I probably say 40-50% of what I wanna say on here cause I'm scared of the permanency. Nothing controversial I just wanna talk about my feelings 😅 But by nature those should be fleeting... What I personally want in social media that's hard to find (unless I hide my identity I suppose, but I don't want that either) is the ability to talk more freely and openly about my personal experiences, but as someone with a lot of self-criticism, the willingness to be open certainly feels hindered by #nodelete
#thoughtstr
Couldn't sleep at all last night!! Quite literally lied in bed awake until 6:30-something am... not sure if I should blame the new moon or plain old rumination but work is gonna be difficult today 😭 love my sleep #moonstr
No matter how hard I try (and I do try, I'm extremely mindful of it) I always feel guilty if I'm not super busy or don't reach a certain threshold (which I arbitrarily set for myself in a different time and place) of productivity.
What's worse is that my best ideas come to me when I'm doing nothing for a while, and my mental health is better cause I have time to process and contemplate. I'm also noticeably more creative after I give my mind time to be idle, yet despite knowing that and telling myself it's okay - necessary even - I still feel guilty deep down when I do it!
Anyone else feel this way? How do you get over it....
#asknostr #thoughtstr