A few weeks ago my dad was diagnosed with cancer. He’s a conventional doctor, 36 years. But he’s the complete opposite of health and wellness, and has spent much of his life battling addictions, countless bad habits, and eating the worst you can imagine. This diagnosis did not surprise me, although the world-renounced oncologist said it came from a virus and UV light (lol zero personal accountability) He’s spent so much of his life enslaved by centralized healthcare genuinely wanting to help serve people but being trained to stay too busy, miss out on so much of his family’s life, and push pills. In January he started working for one of the wealthiest hospital systems in the country, built upon immense greed and extraction. Some of the top level people at this hospital system making millions. Upon his cancer diagnosis, his employer fired him. Yes illegal. Against HIPPA and disability discrimination. Another example of how healthcare really cares about your health. His treatment plans would make him more of a liability than an asset, so termination was a better deal. Businesses is business. His termination freed him. He has cancer and he’s never been more alive. He put two middle fingers up to that system and said I’m building my own businesses now with my daughters. He’s been in flow state ever since, spending all of his time outside in the sun doing manual labor, construction projects, landscaping, networking in the community. He’s overflowing with joy and love and excitement, and he’s already as tan as me. It’s beautiful to see. Although we’ve had our differences, our struggles, his connection to God has been the resilience that has carried him so far in life. It reminds me of the old Italian man, who smokes and drinks and lives to 100 because of joy. His faith is unwavering, it is full trust. It is the comfort of knowing you are fully seen, held, supported and protected, and if you don’t deny God, he won’t deny you. And that everything happens in divine timing for divine reasons. Every event, every circumstance, is really just an opportunity. What are you going to do about it? My dad has always maintained a childlike wonder in life, it’s where I get some of my “delusion” and dreamer tendencies. But God doesn’t put a dream in your heart that you’re not capable of achieving. Any additional prayers for today would be appreciated as he is in surgery, but he texted me that he was gonna hit the hotel pool and jump in the hot tub right before😆🤣 Strength and health to all y’all today, have a great day🙏🏼

Today I lost my Claude virginity. I’m EMBARRASSED it took this long 😭😭😭😭😭😭 omg

Literally everyone “but what if [insert bad / negative thing] happens” BUT WHAT IF IT DOESN’T YEAH SHUTUP AND GET OUT OF MY WAY ?? RESPECTFULLY😊💖

I feel that so much of what stops people from going after what they truly want is fear of judgment and criticism from others. Yes it is very uncomfortable, but the regret of not taking risks and not living authentically is worse. Without all the opinions of others, I’m sure a lot more people would be living a lot differently🗣️

Laugh often, and surround yourself with people who support all of your crazy dreams. Enjoy your life while you’re still figuring it out🤍

Heard an old song that reminded me of an old friend that reminded me of an old book she gave me years ago. Men are like Waffles, Women are like Spaghetti. “Men are like Waffles: Men tend to compartmentalize their lives into separate boxes (or waffle squares). They deal with one issue at a time. When they are in one square-such as work-they focus entirely on it and completely leave other squares behind. Women are like Spaghetti: Women's thoughts and emotions flow together and intersect like interconnected noodles. Every life event, emotion, and thought is tied to everything else, meaning they frequently multitask and tie multiple issues together simultaneously.” It is so true, so simple, and so useful to keep in mind. I definitely feel like my female framework is to experience life as an interconnected spiderweb. They use spaghetti, but it’s a similar idea. There is much less compartmentalization. Women tend to process life through an interconnected network where memory, emotion, intuition, relationships, future planning, bodily signals, social dynamics, and environmental cues all inform each other simultaneously. What appears “unrelated” externally is often linked internally through invisible strings of pattern recognition and emotional context. I also think about how Mother Nature, the ultimate mother, doesn’t build in straight lines, boxes, and right angles. She builds with feminine structure: round, curved, adaptive forms that distribute force across the network and become stronger and more abundant through connection. The integrity of a spiderweb comes from each strand being interconnected and distributing load onto the others. It’s a safety structure. Resilient. Fewer single points of failure. Women tend to value this safety structure and weave emotion into everything to help synthesize past, present, and future with the goal of stability and protection, less points of failure. The waffle has its own strengths as compartmentalization can create focus, calm under pressure, task execution, and temporary emotional insulation. Very necessary. The male system optimizes for forward (more linear) movement, directed concentration. The female optimizes for relational integration (circular, communal) containment. Different cognitive geometries. Never finished the book, but a good cute concept😆

Being irrational is my favorite. It is absolutely necessary these days. Delusional, irrational. I’ll stop when it stops working out for me. My inner authority has found great peace in this place.

If you wake up today the healthiest you’ve ever been and you’re in control of your time, good on you. You’re absolutely winning, keep going. Don’t forget how much you’ve done to get here. Gratitude. Gm.