also undated, also before i came back here *please dont give yourself an appetite you didnt come to earth with*

also undated, also before i came back here: [smother mother & fret over please stop w/ dudes w/ motherwounds]

i thought about sharing a page of my notebook but then, i decided i didnt want to do a handwriting in this notebook reveal so i'll have to type it. undated, before i came back here [ maybe the ego doesn't know it exists maybe it knows by affecting change out in the world as evidence of existence does ego arise from language? is it our method of language acquisition? ]

i'll tell you what i dont make bets never have but i can forecast weather here & there

how would i know wouldnt affect me in the slightest i barely know shit i just sit here watching shit as the clock runs out

how hard is that drop gonna be

how long can that be afforded

who can afford to be angry in this economy

what anger

what does it take to get angry what does my anger look like what is the cost of it

fuck off a billion

unsustainable in the long term. View quoted note →

~note~ reader, it couldve been so on, what would have followed would have been full of ribbons & twirls but i have a deeper commitment than my joy & fun in writing & playing with words & so imagine it or dont but it's not spilling forth from me like this at this time in this way at god only knows what cost or benefit to who knows

i should be inventing new cursive numbers for my artworks just working away on me doing me & knowing that contributes what it does to the whole of it all like everyone else does cos we are the environment environmenting instead, im on major auntie duty like trying to at least advocate do you need an illustration of a mouse going inside a cage to rattle it before stepping out again or does the chris fleming giles corey suffice

what model does it take? to be worth more than nothing & only something in aggregate? subscription? able to pay monthly whatever so ten others can use it for free?

can we talk about what i would do if i were truly to do me within reason in a safe & sane fashion like gil what would make you smile to do what would your tshirts say if you just let them