Roxane
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French 's speaking mum with 2 unschooled kids. Minimalism. Wanderlust. Freedom.
LoL I can relate. Haven't been in the subway since 2019 😂
Wow! Where is this place?
Today was the first day we met the danish Sun.
Since we arrived, we played cards, boardgames, eats a lot, drank warmth chocolate and went to indoor activities. It was cold and raining.
When the sun is not shining I always get a little depress and just want to stay home in pyjama.
Why did I choose Denmark then?
Because I am so scare of the heat that's burning Europe that I always go up north during the Summer.
So, I got depress as I could fall down in the winter. 10 degrees Celsius. Rain. Wind.
Hopefully I brought my woolen clothes... 'just in case'. But I didn't bring my rainy clothes, the ones I use to proudly say ' there are no such bad weather, only bad clothes'.
Today's first day of sun and here I am. With a little more energy and happiness inside. Capable of writing a small note and publish a picture. Such a little step. But a step anyway.
Wish me luck. Tommorrow will be heavy rain all day long...
Basically same as all the social networks.... By not being a social networks 😂
Off to Denmark!
DIARY : Overcoming my mental barriers to unfold my wings
After wondering all day "What if I fall?" and remembering Erin Hanson's reply ... "Oh dear, what if you fly?", I finally took the time, at 1.30am, to write this post. It will serve as a 'personal diary'.
The first 48 hours on Nostr have been a whirlwind of adrenalin and excitement. The first reactions from you have filled me with elation and a sense of determination:++ yes! I can do this++. I can take time to learn this new protocol, I can take time to be creative and share.
But in the midst of the euphoria, a shadow has crept into my mind, weaving threads of doubt and anxiety.
For you, blogger, twitter, writing a few words on a platform x or y may not mean much. Maybe you think it's fun. Maybe you don't expect anything, you just write as the words come to you. You post a sentence, a joke, a picture, and you see what happen. Strangely enough, for me it has a completely different meaning. And maybe for you too, and I'd be happy to hear about your experiences on the subject...
But to get back to my anxiety, I'd like to tell you how it was for me when I was dreaming of being a 'real' blogger.
In the past, I put a lot of pressure on myself: I wanted to be read, to create a community, to inspire, to help people. Without admitting it to myself, that all the value I could pass on would be returned to me just as quickly and for the same value.
I wanted it to happen overnight. Or in any case, in a few months. Not years. I'm impatient.
And that put me in a deep state of anxiety.
When I was younger, I had the impression that my value was equal to the value I received in return. You can imagine my emotional state when I didn't receive what I considered the minimum... I had expectations. And as it is said : waiting for something to happen always makes you unhappy. I can confirm that. It destroyed me.
I lacked perseverance and today, with my lack of sleep, two young children with me full-time, I'm afraid I won't make it.
I want to succeed. I love writing, I love creating, I love sharing, meeting new people, taking part in debates and so on. It feeds my soul.
Today, when I got out all my blogging stuff: selfie stick, Osmo Mobile, microphone, etc., I panicked. And I closed the box.
And I kept asking myself, "What if I fail again? And what if, once again, I don't persevere?"
It's time to get over my mental barriers and spread my wings. Whether I'm read or not. Whether I help people or not. Whether I inspire people or not. Whether others like it or not. At the end of the day, I'm doing all this for me.
And I try to tell myself that it doesn't matter if it's not perfect. That's not what's important. The important thing is to enjoy what I'm doing.
Blogging means developing a whole host of new skills and++ that's why I'm here today: to grow++. To grow for myself. And if I have to impact others in some way, it will happen because as Paulo Coelho says so well, "When you want one thing, the whole Universe conspires to make your dream come true."
For an hour, I spoke with a friend about this fear of failure, this fear of never feeling good enough, of not measuring up, of not being able to persevere. I realized that my anxiety was just a symptom of me leaving my comfort zone. It's a natural reaction to the unknown and the risk of failure. I've also realized that there's no pressure to put on yourself, that everything is 'fair', that everything that happens teaches a life lesson, that there's no loss, no failure, just learning.
Erin Hanson's words came back, once again, to caress my soul: "And if you flew?
That's right, Roxane, "*And if you flew?" What if you finally gave yourself the chance to fly? What if you finally left yourself alone to let your light shine on the world? What if, instead of dwelling on the possibility of falling, you embraced the idea of soaring upwards? *
Because I'm convinced that by pursuing my dreams, I'll discover new strengths, new talents and new facets of who I am. And that's what I need today: to rediscover who I am.
Erin Hanson's words, like a gentle breeze, transported me to a place where fear of failure is not the enemy, but rather a springboard to growth.
As I continue to spread my wings and soar, I invite you to reflect on your own journey. What dreams have you hidden away, protected by mental barriers? What if you could overcome your fear of falling and focus on the possibility of flying? Embrace the wind of freedom and you might just discover that your potential knows no bounds.
Tonight, despite my fears, I welcome the possibility of flight.
Until tomorrow,
With Love,
Roxane
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Morning's Nostriches :-) !
I woke up this morning with the quote I feel asleep with yesterday 's night. "Do something today that your future self will thank you for." from Sean Patrick Flanery.
What are you guys doing today that your futur you will thank yourself for ?
From my side, just getting online here is something special ! I almost haven't touched my computer for 5 years. And now, I have spent at least 10-15 hours in front of it since I have signed up on Nostr ! Hope it will not becoming addictive and I will be able to find a balance Nostr / family ! But at least, I have added something new in my life since I was committed to my family only.
Today, I'm going to get out all my blogging stuff. When I was younger, I used to dream of being a full time blogger.
I had several blogs, a YouTube channel, and several (big and not so big... between 100 only and 40K) communities on Facebook on different subjects like budget management, minimalism, travel, bitcoin.
So I bought myself a super smartphone that shoots in 4K, an Osmo mobile to help me stabilise my videos, a microphone and even a teleprompter ! In short: a whole lot of stuff to shoot videos like a pro. I also bought myself 'Antidode', a programme to check my spelling mistakes when writing blog posts.
Today, I'm going up to the attic and digging out all my stuff that's been in storage for 5 years.
5 years is a long time. But for me, it's gone in a fraction of a second. It's like I've never left my computer or social networks. I was totally addicted in the past. I got a long detox !
But, now, it's time for a new project and I want to tell myself and you, to embrace today (which happen to be by chance monday, the perfect day to start something new!) as a chance for new beginning. Today can shape a life that brings you joy.
Consider what actions you can take today to better align yourself with your true purpose. These steps need not be monumental. And this is what I am doing : a step by step journey. With very little steps. For me, going to the attic and take back my blogging stuff or even reaching out to someone who shares the same values as me can make a difference.
Life is full of uncertainties and unexpected challenges that may come our way. Instead of viewing them as setbacks, let's see them as opportunities for growth. Regardless of what occurred last week, last year. Let's all remember that we hold the power to let go and focus on the future.
I'm feeling a lot of excitement and joy at having this new project.
And I hope you'll be part of the journey!
Wishing you a fantastic Monday ahead!
With Love,
Roxane
#grownostr
#nostrfr
#nostr
#plebchain
#slowliving
#blogging
#worldschooling
#unschooling
#travel
#family
#digitalnomadfamily
#digitalnomad
#homeschooling
Good Night Nostriches !
I am going to sleep a bit less dumb about Nostr tonight !
After a day spent here, I have at least joined the french Nostr community in Telegram, discovered Plebchain, see that unschooling families are everywhere on Nostr, and the very best... Discovered what "relays" are and be able to set them to stop turning crazy !
I am now going to sleep with a quote of Flanery in my mind... That I hope will become true :-)
" Do something today that your future self will thank you for. – Sean Patrick Flanery "
See you tommorrow's Nostriches !
With Love,
Roxane
#grownostr
#nostrfr
#nostr
#plebchain
#worldschooling
#unschooling
#travel
#family
#digitalnomadfamily
#digitalnomad
#homeschooling
Hello Nostr'iches from Sunny Belgian's Sunday !
Still trying to figure out how does it works :)
Where does the Nostr' s 101 is hiding ?
On the picture, my lovely 4yo Zelda 's learning to kayak on the Meuse, Namur, Belgium.
