So… Instacart card and banking- I finally made the $150 towards the bill- it’s paid but still have to fix the $150 OD fee. Basically I needed $300- from Instacart just for the bill and all the gas etc- in 3 days- anyway- so- get cash out at Meijer- I had $154 and .20 cents or some- so, buy something cheap get cash out- well, Meijer only let $50 back at a time- at least it wasn’t an ATM fee- the little fake Lego thing Sean actually liked and of course the candy- so- then…. Off to speedway to put the $ on Cash App to send to my mom (she’s been helping with this bill) I took $151 - @jack the guy says I have to call my manager for anything over $150 .. I’m like 👍🏻 - no answer- then he’s like well.. I can do $150 and that’ll leave you with $149. Ok fine I said- I’m like- wth? I have a serious curse with $ on me- something- my mom is horrible with $. I’m not. I take after my dad. It’s like I’m paying a price for bad $ decisions- for humanity- so… I’m home, feel like shit, still sick cough but not as bad- still on steroid and my antibiotic- did a shit ton of instacart- rich people tipping $3 bucks like my life is to serve them with no dignity. Life on the homestead. I kinda had an altercation with a dude (over 70) in Kroger- I was getting 2 of the same - shrimp Alfredo (gross) frozen dinners for a customer- scanning one to make sure it was right- grab the other one and this guy wanted me to move- 2 ladies taking up The whole aisle next to me didn’t get- excuse me (like he wanted me dead) like a fricking nasty old man - I held up my hand and said- I’m getting my stuff. He about ran me over- earlier in Sam’s Club this lady about ran into me and if I wouldn’t have moved - she would have- I called her a bitch. Wasn’t fun with people and their demons today. In fact- all weekend sucked.

Interesting news. Did the day, a long one. Do the long day tomorrow. Good news though, I bought bananas. Potassium loading- bought name brand mucinex for my chest to loosen up with this damn nasty mucus bacteria. Epson salts to take a hot bath, but I’m to icky tired. Sean needs to u load the dishwasher so I can load it. The dogs missed me a lot. Cookie was chirping. Like 10-6 or so I was gone. Doesn’t feel like a long time but, it was. Need like $70+ tomorrow. 🍌

So did some delivery for customers today. Instacart. I was left in a bind again- I fricking hate this $ system. Had to use the rescue inhaler- this damn chest cold- have till Sunday to make $150 for a bill AND keep gas in the car and some food stuff. Have to pay the bill Monday. Whining? Trust me you’d be whining with my situation. Sick as a dog, disabled go haul a 40 pack of water, protein drink box, Gatorade case, capri sun, don’t smush the grapes or the beef jerky box up steep stairs to the house. 3 orders- Costco size- get up, go do it…

So… first off @jack doing a great interview talking about choice over our own $. It was a long time ago, but it’s still relevant today. Then, tik tok is like… do UGC etc- break down of monthly expenses (it’s messy but, basically with a very low food budget, no trips, no eating out, if you made $30,000 a month after taxes- health insurance- cheap house etc- you’d have $9623 per month to add some stuff- the 4 of us eating out at ours way is at least $60-$80 add all my kids- 5 plus their SO over $100, add dog grooming, vet visits, tv subscriptions and that $9,623 gets eaten up fast. Then… he fell over and was screaming- I kinda tapped him while gimping and he fell off his spike. @jack I keep fixing things - like my prescriptions, didn’t know how much they were going to be- the fix- as soon as they are sent- Walmart texts they were received and with ins or good rx they will be $6 when filled. I was stressing out- I didn’t know how much they’d be- seems simple but it’s a fix that is necessary. This video you’re talking about our choice’s regarding our $. These last 2 weeks have been nightmarish- getting sick like I am (this morning was better) has been very difficult with my disabled ankle/foot everything is extra anyway. Running the kids to the drs- etc. I literally meet an issue and start fixing it- if someone was reading my soul (my internal processor) we’d be hero’s or demons for helping people. So glad it’s Friday. I might have to do instacart- I’m trying to not do it. I’m still coughing. Deep cough. Going out to be exposed to more crap. Not a great idea- anyway, I’ll work with you, (as I do) on this prescription system- etc.

Ongoing event- using death to bacteria aides-

So, Sean to urgent care today- bronchitis. Antibiotic, steroids and a new rescue inhaler. Got my prescriptions that were delayed and his. Mine were $6 bucks. His were $0. I’m finally home with me bag of ice for ice water. I emailed school with his drs notes- he’s off today and tomorrow. Crud needs to leave. I’m starting the movie Heretic with Hugh Grant- the opening is interesting.

So Sean went fishing with Austin and his mom- he’s happy he caught this one.

So, I have acute bacterial bronchitis- went to ER. My BP was high. I got a steroid shot in my right leg and an antibiotic before I left- she prescribed antibiotics for me at home and steroids. I still have insurance issues. I’ll get my scripts tomorrow. Earlier I took Ben to urgent care- he got antibiotics- I’m picking those up. He gonna drs note. Oh, I had an ekg done because I said the top of my chest was tight- it’s this damn cold etc. it was fine. Bills due, disabled ankle/foot etc- my conversation with my mom- *I don’t feel good obviously. How could I?

Instacart- Costco- 11 items- 12 minutes- I was way over- couldn’t find a protein shake or smoothie box - shake was in the front of the store called the cafe and I walked passed the smoothie’s- in the applesauce section- the guy that helped me says… no way 12 minutes to get all this- basically you have to run.. people getting free samples block up the aisles- anyway- then I had to go to Sam’s -get 4 items and deliver 2 customers. The Costco order was like $200 dollars and a $2 something tip- the sans club was $14 and change tip- $39 total pay. So… these cars soothe me soul.

Finally found some poultry seasoning- last year it was out of stock every store I went to. Need it for Thanksgiving. One of those things you forget then remember then forget. Well, I don’t have allergies, Ben has it. Sean has it. Abby seemed like she was getting it. I’m doing better but it’s lingering. We are making chicken soup for dinner. Well… Ben is. Sean’s making jiffy mix corn bread. I did instacart. I’m home, time to chill. How I’m lounging/Stretching after being on my disabled ankle and foot. @jack Ben wanted to add cream of mushroom to the chicken soul- ewwww. No, I don’t like cream of mushroom. I also told the boys- wash your hands the. use a cup to get ice. Our ice maker is broken so I bought a small bag- boys-

Watching The Memphis 3 on 48 hours- Tik Tok notes- cough drops. Kleenex- Johnny Depp supported innocence- I agree they didn’t do it- scary case. These boys that were tortured deserve justice- the one whom actually did it brought to justice.

Steak and cheese sandwiches are done.

So, I did a delivery next to one of my ex’s and I’s old house’s. Haven’t seen it in a while- we sued the builder, signed an NDA but… we moved on- it was brand new when we moved in. No, I don’t miss it. I do however miss the house and 10 acres we bought and then got divorced except for the propane- tooo costly- needed geo-thermal or an outdoor wood stove. Anyway. I’m still recovering from this allergy attack or cold- shaved steak sandwiches for dinner. I bought some alkaline/ electrolyte water today-

😂😂😂 Sean comes in to my room- telling Chat GPT- my mom is doom scrolling how do I talk to her- he says- say something like- mom, can I talk to you for a minute- I’m like- tell Chat GPT that your mom is sick and resting- he says- be quiet, let her rest, not everything needs to be fixed right now. Mom wins- Sean’s like… no… I started laughing- anyway- he then said i smell Chat GPT because i haven’t taken a shower in a month- which was a lie - it said to tell a trusted adult- he’s asking all Sorts of stuff. Sean has been talking to Alexa since he could talk- now he’s on the AI. Good grief. At least Chat GPT told him to Let me rest. I am resting- trying to anyway.

Helping with homework, 500 miles away. 😁

I’m not turning the heat on. Cookie, you’ve got blankets. Kids? Hoodies. We’ve been cooked in an oven all summer. It’s finally cooler. Btw- I’m in need of boxes of Kleenex and warm drinks. Damn, I got inoculated with something I’ve had before. I recognize you, you damn bugs. Allergies of nature- whatever you are- I’m gonna one up you with my immune system. Swords activate. Anyway, Sean got up late, I chatted with his teacher- when mom is down, the whole schedule slows down. She’s fine- she had the flu last week. No worries on him being late.

Are the aliens too much? Hmmm. Cozy season hit.

My youngest bro- my dad- helping at the dog trial. Beagles. Been coming her since I was born- Kids helped clean up. Talking history. Lloyd(95) who remembers the call about my twin and I being born-

Did 2 shop Order today- Costco- there’s Thai guy, older, 60’s? Idk he works there and he’s always not smiling- I’ve had to ask for some stuff that was moved, out of stock, a few times. I had a shitload of candy to get- I saw him and I’m thinking to myself, it says all this stuff is in the candy section.. nope- I saw the guy, I smiled and said- where you hiding all the Halloween candy? He’s like we don’t hide stuff, it’s down by the Halloween decorations- (grumpy) I said it funny wise- now, I know Irritate the fuck out of this guy, I can tell, why? Idk I had my glasses on… he says go down the aisle, turn right … see it? I was heading that way anyway.. he was highly annoyed. I said something to him on purpose, with a genuine smile. Why? Cause I could. So, Thai was an easy shop overall. Less than 20 items. 2 drop offs. I then went and got Ben’s medicine and headed home. *I purposely said something to him knowing I annoy the fuck out of him. Also, idk what the fuck, but people been being mean- I’m wearing my glasses. Like wth? The one guy at the checkout was nice- if you say, I have 2 instacart orders their attitude changes- last week I legit had to load most of my 3 shop order by myself and it’s like the cashier purposefully mixed up the order- I know when someone’s being naughty nasty towards me. Sometimes I’m like… the Christian lady be full of sin- control your ladies Jesus. They dumping their nasty towards me- nope! I genuinely smile, I’m not mean, I never ever make fun of someone’s looks and I get- she’s a cunt, bitch or whatever judged based on my looks? Hmmm, well, I’ve been living this life, people be nasty judgy and 100% wrong about me. @jack it’s leveled up in nasty at Costco actually. Degrees of responses, less helpful towards me but the person behind me gets greeted. Idk.

@jack if we see a problem, offer a solution. Get a think tank going for civility amongst humanity.