everyone I've ever felt safe around is either gone from my life or dead. I don't know what the point of anything is anymore. I have no real friends and the world isn't safe for me
queen of the night
npub17jag...cr5f
christian anarcho-communist. trans woman. schizoid personality. no zaps because i despise money in all its forms
the charlie kirk memorial service is straight-up cult shit, demonic mammon-worshipping freaks pretending to be christian while mocking everything Christ said. evil, evil people.
wealth is sin
Christian anarchism is the only consistent Christian politics. Anything else is putting some human authority in place of God
Funny that the right is fearmongering about a transgender anti-christian terrorist cell, while I'm a trans Christian with the kind of mental illness that makes me move slowly most of the time and struggle to respond to anything, making me less dangerous or capable of violence than the average joe. And most trans people I've met have been similar
censorship is going to get so bad
I'm reading Deleuze's book on Immanuel Kant (Kant's Critical Philosophy: The Doctrine of the Faculties). I'm gonna read Kant for the first time since I was a teenager soon, probably work my way through all three critiques and some essays. Need some grounding in some rigorous philosophy when the world's in chaos
#bookstr #philosophy
the only good nazi is a dead nazi, which means charlie kirk is good indeed
we are and always have been a nation ruled by mammonites and false prophets, and trump is simply the culmination of this tradition
Cruelty is foolish
i return to the thought process that i should try and carve out an anonymous place for myself on nostr, because of how social media in general feels so precarious. archives being wiped out, no control. but i feel a strange sense of chaos regardless of which app i use, it feels like everything on nostr is strangely empty yet rushing so so fast. i want something but idk if this is it
i'm so horribly useless and depressed and i hate myself lmao
Important to keep in mind that the inorganic extensions of your body can still cause you pain. Trying to escape being hurt by living your life through objects will only objectify your suffering.
Spent a few months reading Hume, I think the next philosopher I read is going to be Margaret Cavendish. She seems interesting. Anybody on here know much about her? (I'm reading a biography first lol)
#philosophy
I'm depressed, but things could be worse. I'm so isolated lately. I want to connect with people but I'm so so scared to be seen or known, especially now
ngl I'm really glad nostr exists, now
My body is a machine that converts coffee into anxiety
Sometimes I want to be so so cruel
if mental illness didn't make reading so hard for me i would read so many fuckin books
This can only go on for so long. Without support, the illusion of self tends to come undone. The individual is a product which must continually be maintained by an entire apparatus of becoming. At this point in history, it is a global system of precarity which makes the "I am" emerge from chaos, and it is visibly falling apart.