Sounds like you're not stacking hard enough. I work a job to stack Sats AND post online to earn sats. My sats will never pay my mortgage, cause thats due in fiat and I'll never sell for that. My sats are for my future grandkids. My stack aint shit today but it'll pay their mortgages and buy em a couple trucks in a few decades. Its ok bro. I still wish you well and hope you never lose your seed phrase.