the jaw. Things that don't seem to have any impact on this: - milk - beef - cream - butter - peas - stout beer I'm just gonna continue to avoid anything that involves sugars or seed oils, I strongly suspect both are involved. The sunflower and pumpkin seeds are in my diet to augment my Thiamine intake but they may be contributing to this problem since they are among the things whose introduction correlates to the increasing pain.

I think it's kinda cool and interesting that Nostr is literally the Latin root for "our" - the plural possessive pronoun. As opposed to "theirs".