DAY 5 // Trying so hard to construct the aligned path and plan means two things 1) you need to justify who and what you are to others 2) you have no faith in God // This is something I’ve noticed in myself this year as I have mostly been traveling and working on little projects here and there. I’ve been living and learning about myself and it’s been extremely beneficial for my growth and development, but I can be met with judgment from others that ask me “when I’m gonna get a real job again”. I love who I’ve been this year, but sometimes the perception of how others view you and what they think of you can tempt you to cling back to the world/lifestyle you walked away from. Because I don’t have clear answers for them on what I’m doing or a way to label myself for them, but I have a deep knowing in myself that the path I’m walking is to be walked. And their understanding is not needed. We all crave to be seen and understood, but I crave to be true to myself more.

DAY 4 // Short little reminder There is good, and there is wholeness, always and everywhere. You are where you need to be always and all the time.

DAY 3 // Spent a lot of hours writing sappy love poems today. Actually very therapeutic and fun lol. // You always loved the mornings Because you preferred dreaming in the light Something about those daily beginnings Always dawned more visions for you than night You let the sunrise cover you With more warmth than our sheets And you preferred the misty air To kiss up on your cheeks The morning earth was your muse More than I ever was The tension between our bodies at night Showed you what settling really does I know why you loved the mornings It freed you from that place Your soul learned to dream with eyes open Rather than inches from my face I knew you were meant for more than me But neither of us would admit it For I was holding you back in life The world told me I was insufficient You tried to bring me with you But my heaviness was hard to lift You wanted me to see the world like you did But sweetheart your inner vision is a gift I’m sorry I could never be enough To keep up with the beauty in that brain Your love stayed for potential While mine simply had nothing more to gain I know why you loved the mornings But maybe now you can love the night You’ll have space to dream in the darkness With just the moon holding you tight I made you into a daydreamer Instead of letting you run free I’m learning to like the mornings, Even if my best ones are behind me.

DAY 2 // Deduction Phase (Part 2)

Challenging myself to get into creation mode over consumption mode over the next 30 days. I want to create something each day. I know I am a creative person, but I often think for too long about perfecting an idea/concept and never end up creating something with it. DAY 1 // Deduction Phase (Part 1)

The USDA just approved use of genetically engineered vaccines in Organic food/livestock🤡🤡🤡 Organic already had problems, but now more than ever it’s time to buy directly from trusted farmers.

I love getting added to people’s close friends stories on Instagram when we are aggressively not close friends

Texas really got me on a wild game fixation. Currently hooked on ground venison and bison organ blends. -Smoked duck pizza w/ peaches -Smoked rabbit rigatoni -Pork Meatballs w/ ricotta gnocchi -Wild boar carnita taquitos Local, farm to table ingredients🫶🏻

Gm If you were about to take your last breath, how much slower and deeper would it be? How much more would you feel and sense in your body as you do so? How much more gratitude and awe would you have for this physical body? Carry that awareness and reverence with you more and more. It is a gift to be here. Slow down and celebrate it.

2 interesting thoughts correlating spirituality, society, & government heard on podcasts recently. 1) when a society falls into atheism, it then falls into totalitarianism. When societies move away from spirituality, that spiritual protection is gone. (Sean Hanlon- BioCharisma) 2) modern society’s comfort, convenience, stability/predictability have created a faithless society. You don’t need faith or to cultivate a trust in a higher power when you don’t have to sit in uncertainty or struggle to sustain your life. (Becoming Sovereign- Nolan Wilson) In my own life, I see that the deeper relationship I have with God, the more sovereignty I desire and the more individual responsibility I feel called to take on. Staying divorced from nature and from God is the best way to keep people in their dependent relationship with government. You can either serve God or serve government.

Irish Celtic women revered morning dew. They believed that dew carried the essence of the morning sun, the moon’s reflection, and the spirit of the land. It is also structured water, and I’m a big water respecter. They used it ceremoniously for beauty and healing. They even have a specific day on May 1st (Bealtaine / May Day), where they all collectively rise before dawn, walk barefoot in the dew and rub it on their faces and skin. I think about this when I ground in the morning and wonder if my ancestors can sense my connection to them.

“Wealth is much more about lifestyle design/psychology than it is about making money” -Vizi Andrei 💯💯💯Wealth to me is control of my time and energy. Freedom to structure my own days, freedom of movement. Freedom to dive into various projects of my various interests. A six figure job at a corporation could never give me wealth. What is wealth to you?

So far loving the book “The Most Dangerous Superstition” by Larken Rose. So blunt and brutally honest. “The belief in authority is the arch-enemy of humanity”

I feel insane peace and oneness out in deep blue water🌊🧘🏼‍♀️ (Photos taken by my talented friends Katjana Cabenda & Dana Bjarner)

One day you’re 23 thinking you need to hustle in NYC and be at hip bars in Brooklyn, the next you’re 26 buying gold, bitcoin, wanting to grow or hunt all your own food, and listening to podcasts on social engineering, one world government, American common law and occult/esoteric agendas. sovereignty pipeline goes hard

I struggle with being highly self critical. Today was one of those days. #poemstr

Try again with your shiny “benefits” pitch😆

I would LOVE book recommendations📚 If there’s a book that changed your life OR related to the following topics: -Philosophy -Farming, homesteading, permaculture, hunting, fishing/spearfishing -Ancient medicines/healing- Chinese, Ayurveda, vitalism, terrain -Consciousness #bookstr

Well I almost got abducted this morning in Austin, Texas. I was standing outside waiting for my uber to head to a group workout with my friends, and I was looking for a black Hyundai sedan arriving in two minutes. A black Nissan sedan drove down the street and stopped in front of me and waved me to hop in. I immediately felt confused by the car being different but the timing was so close to my app that I hopped in. He tried to quickly pull up the uber app to make it look like he was a driver and I noticed the location was different. I asked why the car was different and what his name was and he tried to say he didn’t speak English but finally told me his name was Andy while my app said Prakash. Luckily we had only made it around the block from my airbnb when I asked him to stop the car and unlock the doors. Grateful he “understood” what that meant in English because we were almost about to enter the highway. I walked back to my place and my actual uber was arriving at that moment. I’ve been solo traveling as a female for 4 months. Have been throughout Central and South America. I let my guard down for one moment back in the US, and I could’ve ended up in a really bad situation. It saddens me that women especially have to move through this world with such caution. I’ve noticed how much it can suck the fun and joy out of travel when you have to operate like this. I’m highly observant and never really put myself in vulnerable states. I like to think I can trust the world and that people are inherently good, but that quickly brought me back to reality. Stay safe out there🩷

New use case for nostr: cool, holistic, free-thinking roommate search. Facebook group chats are just not my target market🤣 My sister and I are looking for a based roommate to come live with us at the beach in Wilmington, North Carolina🌊🌞 There will be lots of sun, water sports, and fam dinner parties🥩🥬🍋 We have a big house, big outdoor space (which we intend to start gardening 🧑🏼‍🌾) Yes, we like non-toxic, more circadian friendly living. You would have your own room and bathroom for $1100. Huge common spaces as well😋 Flexible on length of stay, would like to have someone commit to a few months at first. DM me for more info if interested!!! COASTAL NC IS BEAUTIFUL! #asknostr