I've been working on this project. where I'm tearing down 3/4 of an addition to build it back bigger and with a 15 foot wall, giving the interior a 10ft ceiling. It's been challenging as a first big build. I'm working by myself. bur I'm about to throw that house in a dumpster. because it's an allready built addition the challenging part has been tearing it down in stages so I can keep it covered. there is a basement under it. this is my dad's house and honestly he chooses to do.things the hard way a lot of the time. Basically he had a builder look at it before me who was like. "yeah I'll tear it down to the foundation and built it for 180k" I'm doing it for a lot less partly because I want the experience to gain confidence to do more projects. It's also more interestingly going to have about 2x the insulation air leak control as a "built to code" new addition would have.

visiting my wife's gramma who is in her 80s is great. it's a wild reminder of how close to the past we are. she mentioned her grandfather who was born in 1866.

my brother and I make a little extra income via selling books. we usually get them for free by offering to haul them out of people's houses who are elder.or moving or family members handling the estate of their deceased families members. This is from a pretty old book printed in the 50s maybe. But the picture was taken in the 1880s and is of a Barron. pretty suacy

Here seems a better place than any to put down these thoughts. @DzambhalaHODL posted on X how excecutives knew recycling was a red herring. In other words more lies under the cover of plausible deniability. Yesterday I was angry with myself because I wasn't assertive enough with the tri axle driver delivering stone to my job site. It's Me and me alone working on the site and responsible for all things that take place there. So I had to shovel 6 of the 12 tons that I let get dumped to correct my fuck up. It was about 95 degrees in full sun and I wanted to blame the driver as I started shoveling. I got over wanting to blame the driver around 15 minutes. I was worried that having to do heavy grunt work before laying the first course of retaining wall block would cause me to succumb to more mistakes. Because I do most construction or farm work alone I noticed it's difficult to transition between grueling heavy labor and skilled work or planning. It requires a mindset shift and that shift isn't as easy for me when I need my mind to be focused on my body during the heavy labor.  As I drove away from the jobsite at 3:30 (peak heat) I saw 2 guys on a roof laying shingle. If I was in a life where the only way I could support myself was roofing or robbing houses in affluent suburbs I'd choose the later. I'd probably go to prison and I'd still prefer that to roofing. The executives in the plastics industry had many many career and life choices they could have made besides lying to the entire world. But they lied and lied for some amount more career advancement? They above nearly every other type of person should live with the threat of prison, of physical violence for bad decisions that negatively affect others.      Because those used to a life of physical brutality and instability are in general the least perturbed by the prospect of physical confinement and living with violent unstable prison mates. If someone thinks roofing in 95 degrees and full sun is not physical brutality they should go do it. In my view those most removed from physical brutality would be those most detered by it as consequence of their actions. It seems unlikely that we will reform the prison system. We might as well make proper use of its ugliness and make it a very real threat to criminals in corner offices.