I haven't posted here in a while. A lot of things happened many months ago, like someone I cared about suddenly passed away for unknown reasons. This started a chain reaction of events, I broke up with good woman - a descision that I later came to regret. I said goodbye to some friends where boundaries had irreversibly been crossed, still miss you but I think it's better this way. I hid in solitude and waited for the toxicity to spiral out, housecleaning, workout, work, gardening and more work on myself, letting go. It was a horrible night. And you already know what they say about the morning sun. I'm ok 😊🙂

I kinda figured it out, the more time you spend productive and not thinking about whatever it was. The less hold it gains over your present and future.

I am very upset right now. I responded to a late night call last weekend. Showered, shaved and went out into the freezer. Everything was fine and dandy, we had fun, but ever since Monday I've been receiving a barrage of messages about STD issues that makes me want to jot down the last lines of my will. I made a few calls and scheduled for testing. I wish to make a statement, this is not ok behaviour. And is highly unattractive. If you ever suspect or have issues im the nether regions, go get tested first. Period. I'm out!

Gm nostr, what a beatiful day~

Gm nostr, found this post stuck in outbox, but the context is sadly lost to me as well: The suspicion that you're the elephant and nobody's willing to tell ya.

Hit the gym, pondering my dope-low and the meaning of life. Anyone else feeling like finding the right one, settling down and produce offspring to hopefully keep ya occupied?

OK boys and girls, I'm gonna continue to share some cringy 💩, don't ask how I know, just accept it as gospel. Slowly

Do do doodie dum dum, dodie do do, crash!

Jidderstop i min kropp

What do you do when your achievements have piled up, your motivations grow pale and you're tired of everything but don't have the funds to escape?

Oh sigh, went to party, while trying to get the entrance fee sorted, girl comes up to me and starts flirting. I haven't even set foot inside before she proposes to take cab to her place. Note to self, wake up earlier & goto parties earlier to enjoy the music.

I hate missing people of the past, Looking forward to meeting you of the future.

Today I confessed to a girl and asked her out on a date and mere 2 hours later I responded to a random bootycall. It feels like messed something up but I can't put my thumb on it right now. </drystreak>

But damn, chapter 9 is killing me. I need the gym. Ttyl

OK, here's the hard truth, I went to the wrong party. It was wierd, I got the eff outa there, honest mistake.

OK , danced some, consumed 3 hearts, shared to insta , party is looking better #shitfaced

Moon rocket landed, texted bro, and bosslike dude and also texted with some chick I met abroad. Shit i'm at a party and i'm playing with my shiny square, bad party

Also tonight I had a wierd conversation with a pretty woman, she told me she's afraid of dick but still can't get enough of it. I held a straight face and replied "I love licking pussy, it's so soft." For some wierd reason she got offended, provably something else I did wrong, point is i had just fallen down a flight of stairs, the adrenaline was still pumping in my ears, i'm good though, completely unscathed 🤙 Anywhoo, let's pretend I didn't share this gotta go sleep, big day tmrw.

I'm so in love with life. Fuck last time I was this happy some woman came and ruined my life. Eh eff it. I'll just lean into it when it happens, i'll live.

I'm back home again, cleaned the apartment, unpacked the bag, watered the plants, finished work. The chaos is starting to overflow again. I don't know if it's my ego talking or the id. Thursday, Restless 🧛‍♂️