People who rage about chat GPT going rogue on them are people who cannot stand the sight of their own reflection in the mirror. #pleb #nostr #pleblife

I was hanging out with my ten year old nephew this past week and something went down between us that will stay with me. He got a make your own comic book set for Christmas and he wanted me to help him. He seemed kinda concerned at the beginning - concerned about getting the front page right. He criticised something he drew. Wanted me to draw stuff for him. Had one (brilliant) idea and then threw that in the bin because he didn’t believe he could do it. I suggested that he not worry too much about having the whole thing worked out and just play around with some ideas, draw up a few characters and practice, because there was loads of space in the book he had. I said, in passing: It doesn’t have to be perfect. And what happened after was fucking wild honestly. Like a stuck tap just got turned on. He’d drawn a new character within minutes. And I knew it was that sentence because he repeated it back to me several times while excitedly bouncing his ideas off of me: It doesn’t have to be perfect. I know from having been a kid once, how deeply words are internalised. Words that the speaker might have forgotten about within seconds of saying them. But that really cemented it for me. The way he took that in was so instant and powerful. And it’ll stay with me because I was dominantly raised by a pair of perfectionists - who I love deeply and have gorgeous relationships with now - but as a kid I did not feel like I had permission to make mistakes or get it wrong and it left a pretty enormous gash on my nervous system that I’m still working out to this day. If there is one thing I wanna teach my kid(s) when I have them, it’s that there is an endless amount of grace available to them for their mistakes. Because that’s how you learn from them and not repeat the same mistake over and over and over again for years and years on end; you give yourself grace. And that grace is the light that illuminates the lesson. #nostr #primal #perfectionism #pleb #plebchain #grownostr #pleblife

A story / riff / poem about G R A C E It is a livestream rec - takes a minute or two before we get going Happy Christmas 🌹 #grace #godsgrace #spirituality #merrychristmas #unconditionallove

I did a session this week where we worked directly at the fracture point. The actual location of it, instead of all the downstream patterns and stories that it is so easy to get caught in. And what became so clear that I realise I probably need to say in as many different ways as possible, is how common it is to hit this spot in your growth process, and literally not have an actual fucking clue what is going on with you. Like it is maddeningly convoluted. A fragment comes up for integration. And with that come the old sensations / emotions / thought-forms. But when you’re asked what you’re actually feeling, it’s like you draw a blank. Just feel bad. Like it’s too much. Like: I don’t know, but I need it to stop. The system “goes down” but there’s no language for it because what is asking for recognition has never been seen. So the fragment stays unnamed. Untended and unintegrated. And then you get the fear because once one episode in the ringer is over, another one invariably comes and you still don’t have a clue “what it is” that keeps coming up. And even though you can trace some progression and “lightening” of the load, it feels like the same thing. Every. Time. The fear-based narratives grip on all the sides. Fear of how you’re gonna sleep through night and then go function the next day. Fear of running your business into the ground. Fear that you’ll be looping around the same thing forever. And that fear becomes a second, heavier layer - one that creates FAR more suffering than the original fragment ever did. I know this terrain so well. When a fragment keeps pulling you into the murk because it WANTS to be seen and brought home, and you don’t recognise WHO it is, so the mind scrambles wildly. The problem solver kicks in: Another biiiiig old layer of distraction. Fixing. Analysing. Searching for a cause. Often, the sensations get projected onto external situations. (aaaaaaanother layer!) Onto work and business. Onto money, body image, relationships. Onto the future. There can be SO much mental obsession and distraction layered over the top of the thing. Yet, the truth is so much quieter and more precise. And it is NEVER a failure or a regression. Ever. It’s an integration point that hasn’t been met yet, and when it is finally recognised - not solved or bypassed or analysed - it shifts. The bottle necked energy lifts. Fear disperses. You feel *consistently* better and you lead your business and life from that place, which obviously makes ALL of the difference - to your enjoyment and your results. There is no relief in trying to contort your outside circumstances. It is a dead end road and it is one that many people circle around forever. The release comes from finally knowing the truth of what you’re actually in and having a clear and supportive context for how to navigate it. This is literally the difference between living in loops, and living a “whole pie” life, where creativity, spirituality, material success, relationships, and emotional life are fulfilled and continually evolving from a place of fulfilment. This is the work I do.

Last night, while dreaming, I met with a huge, white dragon that reminded me a lot of the one from Never Ending Story, and it felt like meeting a particularly ancient, old friend. I cannot describe the recognition that I felt, and the immense love and protection emanating out of him. I called him fluffy. I somehow knew that wasn't his actual name, just the one I had for him. Felt like a really, really small and young part of me knew him and was present in that dream. I remember resting on his belly and feeling his warmth. And that warmth has been blazing in my womb and heart all day. 🥹❤️‍🔥

Goodnight texts to my husband where I start with one thing and then it leads to another and then I'm like yeah okay this is gonna get weird but I'm already in too deep 😆

I'll assume this is a scam? #asknostr

He came to me with a thread I know intimately. A raw fear response erupting out of nowhere. Surges of panic while driving with his daughter. Activation hitting him mid-session with a client. Sudden night jolts pulling him out of sleep. It is so easy in this spot, to collapse into wrongness. Without context or clarity, these experiences can be incredibly destabilising. This is the kind of material that only surfaces when someone is expanding far beyond their old capacity. When your work is powerful, your growth is rapid, and your higher intelligence system is evolving faster than your mind can keep up, you will naturally begin touching subterranean layers that most never reach. Pre-verbal trauma. Dimensional contracts. Ancestral binds. Traversing these layers, not from a place of problem solving, but with courage, curiosity and presence, is where unprecedented expansion and wild freedom lives. The higher you go, the more deeply you meet yourself. And his gift from our session? A rewired relationship to what was happening inside him. The fear lost its grip the moment it was understood. What once felt terrifying became a portal. This is how the medicine goes down. If you’re moving at a level where ancient and subtle layers are surfacing, if its clear you’re outgrowing an old identity, if the loops feel closer to the bone than ever before, then it’s time. Fear Medicine Sessions are officially open! Available individually or in packs of three. Info + purchase here:

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Alchemising deep set trauma circuitry and releasing the charge from your body so new energy and creation can flow into you does not need to be a dramatic, cathartic moment.  Sometimes it is. Sometimes wailing and wretching is the authentic expression. But there is a very sneaky thread of perfectionism that can get in here where you believe that unless you have the big release, you must have not resolved the thing.  This is just another way for the problem solving survival mind to stay current. And it gives the wound a bottomless quality that ends up being food for siphoning energies.  Recently I've moved HUGE, ancient, timeline altering things and it's just involved me taking some of the biggest and longest yawns of my life + some random jerky motions in my upper body lol.  Ask your higher self to help you move what is ready to move with gentleness and grace. If you get out of the way, the response will probably surprise you. #complextrauma #generationaltrauma #consciousness #emotionalintelligence #spiritualawakening

Ease is not the eradication of difficulty or challenge. It is a peaceful, courageous and at times exhilarating relationship with all of life, that emerges in the absence of self condemnation and excessively negative meaning making. Ease is what exists when you let the poor self concept that makes everything a million times fucking harder go. #spirituality #personalpower #spiritualnostr #feminineleadership

I caught my reflection in the window of my car and I liked it. So I took a photo. I am running less and less inflammation because I am running less and less mind. I’m growing vegetables, breathing in the sunlight, and swimming and steaming and lifting weights a few times a week. I’m drinking litres of bone broth. Cooking good food. Taking my b and d vitamins. Drinking my minerals. I am loved so very, very, very well. I’m reading my poetry aloud and writing every day. I am attuning to a rhythm that is allowing me to expand at a pace that is sustained and regenerating, after years of trying to race ahead at the expense of myself. I am coming into genuine relationship and reverence for the depth and breadth of my medicine after a long time of harbouring a lack of value. I wake up at 8ish and lie in until half 9 meditating and tuning into my energy. I’m sleeping more and more deeply. I commune with the Earth, the Sun and the Rose daily. I breathe slowly. My womb is soft and rooted. I can feel my own heart. I’m grateful. #introductions #GM #hellonostr #nostr

It really gets my goat when you see women in the gym using the leg machines while scrolling their phone at the same time. You never see blokes doing it because they are actually making an effort lol If a lift feels so easy you can chill on your phone, you ain't getting those gains girl. 🤣

Life is so much sexier without perfectionism running the show. Literally, so much more abundant in SEX. The life force bound up under the vice grip of gotta get it right 1000000% of the time is now running freely. And it saturates every cell. It doesn't just transform sex itself. The current of eros expands into everything like sudden splashes of watercolour bleeding out of black ink outlines. It is the energy that animates you with every breath. It is the blossoming expanse in your womb as you let go even more deeply. It is the flow of inspiration and the impulse to create. It is the natural, shimmering channel through which you receive. And it is sexy as fuck.

If you err on the perfectionistic side If you feel a pang of dread when you pull The Tower card (lolll) If you’re intuitive AF but have been known to do life with a large side of analysis paralysis If you’re sensitive and magical If you know your soul path + work is calling you deeper but you’re prone to overthinking it If you want to have more energetic potency and influence over the course of your life If you long to EMPTY out of yourself ...and, I mean, if you just wanna fucking relax a bit more? This is your final invitation to join us in deep immersion for SURRENDER / CONTROL tomorrow. I’m offering this because I never knew how to let go. Ever. I remember my teacher saying to me a while back: You are such a diligent practitioner Rae, but sometimes you just need to let go. I could barely hear her at the time and now I’m like: Oh. Fuck. Yeah. Letting go, surrendering, b e i n g - is a profound blueprint, and one that for most people, didn't download fully. Most people don’t now how to literally exist, without some form of performance and force CONSTANTLY running. Letting go - of that programming AND in the deepest sense of surrendering yourself fully to God - is a literal master key. Being able to tune to the frequency of surrender of the let go of NO CONTROL is where the directives from God drop in is where your intuition / soul can be clearly heard is where opportunities flow to you. If you have a strong spiritual and creative calling if you know you’re here for M O R E You need that key. It is part of your personal mission to uncover it. I can’t give you the key. It lives inside you. But I vehemently believe in the power of embodied transmission. In the way that a field alchemises and transforms when you intentionally step into it. We start at 1pm UK tomorrow (Sunday 30th) and you have basically right up until that time to get yourself involved if you know it’s calling you. A recording is included. Message me if you have any questions or wanna share anything. Full details + booking here:

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ps. …and if the event wasn’t for you? I hope you enjoyed the transmissions. I hope they landed something for you. What I write on the lead up to offerings and events is a natural and joyful extension of what moves through me as I do life, and it is a pleasure and privilege to share in that, regardless of whether or not you buy something. xo