My friend Sean embraces me... Asking if I am back... Or just passing through... I say I'd like to grow roots back here... He says it will be great to have you back here... ...guess it pulled a heart string... I started crying... 😭

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Trying to remain as chill as possible in home office attire and move slower than the MASSIVE URGENCY boiling inside my blood with all the deadlines I'm attempting to successfully complete in the next 4 days involving making major life decisions. #fridgeselfie GM 🌞☕

I was hanging out with a friend by the pool yesterday and all of a sudden I decidiled to go to college. I have a tiny window to see if I will make it in time for fall semester... Deep in the rabbit hole 🕳️ now... If I am not around here anymore.

Summer is not over... I'm catching up... #coregulating

Good morning 🌞 at almost noon... My plan to go to sleep when I was toast by 9pm went completely bust... My cyrcadian rhythm completely wrecked. Got so much to do today and I am so 😩 tired 😴

A couple of months ago a friend was quite unsettled to find out that his 11 year old boy had been introduced to porn by his elder cousins on their summer trip. It was another mom who called him to share this has been revealed on the camping trip she had taken him with her boys. Another friend of mine shared today about his 13 year old daughter who was posting on a secret tik tok account about her struggles with finding a reason to be alive after November. She's been struggling with her weight, dealing with body dysmorphia and self esteem issues. How do you deal with that?! Sending blessings and prayers to the parents with adolescent kiddos and teens out there. To say it's been hard to make sense of the world the last few years is an understatement. Having to make sense of the world while raising children in this climate is a whole other animal of an initiation.

Just saying hi and mostly performing a spontaneous off the cuff multi layered experiment for my own self + curious how you guys doing? #asknostr

Seems like hustle mode is getting activated this morning. Good. I need it.

And then what? Someone tell me what follows next... 😅

#crossroads

Closing doors. Opening doors. Which ones will close? Which one will open? Hello Total Solar Eclipse in Leo 🦁♌️ How will you surprise and reorganize and rearrange me and my life? I can feel the invitation to a deeper dropping in within my own skin, relaxing into being at ease and at peace with myself, in grounded presence, in authentic connection within community... resourced, held, supported for who I am and the transformational counsel I carry.

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I haven't had access to wifi for a little while circumstantially and solely relying on my data plan and my reception is super low 1-2 bars most often. Trying to upgrade to multi network with hopes for an extra bar or two. I have no problem browsing through X and even watching YouTube video. But my experience on Nostr is completely terrible. @primal doesn't load notifications for hours. Things take forever to load. I finally updated @Amethyst and struggling there too. Why would that be? #asknostr I might take a break.

True story... The day or two before 7/30, I was feeling this nagging anxiety to check whether my tiny stack was still there... (the oracle within activating, I guess). I hadn't checked in a while, and I found myself mentally bracing—imagining staying calm, grounded, and collected in total acceptance if I were to discover it was all gone. "Fuck it. It is what it is. Just breathe. Life continues. It's not the first time. You're already at zero anyway." I'd started to #studybitcoin, and it was overwhelming. I was taking it one giant elephant bite at a time. I'd taken the step to move off exchanges and was researching hardware wallets... ...then life became hell. I entered the worst year of my life, and I've just been doing my best to recover from the shell shock. Still am. ...I never got to the hardware wallet part. I did buy a device—not a Coldcard—but I ultimately chickened out because of the concerns people were raising about it. I even hung out with a cryptographer who had worked on that team and shared my reasoning for not moving to it. He seemed to nod in agreement. I also didn't buy a Coldcard, despite how heavily it was marketed, because of the concerns some folks were expressing. That was all part of my DYOR. Now I'm kind of in freeze mode. I really don't know what to do, but I feel like I should do something. I'm just not sure what. Kind of immobilized.

OMFG... wrote the most amazing in hypnotic trance channeled message and as I was ready to review and post my fingers tumbled and I lost the window. I was writing inside primal 😭 mother fucker. That was some fucking good shit.

Oh, it was pms ice cream cravings... ❤️🥹

GM 🌞 Thx Nostr... Black Cock is def on my mind this am. 🤣 Hope you all have a great Wednesday.