today the brain is full of thoughts. it has entered a new stage of grief - anger. not accepting the reality “why is this happening to us?” as the heart hurts to look at a mother who will be giving birth to a baby that has had no heartbeat for at least to weeks, as doctors said. no signal, nothing different than the previous pregnancy. it is just nature. what can you do, right? so I opened books, I read old notes and I cleaned the bathroom, I cried and did the laundry, but the speed was still very high. and finally I sat down and I started writing. I let go of old memories and ended with a grace. forgave myself and others. and then I let the anger out. I couldn’t stop writing. so many questions. why? why this and why that, since that and this. and today, lovely people, is another begining and another end. the end of a long depression and the beginning of a book #alphaomega #beginningend #lifedeath #sunrisesunset #lifedeath may our souls be in peace #grownostr #bitcoin #Olas #Damus #thisistheway