Someone just shared this song with me. I am crying. 🥹

Saw a friend... She held space... Listened... We dropped in. It was noirshing. She still works at the mushroom company but they still don't have any openings... In fact, they've been cutting down... Keeping it a lean team... She's going to bring me a bottle tomorrow, only with lions mane and psilocybin. I asked. I could really benefit from some mocrodosing at this moment. She is happy to contribute to my healing this way. I am grateful. She is also going to part with her copy of a Gratitude book that really uplifted her in a challenging time when she was put through the ringer 15 years ago. I give thanks every day but I am open to deepen and get into some morning evening ritual space. Or read as much before I get back on the road if I do. Been trying to lighten my load with little success, so will see where the book fits in.

Bday party at the lake.

Saw my friend Will as I was arriving... He was like "Diyana..." I literally couldn't recognize him "Ryan?" 😆 "No, it's Wilie, Didi." Met his son for the second time but I hadn't seen him since he became a father. We have prayed many Ayahuasca journeys together. Later on the lake after realizing it's my bday he said "Oh, I have a peach in my car... What car did you come with? If I end up leaving earlier I am gonna leave a peach on your car 🍑" Sweet peachy bday to me. Thx Will! 😃

It was my friend's birthday party on my birthday... I've been really at a low point and kinda dragged myself there... wasn't in a hurry to be on time and figured I'd just stay for an hour and wanna retreat into hermit mode... It turns out it was the best thing I could have done for myself today. 🥹

How do you end a chapter, you know is way past due.... but the way forward is not clear?

HBD to me 🪷

How does one find out if they are censored on Primal? #asknostr

6:30 am morning walk, before the town is up. My old stomping grounds... Why is it that I don't wanna be back?!? I left unexpectedly... I intentionally stayed away so that change can happen... I miss it here but I also don't. I can see a new beginning. But I don't seem to wanna reconnect. HBD to me.

My birthday is today. A friend suggested that I finally do something I have struggled to do for a long time: make a list of my needs. 2025—or perhaps I should say my 40th year—has been the most challenging year of my life. I underwent an emergency appendectomy during the September Virgo eclipse. The experience was deeply traumatic and was accompanied by homelessness, difficult relational dynamics, financial strain, and two weeks of antibiotics that left my system completely gutted. But the truth is that much of this did not begin in 2025. In many ways, it has been the continuation of a much longer chapter. Looking back, I think part of what has brought me to this moment is prolonged separation from community and a place of belonging. After unexpectedly spending nearly a year in Bulgaria caring for my grandmother, who had dementia and was immobile, I don't think I ever fully recovered from the physical, emotional, and energetic demands of that chapter. I then found myself living a highly nomadic life for the next two and a half years, away from the community that had been home to me for more than eight years in the Sierra Nevada foothills. While that journey brought many gifts, meaningful experiences, and people I would never have met otherwise, it also came with a cost. I lost the daily rhythms of community, familiarity, and belonging. The people who know me. The people who ask how I'm doing. The people who recognize when something is off and hold space with presence. The hugs, the conversations, the chance encounters, and the simple experience of being woven into the fabric of a place. I think I underestimated how much those things matter. The toll of prolonged instability, constant transition, and living without the support structures that most people rely on has been tremendous. Many people have offered spiritual advice, mindset shifts, prayers, and energetic perspectives. I genuinely appreciate all of it. But right now, what I need most is earthly, practical, material support. For those who have asked how they can help, here is an honest list. 🏡 HOME I need a home. I need a stable place to land for the next 3, 6, or 12+ months so I can heal, recover, regenerate, and begin finding solid ground again. I welcome contributions toward creating that stability, whether through housing support, direct financial support, or other aligned arrangements. I welcome meaningful introductions to individuals, opportunities, properties, or arrangements that genuinely have the potential to support this next chapter. I am particularly interested in connections related to the type of residential stewardship arrangement described at

Diyana A. | Residential Stewardship

High-trust residential stewardship and companion presence for homes, animals, and elders. Peace of mind, embodied.

How that home arrives remains a mystery. I am open to the right pathway. 🚗 TRANSPORTATION I need reliable transportation and ultimately my own vehicle. I welcome vehicle leads, vehicle donations, contributions toward purchasing a vehicle, creative transportation arrangements, or an unused vehicle that someone may no longer be driving and would be willing to place into service. 💼 INCOME, OPPORTUNITIES & REFERRALS I welcome aligned part-time, full-time, contract, consulting, project-based, and creative opportunities. I also welcome referrals and introductions where my skills may be of service. My background includes strategy, marketing, communications, website development, project support, community building, intuitive guidance, deep listening, healing work, and helping people gain clarity during periods of transition and change. I welcome introductions to individuals, organizations, patrons, benefactors, and aligned projects that may resonate with my experience, skills, and the work I am here to bring into the world. 💻 TECHNOLOGY I welcome a Silicon-based laptop or contributions toward one so I can fully participate in modern AI tools and opportunities. 🧬 HEALTH & RECOVERY I welcome support for microbiome restoration, health testing, support toward my supplement staples, bodywork, dollars for groceries, and other resources that support healing and recovery. 🚀 PROJECTS, TRAINING & MENTORSHIP I also welcome support, mentorship, strategy, training, and hands-on guidance from those with experience in: • Agentic AI, AI workflows, automation, MCPs, and autonomous systems • Grant writing, fundraising, sponsorships, and nonprofit development • Trusts, PMAs, churches, and alternative organizational structures • Building Freedom Tech, open protocols, community infrastructure, and coordination layers • Mission-driven projects, organizational design, and bringing ideas from concept to reality Several projects that are close to my heart have been waiting in the wings while I've focused on survival and recovery. If you have expertise in any of these areas and feel called to donate your time, guidance, strategy, training, or mentorship, I would deeply appreciate the support. 👕 PRACTICAL SUPPORT Organic cotton, hemp, and linen clothing. Gift cards for groceries and essentials. Cash. Bitcoin. Stablecoins. Dollars. Euros. Any practical support that lightens the load. Sometimes the greatest gift is not a contribution but a meaningful connection. More than anything, I am seeking enough stability to focus on healing, restoring my health, rebuilding my income, and bringing several projects that have been waiting in the wings forward. For those who simply wish to gift, thank you. I receive your support with deep gratitude. For those who would prefer an exchange, investment, sponsorship, patronage, or some form of reciprocity, I will share a separate list of ways I can contribute, support, build, create, strategize, teach, guide, and give back. Feel free to reach out directly. Venmo: @Diyana Cash App: $rebirthearth I can also provide Bitcoin, stablecoin, or other payment options upon request. Zaps are welcomed. Thank you for helping me remember that I am not completely alone. ❤️

Happy Sag Full Moon on my birthday. And yes all this is f*cking spot on. I am really holding up for 41 ≠ 40.

I am gonna be honest with you...

What do you do when you have nothing to lose? I guess only your one precious life.

The words "open source" are all of a sudden flowing through the mouth of the most unlikely suspects. It's kinda cool.

Present company. #transmutationmedicine Been staying downtown for a couple days and have been hearing this really funny vocal cat... Turns out it's not a cat. Lol.

"...power is made perfect in weakness"