NTS: Less time in ineffective self-contemplation and more time in daily real-world face-plants. See yourself clearly by daily confrontations with oneself in the real world, not in confronting a preferred subset of yourself in a controlled environment. Stop navel-gazing and get a job. Try to live in the world with full cognizance of the failed attempts towards the spiritual life.

This misguided soul of mine continues to believe that it is very spiritually advanced and certainly on the threshold of sainthood. Such fatal delusions are to be expected when the spiritual life is practiced in isolation and repentance is entirely neglected. The self who practices the spiritual life in isolation is not aware of his other selves.

Planes slicing through 3d space visible in 2d projection