My never ending life cycle is powering up, living how I should be, close to nature, not consuming crap with my eyes and mouth, sleeping, exercising well. When I keep this up for 1-2 weeks my chi/vril/prana overflows and I feel like a demigod. And then comes the fall, my biggest challenge is keeping my cool when I'm in demigod mode, because I feel so good that I think nothing can harm me, and I always end doing something self destructing, and the cycle restarts, I feel like crap, deflated and want to get back to demigod mode, so the disciplined living returns. I've been unable to break this cycle so far.