“I want a woman to be my peace.” I have been in contemplation around this honest desire from men for a while now. Specifically witnessing how people speak about this on different levels and how it’s shown up in my own relationship with men. A woman’s energetic field is a calibrator. A woman who is at home in her body, with her life force turned on, is always calibrating to Truth. When people come in contact with that (men or women) her field will agitate and activate that which is untrue or distorted. She is a mirror. Peace is found as your system clears and finds coherence with it’s true design. So yes, a good woman will be your peace, but her presence will clear out all that is untrue first and that can be an uncomfortable ride.

The fantasy breaking is the starting point.

A reminder for us all: It is really vulnerable for a man to give. It is really vulnerable for a woman to receive. That’s all, have a nice night NOSTR fam 😘

Tonight I lay on my back on the grass, looking up at the stars. And I could hear the voices of the seekers, the contrarians, the what if none of its realians? what if they’re playing us? how are the stars always there in the same way if we’re moving at a cagillion miles an hour through spaceians. And I told them to quiet down. Because sometimes I don’t want to seek. I want to see. I want to see what is right in front of me when I just look up. I want to feel my breath slow as I let my vision blur. I want to experience the sheer beauty of being alive- because what a gift it is. And as soon as I chose to just let it all in, the biggest shooting star I have ever seen shot across the sky causing me to make an audible gasp that scared my dog. So yeah, sure, maybe it’s all a fuckin lie. But it is in those moments I feel God. And I will choose that over the never ending questions any day.

My orange pilling process has been gentler because I never “did all the things right” that I was supposed to. I did not save, I did not choose a career for money, I couldn’t even pimp my coaching work out the way so many in my industry did and I’m behind on taxes. And was this because I was all fuck the government? No, in many ways I was irresponsible, probably disconnected from reality in some way. And, my paradigm did not need to shatter in order to see this other way. Someone shared about it and it was like for the first time things made sense actually. I was just on the phone with a dear friend who has been doing “it all right.” Building a great business for her family, putting money away for taxes, saving for retirement. And when I asked her, she isn’t feeling the squeeze. But she was curious about my life and I shared a bit about bitcoin and NOSTR and she’s super open. And she said “this is all sounding a bit scary and I honestly feel a bit like a chump right now. Like I’ve done all the things but I’ve been missing this big one.” And I have so much compassion for that. For the fact that we just do what we can with the information we have. And then when we learn more, we listen to our gut and we make new choices. I have a feeling she will start investing in BTC soon. I think there’s a bit of a technical gap and I am not the best person to set her up. But it was a really beautiful conversation that had me feel grateful for a lot.

Death. Loss. Existential loneliness. Awakening. Grief. Missing my women. I want belly laughs. I want play. I want language that doesn’t need to be spoken. A smile that says, “I see you.” Warmth and joy and remembrance that life is a gift. I want cuddles and head rubs. Soft landings and love. The things that only humans get. I want life that is lived. Adventure that is embraced. Remembering we are only here for a short time.

A different kind of warrior Her sword not seen But felt in her reflection Sharpened by her own willingness to face herself Every place she abandons a fragment of her being Deeming it unimportant Her potency cultivated in her breaking open Insides turning to goo Flames burning Tears flowing Heart cracking Body holding Training Grace and compassion Without abandonment Of herself Generous loving Coming from the clarity of which she can see you Perhaps in the places you haven’t yet looked Trusting in the unfolding of it all

One of the things that has transformed my life the most is having a true belief of possibility. Nothing is off limits for me. If it sits on my heart, if I have visions of it, it’s possible. I do not get stuck in the details of how. I have a deep sense of faith that I choose and have cultivated over many years. And my life continually reflects that in what opens up for me. To live this way also means becoming very comfortable with grief. Because it continually asks me to open my grip and let go of something if it is not fully it - even if that’s just moment to moment ideas of how something should be. Each time, I am always gifted something even better. It may simply take on a different shape. I am intimate with my life. And I work hard at maintaining that. I trust, I listen, I move with it and I wait when there’s nothing to do. I am not even close to perfect at it, but it’s a foundational belief I hold (that I didn’t always have) that continues to bring me miracles. If there is one thing I could wish for people- it is to live their life in total possibility of miracles at all times.

Just had my first person reach out on Substack to book a session with me, offering to pay in BTC because I’ve shared a few notes on there around my journey with Bitcoin and decentralized tech. Something feels so good about that 🧡

GM fam

Just doin’ God’s work in the dream world. #sacredduty

Do many people use @Wavlake who aren’t bitcoiners? I’ve got a few things on there that are getting listens but no zaps/ tips. I’m curious on the tech and demographic of it and the culture. Wondering if that’s standard. One of the things I have on there is an audio course and if it’s just being consumed without anything back, it feels extractive and I’d likely shift to putting my mostly free meditations on there and looking at some here else to house my deeper journeys.

Can I put in a request with the NOSTR gods that they add a voice note feature to @primal? I haven’t found a suitable integration. Please and thank you 🫶🏻

Never underestimate the power of seeding your dreams/ visions/ desires into the womb of a woman. Her field is creational. Beyond the physical. Her love is transformational. Her backing, powerful. Let it be so.

So far my NOSTR feed is: Bitcoin More Bitcoin Decentralized tech talk New app updates Everything’s a lie Bitcoin Art Carnivore diet Carnivore adjacent diet aka steak

From what I’ve been seeing from men over the last while is that there are many men who deeply want a wife and family. I think sometimes there is this belief that that is a womanly desire but I think it spans both sexes. I also know there are so many narratives and circumstances that create doubt in many men’s minds that that is an unlikely outcome. It’s not. Perhaps “statistically” but I don’t deal in the realm of earthly probabilities. I work with the field. The place we take our god given desires and seed them into the fabric of reality. Where we say yes to the mission to become the man or woman to have what has been placed on our heart. There is a lot of evidence “out there” to indicate things are going to get really rough in many ways. That what we want is “hard” to create. And it’s easy to get swept up into all the narratives spinning around that distract us from the ache of our deepest desires. There isn’t a doubt in my mind that when you really want something, it’s possible. And the more you listen, and move through your life with that as your North Star, the more probable it becomes.

If you’re going through a withdrawal of some sort (substance or person), I channeled this visit from Love a while back, to be with you in the dark moments 🤍

Wavlake

Message of Love for Addiction Withdrawal • Katie O'Connor

Play, boost, and more on Wavlake ⚡️🎵

Okay this is also an option! Although I feel like the file is too big and definitely couldn’t get much longer.

Saying hi with my voice to my new NOSTR fam. Testing out different ways to do this.

SoundCloud

Katie ⌁ Hello

Listen to Katie ⌁ Hello by Katie O'Connor #np on #SoundCloud

Me understanding16% of what people share on here.