it took me soooooo long to reach that kind of emotional maturity.
i was a terrible communicator and it takes me awhile to process things.
what made things work for me was always believing that She is the love of my life, and that no matter how hurt or frustrated or shutdown i was, i would say or do anything to sever the connection.
it was my refusal to relinquish this truth that help me find my way back to Her...