Seems like hustle mode is getting activated this morning. Good. I need it.

And then what? Someone tell me what follows next... 😅

#crossroads

Closing doors. Opening doors. Which ones will close? Which one will open? Hello Total Solar Eclipse in Leo 🦁♌️ How will you surprise and reorganize and rearrange me and my life? I can feel the invitation to a deeper dropping in within my own skin, relaxing into being at ease and at peace with myself, in grounded presence, in authentic connection within community... resourced, held, supported for who I am and the transformational counsel I carry.

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I haven't had access to wifi for a little while circumstantially and solely relying on my data plan and my reception is super low 1-2 bars most often. Trying to upgrade to multi network with hopes for an extra bar or two. I have no problem browsing through X and even watching YouTube video. But my experience on Nostr is completely terrible. @primal doesn't load notifications for hours. Things take forever to load. I finally updated @Amethyst and struggling there too. Why would that be? #asknostr I might take a break.

True story... The day or two before 7/30, I was feeling this nagging anxiety to check whether my tiny stack was still there... (the oracle within activating, I guess). I hadn't checked in a while, and I found myself mentally bracing—imagining staying calm, grounded, and collected in total acceptance if I were to discover it was all gone. "Fuck it. It is what it is. Just breathe. Life continues. It's not the first time. You're already at zero anyway." I'd started to #studybitcoin, and it was overwhelming. I was taking it one giant elephant bite at a time. I'd taken the step to move off exchanges and was researching hardware wallets... ...then life became hell. I entered the worst year of my life, and I've just been doing my best to recover from the shell shock. Still am. ...I never got to the hardware wallet part. I did buy a device—not a Coldcard—but I ultimately chickened out because of the concerns people were raising about it. I even hung out with a cryptographer who had worked on that team and shared my reasoning for not moving to it. He seemed to nod in agreement. I also didn't buy a Coldcard, despite how heavily it was marketed, because of the concerns some folks were expressing. That was all part of my DYOR. Now I'm kind of in freeze mode. I really don't know what to do, but I feel like I should do something. I'm just not sure what. Kind of immobilized.

OMFG... wrote the most amazing in hypnotic trance channeled message and as I was ready to review and post my fingers tumbled and I lost the window. I was writing inside primal 😭 mother fucker. That was some fucking good shit.

Oh, it was pms ice cream cravings... ❤️🥹

GM 🌞 Thx Nostr... Black Cock is def on my mind this am. 🤣 Hope you all have a great Wednesday.

If you have just gone through a loss related to the Coldcard tragedy and right now it feels unbearable to process, please take a deep breath. Splash your face with cold water. Scream out loud (use a pillow if you need). Kick. Curse. Cry. Then come back to your breath. You don't have to solve your entire life today. You only have to make it through today. You are a precious human on this Earth. Money—even sound money—isn't the reason you were born. Your miraculous life has so much beauty, vitality, and many more decades left to experience. This may feel unbearable right now. But if you've lived long enough, you probably know that many of life's greatest blessings first arrive disguised as catastrophe. You are a more sovereign thinking mind than 99.99999% of humanity. We lead. We try. We test. We fail. We get back up. We learn. Untraveled paths sometimes lead us down dangerous routes. But we're still here. Explorers. Because it's up to us to find the way, make the way, and lead the way. None of this has ever been done before. No one has ever lived in the reality that you and I are living in now—talking on a micro-niche, censorship-resistant open protocol. I mean... maybe we were together in Atlantis, a highly advanced technological civilization that destroyed itself. Maybe we're meeting again... ...being given another chance to do it differently this time. I don't know. Bring in the myth. Bring in the adventure. Find the deeper meaning of your life. There's a lore here, and you're a protagonist in a much bigger unfolding. Don't finish the story prematurely. Your future self deserves the chance to meet you.

Here's a chatgpt thread from a year ago on HWW research I was doing and taking DYOR for a spin.

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I am crossing this bridge right now and I have a question for you that's arising. How do you handle conflict in your household? #asknostr How do you handle conflict between you and your wife or husband, your partner, your kids, your parents, your roommates, your cohabitating community members?

Aug. 2024. I was sitting in the front row directly across from @jack at Nostriga (or maybe Baltic Honey Badger, they were back to back). I had been hearing "Verify, don't trust" over the previous year as I dove deeper into Bitcoin and Nostr, but I hadn't actually grasped what it really meant. Then, while talking about open source, Jack said something like: "That's why it's called verify, don't trust. You can verify the code." And the 💡 lightbulb went on: "Ohhhhh... it's verify the CODE!!" 💧 Ahhhhhhh! OK!! Got it!!!! "Verify, don't trust" suddenly wasn't just an abstract slogan anymore. It clicked. Don't rely on promises or reputation when you can inspect what the software actually does. Verify. Don't trust. 💡

Having spent the last three hours scrolling and mostly seeing cold card related posts... I feel like I am finally reaching the pit in my throat grieving moment... 🥺 This really is a sad and devastating moment for Bitcoin.

Holy fucking shitballs

At this moment, I feel like I am having a really hard time relating to the world.