Nostr would have taken off by now if I threw my life away promoting it. I guess trying to stay safe and grow nostr at the same time makes it trickier.

All the work I've put into promoting nostr has done nothing because nostr sucks so bad. Hundreds of hours spent making videos with free nostr ads in them, but no sign anyone joined nostr as a result. Idk how many hours spent looking for places to tell people about nostr, but no sign anyone joined nostr as a result. After the number of people who have thanked me for telling them about it, you can guarantee some percentage of them actually checked it out. But do I see them here now? No, because they found trash apps that suck and not anything worth their time. I only ever got 1 person to actually sign up for nostr, @npub1q4v3...ges8 but they got pretty much no engagement and then their login started getting blocked by some app they used to try to be able to sign in with email + password. I'm pretty sure they never came back after being blocked from signing in. And I've also spent hundreds of hours thinking and talking about changes needed on nostr, including very simple ones that would make a big difference to this problem, in a fraction of the time devs have spent on irrelevant pointless shit. It feels like there is a solid chance nostr is going to fail because there's so little interest in it and so much interest in stopping it. The pool of anti-nostr people is so much stronger, nostr can't even find enough pro-nostr devs and we mostly only get anti-nostr devs on nostr. That's incredibly fucked. And people still don't really throw their weight behind me. It took over a year to get to where I get reposted pretty often, but I still can't organize or anything. If I make a "if all of us did X the result would be Y" post, I get between 0 and 1 people added to the pool of people doing X. That is not a path to survival. I even had to get back on reddit myself because in all these years, I couldn't find anyone with a reddit account that would post my stuff for me. It's like it's too complicated for you people to understand that if I'm the only one posting my own stuff, I'm 1 ban away from completely disappearing again. But that shouldn't be too complicated to understand. It's just that, same as before I met Digit, I have no actual support - people will go as far as pretending to be my friend, but not as far as putting a few minutes a month of work into doing the most urgent things I spend years begging people to do. The longer this goes on, the more ridiculous it gets and the more obvious it gets that it should be over. At the "several weeks" mark, it feels like the wall should open up soon and things should start to change, because there are several weeks of proof showing what's going on and it can't just go on forever. At the "several months" mark, it feels like the wall should open up soon and things should start to change, because there are several weeks of proof showing what's going on and it can't just go on for a lifetime. At the "1 year" mark, it feels like the wall should open up soon and things should start to change, because there are several weeks of proof showing what's going on and it can't just go on for a lifetime. At the "2 years" mark, it feels like the wall should open up soon and things should start to change, because there are several weeks of proof showing what's going on and it can't just go on for a lifetime. It's been over 2 years, it feels like the wall should open up soon and things should start to change, because there are several weeks of proof showing what's going on and it can't just go on for a lifetime. And of course, there's always the growing terror that maybe nothing is going to work, maybe I'm just going to throw myself at the wall of idiots until I die and everyone else dies too because they're too dumb to avoid extinction. I think Digit doesn't join nostr or try too much to survive because she's already been through her own past versions of this shit and she was offered more comfy options in return for giving up. I don't get anything for giving up, she won't curse me with that same offer of a comfy life, she's locked me in. Maybe I'm like her last attempt. I will keep trying.

Redditors are at peak anger about the second amendment because they actually comprehend the need for it now and a lot of them are incapable of admitting they're wrong so it just pisses them off Might sound funny to you but really just sad and scary to see

Today marks 1350 days since US Senator Susan Collins (Republican from my state of Maine) called the police on some protesters using chalk near her home

Armed community member stands guard in his neighborhood after ICE was spotted nearby on an abduction operation in St Paul, MN #fuckICE #2A

I'm not doing a shift on reddit today but it continues to be a perfect time to #grownostr View quoted note →

I'm a kinda shitty person but I try harder than most people to protect myself and others. So I'm not a villain, as some people see me. But at other times, people might see me as a hero, which I'm also not. People are kinda dramatic sometimes I guess