i have revised my plans. probably i'm gonna stick around this place. i just need two things:
- some funding so i can continue to develop dendrite
- some people who want to play with it in what ways they see interesting
- 12 hens, a rooster, some bags of seeds for a few different cabbage varieties and nettle seeds.
this all together will allow:
- feeding myself with precisely a nutrient stack that helps me recover from celiac and help recalibrate my bone deposition so my upper neck vertebra finally regrow correctly after 50 years stuck with scarring, muscle and bone misalignment that is likely the central cause of my health and neuro/psychological issues
- producing a surplus of fully organic chicken, drums of sauerkraut that i eat alongside the chicken, as meat, bone and skin broth, and high quality fatty acids, vitamins. and a reason to walk around outside to get my d3 levels high so i regrow my bones faster
- the nettle is made into tea, extracted to make chicken fat based potassium soap (made with pearl ash made from calcined wood and solidified with salt)
organic, croatian land race chickens, producing organic eggs, meat and feathers become an ongoing income and the space is large enough that it will form a good ground level base of my income to maintain, combined with income from ongoing development of dendrite, which i think is going to light up like a bonfire once a few people get involved.
so, in a matter of a few weeks, claude plus my encyclopedia brain collaborated to do some really good diagnostics to try and establish and trace the path of symptoms of my disease back to the source.
we eventually drilled down to two key points:
- i have celiac disease, which means that USDA developed hard gluten wheats destroys my intestinal membranes, and leaks foreign peptides that trigger my immune system.
- due to some kind of problem during birth, probably poorly dilated vagina, they gave my mother a shot of morphine or some kind of opiod. this caused me to stop breathing, just like hat happens to a junkie in overdose. then after mistake one, which didn't work, because i was pushing out through a much too weakly dilated hole, it compressed my neck such that there was compression on the top two vertebra, C1 and c2. claude inferred this based on birth trauma memories and other trauma events such as my father trying to silence me with a pillow (yeah, sounds exactly as bad as it was) and because of that kink in my upper vertebrae, i was able to force myself to go slack, just as i did as the doctors were jabbing me full of stimulants to wake me up, and then probably performing CPR and inverting me and smacking my back, causing my danngling head to get even more compression injuries in my mushy baby neck bones.
in actual fact, all of it could be down to the kink in my neck disrupting signals from the lower brain to my spine where all the organs branch off, just below that point the one to the lungs pops out the side, and made me vulnerable to asthma. my immune system was compromised as well, because that depends on circuits further down. my father trying to suffocate me, led to me reinforcing this pattern of going slack during trauma, and my whole organs are screwed up. the worst of it has to do with a circuit controlling my serotonin levels, which diverts it away from my brain and disrupts other shit from working properly.
in actual fact, with a little bit of some kinds of herbs, some moxa and needling in the recess between the top protruding spinal joint and the connection to the skull, just needs some massage, some stretching, like, many times a day. about 1-1.3mg of melatonin before bed (and turning off the lights before that, dimming the monitor, etc etc. there is chinese herbs that help too, but the western equivalents are rosemary, ideally extracted into warm 60% ethanol, or alternatively, regular vodka with heat (lightbulb) and another separate extraction into acetone containing walnut oil, and evaporated to get a greasy residue, which i can apply to the indent between the top protruding vertebra and the bottom of my skull.
sage tea, and linden (lipa) tea is also good.
getting a hot water bottle and placing it at that position when i go to sleep increases blood flow, as does soaking with my torso down and my neck covered in the hot water. and make the water hot, until i blush all over.
rotating my head, back and forward, and and round and round.
what started this conversation off? well, this is again related, probably. i get early onset REM. the neeurologists tested me, and because the normal conditions were not in play during the tests, they didn't see it happen for real like normal, but still it was short enough onset they wanted to prescribe me ritalin or dexamphetamine. i had already tried both, and they caused bad side effects, one, magnesium deficiency, which eventually leads to me becoming emotionally unstable, and the other, that makes me anxious and reduces my circulation and makes me cold. only meth really works ok, but that got banned from doctors giving it out. well, you know, probably because they birth children in such a way that this kind of bone compression in the neck is very common.
meth, is one, guess what the other drug that makes it not so bad (meth works by increasing signalling strength). yes, cannabis. by all kinds of mechanisms, its serotonergic effect, diverting the serotonin to be used in the digestive system and several organs elsewhere around nearby, the vasodilation, increasing blood flow to the crinked bones in the neck, that permanently calcified wrong, permanently pinching nerves and compressing tissue that became permanently inflamed, further compressing the spinal cord and keeping this mess going.
ya know, i think that it most likely muddled a point here and there, but since i watch this robot write code, there are a couple things i see it do regularly - miss things, and get left right, forward back, up down back to front. claude can usually do quite good geometry when there is only chirality, but gets up, down, middle, edge, left, right, and front back wrong all the time. i speculated that was how it was so good at code, mostly, except the flaws i pointed out. and i also pointed out, that as i have right dominant hand but left dominant eye, that this might be also partly why i have an encyclopedia brain
and all this typing you are probably not even reading (i don't blame you). yes, that kink in my spine up the top causes me to be in a constant elevated state of alert, and reduces blood flow from that.
i do this to release my energy which is being constantly misdirected because of how doctors put the woman sideways instead of the natural direction, squatting, where the baby's head would not flop sideways and compress the bones.
idk what to say, at this point. i'm glad i never got a woman pregnant at this point, because when/if i do, over my dead body she is not having it with gravity working in favour of the child not ending up like me.
A graph showing preliminary results of an AI and troll detection algorithm I have been working on. It's not strongly patterned but it's quite interesting t note that in line with the rise of AI adoption, the algorithm is seeing a steady rise.
What's also kinda interesting is that with these AIs pissing in the pond, the overall level of trolling is dipping. That's probably because many of the vulnerable are leaving and probably also because the ones that are still here are getting more and more pissed off.