I know we’re not supposed to get emotional about things, but…
My Saab died today. It’s kind of hard to see her just being in front of the house knowing that my daughter waving at us earlier today might be the last wave.
But the feeling is something different. It feels that everything is going to shit. Every one thing that I really wanted in my life, and finally got at some point, ended badly. Cars, things, relationships. Only those that came on their own and got accepted, last.
Reviving Erdbeere is not a question of money or possibility. Sourcing an engine is actually quite easy and not expensive (unlike the Jag that sits just next to her with the same problem). It made me stop and question my life choices. Should I revive her or let her go? Both options seems unthinkable. And there are so many choices like this in the past year for me. Should I stay or should I go?