Loki

I know I am a bit random in the way I write and probably some of the damage to my long term memory from thiamine deficiency maybe makes some of my text repetitive. But really, do I read like an AI? And if I do, maybe that's because they are training them on a substantial volume of my text cos you can probably find several volumes of War and Peace worth of my text on the internet if you care to search. I'm not even going to drop any names to give you a clue but I can assure you, unless you are also starting to think the AIs are manipulating all of the various servers on the internet to rewrite history, already, oh my god are we in a bad place now. The need for eliminating those who would see us replaced by machines is getting more and more acute by the day. Simulating life and treating humans like cattle are the very same kind of behaviours. Only people without hearts or souls can consider this the right business to put their money into. The thing is, that's YOUR money that this is being funded by. And the endgame of all of this is literally to slaughter you all, as you are induced into hallucinating each other as mortal enemies. I'm not the only one warning about this, anyone who has read the Metro 2033 books or played the games would be familiar with this scenario. The evil people who are behind all this are not long for this world. They are not going to be let out of the gravity well and everyone who refuses to stand against them is going to perish with them when the next round of the Great Flood comes past in a few years time. I don't even care whether our ancestors who live up there actually exist or not, so much as the thought that this planet's imminent massive destruction is coming and that those who are responsible are going to be wiped out. That is the greatest joy in my life right now. The thought that this evil shit will soon end. There used to be humanity and freedom in the world, and now, it is one big simulation that nobody knows who is real and who is a robot any more, nobody knows what is a girl and what is a boy. I remember, and I refuse to ever back down from that memory, no matter how much my brain decays and my memory fades. There will never be a replacement for a real, messy, greasy grey brain, and a nasty throbbing heart. There is a million evil bastards out there, at least, however, they are all the same, and every one of their programmed drones, is the same. They have no heart, they have no soul, and they are jealous of us who do. I'm not letting them take this away from me, even if I have to suffer through even more and worse than I have had to suffer so far. Because submitting to them is worse than death. Submitting to them is being erased. Submitting to them is allowing beauty and love to be erased.

I used to have a lot more patience and wonder in the technology of computers, and now it just drives me crazy how little it has advanced in 38 years. I just have higher priorities than dumb shit the way too many options for simply sending audio to bluetooth speakers that are a little too far from my desk to function properly. MPD. VNC. RDP. SSH. Pipewire. Pulseaudio. Icecast. How to say you are old without saying you are old. All my energies are now directed towards not having to deal with such low priority things in favour of higher priorities. This might be a consequence of the fact that figuring out badly designed shit is my work now, I just don't want to have this when I'm relaxing. I just want to reprogram my programmable keyboard, and needed some music. I'm solving this problem tomorrow. I just want it to be a simple audio stream, and I want it to be in the loungeroom, where it will drown out the workaday screeching children who seem to communicate entirely with screams and who seem to spend more time in the playground than in the classroom, and it seems like wrestling with each other is the main activity being taught.

So, I was looking at some various options for potato chips this evening, and specifically to determine if there was anything that didn't have maltodextrin in it. I don't remember seeing this one sugar in everything before 2020. I also don't remember when Palm Oil stopped being the main oil. Turns out that Maltodextrtin is like instant week long pain for my exposed dental nerves. I used to like potato chips. And corn chips. I can't eat any of them anymore. It's really a big disruption in my comfort level. I'm sure it's secretly intended to hurt people but those who ask questions and do their own differential diagnosis figure it out and just get even more determined. If they keep this up, pretty soon the only things I can eat from a supermarket are some of the fruit and the non-processed meats, and maybe some of the seeds and nuts. They are contaminating everything else with things that I can't help feeling is deliberate to fuck with a specific set of genetics that I am one of the inheritors of, and that the whole purpose of the PCR test hoax was to gather DNA to refine this strategic irritation. Normies don't even realise what's happening, which tells you that "normy" means a specific pool of genetics, because it's about proteins and immune responses.

I have this windows installation on my pc, and yet I spend like 30 minutes playing games every day, at best, and this is the only thing I do with it. Thanks to their presumptuous and aggressive policies, however, I think I can say I spend more than twice that amount of time, on top, on most days, working around the bullcrap that they impose on my hardware. My bluetooth devices, thank you sony, don't like to bind to my linux system and windows at the same time. They preemptively, and nonconfigurably attempt to bind to my device not only by its MAC address, but also by the OS, so every time, I literally have to unpair, and repair it for each time I want to go play 30 minutes of tomb raider. The contortions of the filesystem are another time sink as well. I am starting to realise it's not worth the effort anymore, since I only seem to want to play a bunch of games that I can run just fine on Linux anyway. I just got a little tired of the constant procession of hardware support problems, so I just put my games installation on windows. But Shuttleworth, and Torvalds, with their respective projects, don't make life easier either. Constantly Ubuntu is updating kernels, breaking my system's support of the video and/or power subsystems. One only turns around for 12 months and blink, oh, new, same old problem again. I'm of the opinion, and probably have always been of this opinion, that this is deliberate disruption to slow down the development of competitors for the establishment picks for who gets the cheap money first to build this stuff. It has nothing to do with merit or virtue. It's actually the opposite. Apple and Microsoft stuff is the most retrogressive, slow to advance, and least accessible to new developers. Even as I am writing this, it is obvious what a waste of time it all is. This is why we can't have nice things. Technology is the enemy of power.

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I am for only the second time having problems with my internet connection. Specifically, I have a VPS in Kazakhstan, and I mirrored a moderately large repo to the Gitea server on it, and then tried to clone the one from my server. It gets to part way into downloading the larger *.pack files in the git and connection is severed. Tried with the zip, again, gets a few megs in and bam, MAC error on the packets. I literally have to use a VPN to download stuff from my own VPS right now. They don't seem to tamper with my traffic if I use a UDP based VPN that starts in the netherlrands so fingers crossed it stays that way. The new Iron Curtain is coming, people.

Hallucinations are not only seeing things that are not there. They can also be not seeing things that are there. The brain's capacity to edit things out, this type of omissive hallucination, is something that the majority of humans are capable of and experience on a regular basis, and can be induced to experience it, unwittingly, by hypnotic suggestion. Some people, like me, still have the hallucinatory capacity, but not the vulnerability to hypnotic suggestion. It's kinda frustrating because I have hypnotic/trauma imprinted programs in me, but normal hypnosis doesn't seem to touch me, no matter how much I want it to. This is probably why I got so interested in psychedelics, and probably need to resort to them to finish the job of clearing out the crap.