Lol #emmyanime #pinteresting

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Now that my dog has passed, my parents’ place feels really empty and quiet. One plus side, besides being around my family, is that I have this garden and random street cat and bees that love my garden. Most days are really hard internally, but moments like this make it a bit easier. I didn’t plant all of this, but I enjoy how it’s taken over. Return To Nature 🕉️ #gardenstr #plantstr

Hi friends, I hope you have a good day today. It’s gloomy where I’m at, and although I’d rather be elsewhere, it’s fiat time. Blessed be.

As much as I don’t like #fiat I will say that because we are a less than 10 staff, my bosses treat us all like family. And family is there for each other. My manager came in today on her day off, to hang a stocking they all made for my dog. It was so fucking kind, they did not have to at all, but it helps a lil. Just a little. It helps knowing I’m not alone even though I feel like it sometimes. I am grateful. Sad. Mourning. But grateful.

Every day sucks without you. I keep trying to distract myself but everything reminds me of you. It’s worse when I’m alone with my thoughts. I hope one day I can remember you and not break down. I love you so much Daisy Dooke. RIP 12/06/2023

Was I’m so fucking sad

My heart aches so much I miss my daisy with every being of my soul and body. I feel so empty and weightless. I just want one more anything. One more boop. One more kiss. One more cuddle. Anything but this emptiness. She is my first dog. I’ve spent half of my life with her. It was her time, but I was not ready. I miss you so much baby girl and I love you with every piece of me. I can’t wait to see you again my baby my sweet angel 😔 may you rest in peace please wait for me

Rest in Peace my Daisy.

My dog isn’t doing so well :/ send love and prayers or just good vibes please xo

#stuffilike

Hi friends it’s been a minute, I hope you are all starting off your week happy & healthy. I need a new phone case 🙃 xo Blessed beeeee ✨ Rather be a stoner than have a hangover #weedstr #plebchain #glittergal #goodvibes

My maternal grandma passed away 4 years ago. Today was the first time I went to the cemetery alone, no other family member was able to come, and it was 20 min to closing time. I would not leave until I found every dead grandparents gravestone. I first found my maternal grandfathers grave, then my maternal grandmothers. I knew exactly where my paternal grandmothers grave was, so I headed there and that’s when it got dark. I had to call my sister to ask where my paternal grandpa’s grave was and she tried to explain but it was difficult to find in the dark. I had my phone flashlight on, apologizing to the deceased graves I was stepping over, and I could not find him. I was so hurt, the groundskeeper had flashed his light to me, basically saying it’s way past closing. I had been there for an hour and a half at this point, and I was ready to call it. And then I pointed my flashlight down and saw my p. grandfathers name, or what looked like it through the overgrown grass lawn. I dropped down in tears, I had found him. I found him, I did it, I quickly ran to pour some water in his underground vase, put the flowers together, and just this weight left me. I cried all the way home, I even had to call my boyfriend for comfort. And although I still feel really sad about all the emotions I had just gone through, and my overall day, a part of me feels a huge relief and I feel like I did them right. Like they might be proud of me. Like they might really be watching you know? Idunno. I miss you grandma. I miss you all. Love you, but don’t love me back just yet.

I had a really good day today. Like really. I hope you all did too frandz #plebchain #nostriches xo Blessed Be ✨