My first job is my family. I treat caring for my family like caring for my business, I seek advice, try different strategies, and continuously work to strengthen it. It’s my most valuable resource. Some books I took a lot from were Grit, Atomic Habits, The Secrets of Happy Families, and Decluttering at the speed of life… I’ve learned a lot, but it never once occurred to me until recently that someone’s love language could be NOSTR…. Never stop getting to know your loved ones.

So last week I responded to someone's silly comment with the gif below, and now I am solely surviving on nasal drip. I think there may be a witch among us.

my repeating ballad.. You said you loved me But what does that mean? Would you cry if I were to leave? In my aching hands Running down your spine You said you loved me, how? Wait for me by the water On the first rain of June And I'll be there with ***all the letters I ever wrote For you, for you**** Let's pack our bags And ***head to the Rockies, babe Just you and I Getting lost in open spaces **** When you wake I'll be right there, baby When you shake I'll be shaking with you, hon' And when you get tired of this town Let me know, and we can go somewhere brand new 'Cause ***when I lay my head to rest I hope that it's always next to you**** When you run, when you're gone Oh, ***I'll be waiting for you, dear*** Don't you cry Know I'm right here, my baby, baby Know that I Need you in my life When the morning comes Creeping in your bed Just hold me close To your flesh And when you get tired of this town Let me know, and ***we can go somewhere brand new*** 'Cause when I lay my head to rest I hope that it's always next to you When you run, when you're gone Oh, I'll be waiting for you, dear When you get tired of this town Let me know, and we can go somewhere brand new 'Cause when I lay my head to rest I hope that it's always next to you ***Always next to you, baby***

Many moons ago I was walking around in my socks and I stepped on a palmetto bug. I call them that to make them less gross but let’s face it, it’s a giant fucking flying cockroach. (iy from the south yk) I almost puked from the pop it made underfoot and insides squishing out. However, for us southerners this is not a tenable dynamic. So I put in the work. And now when my kid crushes one of these things and flushes it down the toilet with a smile, I know I’m doing it right. They will be independent, strong humans who keep their house clean from infestations. But of course if there is ever a roach they can’t reach, I will not hesitate to squash it for them, no matter how distasteful it is. Any flying creature really.

Speaking of waves... ocean motions sure seem to come naturally to some math nerds. Keep plugging at way at the #1 mission.

People get consumed with becoming a “great” person—so enamored with their supposed brilliance that they convince themselves they’re exempt from the work of being a good person like the rest of us. As if their breakthrough idea or world-altering technology is the only fix that matters. But without good people, what exactly is this “better world” they claim to be building? And where do they imagine themselves fitting into it? If the entire mission boils down to defeating some rival—whether a government, an oligarch, a billionaire, or a cypherpunk—and they’ve abandoned any moral compass along the way, how different are they from the enemy they’re trying to beat? Perhaps they're just a shitbag fighting a dickwad, each convinced they’re the hero in their own story.

I didn't mean ducking. You know it's not ducking. It's NEVER ducking.

I don't have a zero inbox but I keep it pretty clean, 15 or less. The oldest one is from many moons ago to a certain "Jewel Moppet" Kisses > Love letters but I can keep both ;D

Talking into the void is nice. A good opportunity to express unpopular opinions. S6 Buffy is my favorite. Buffy is honestly my least fave character (well except for Dawn obvi - RIP Michelle). S6 Buffy is a badass. A lost, sad, girl living in the same world she always has, but feeling the feels most of us go through at some point. She's out there saving the world while suffering from the consequences of acting on bad relationship choices, realizing all the love of her friends can't make her love herself, and dealing with a bad guy who is just a guy doing bad things (humans are the worst). Simulation or not, she chooses her best life in the end. Sometimes we are hit with the realization life will not be the heaven we imagined. We can wallow in the waiting place hoping to be proven wrong, or we can move forward to a new season of life. Me, I'm over here living my best season and thankful I have the wisdom and family support to know which plot points are just filler episodes - but my heart does hurt a little for those girls of all ages who are still struggling to build the most valuable systems in life.

"Ballet is hard, y'all." -my dance teacher tonight. As hard as ballet is, I'll choose 100 battements to "Golden" over the mental escapades of this week so far.