Repeat these words: "Jesus, I believe that God raised you from the dead after you were crucified for the sins of humanity, and all of my sins. I believe you Jesus Christ are LORD, so I accept you now as LORD and savior and center of my life. I will center myself in you Jesus, the Heavenly Father, and the Holy Spirit, and in your love for me, for the rest of my life and eternity."
This begins your journey with Jesus Christ, the Father, and the Holy Spirit.
Now, whether with pen and paper or typing, begin a journal document and write to Jesus, Heavenly Father, or Holy Spirit or all three, all of your positive, negative, and/or neutral secrets, which can include your thoughts and feelings and opinions. And then, write down what they are saying to you, but if it doesn't align with 1 Corinthians 13, it's not God since God is love.
As you develop this daily habit, I humbly suggest reading the Bible regularly. The Gospel of John may be a good place to start because God is love, and the apostle John lived in the love of God.
Then remember this theological principle: as you read about him and who he is and what he did:
Jesus Christ is perfect theology.
If an interpretation of scripture doesn't align with who Jesus presented himself as and what he did and how he interacted with the Heavenly Father, and other people, it's not true, since Jesus Christ is The Truth.
Many will try to deify other Biblical figures, and while they can be learned from, none of them are Jesus Christ, God embodied.
Then find a church that values the presence of God, seeking intimacy with Him through worship and relationship, truth and freedom, not control and fear and self-flagellation, since relationship with Jesus does not involve punishment.
While searching for a church like this, I humbly recommend watching the services and listening to the messages of Bethel Church:
https://www.bethel.tv/details?id=676050f08f08cf545ba15b19&type=vod
https://youtu.be/O0VGorOkvgs?si=ddRQpZVy9kpR7kmx
Bless you on your journey!
