Sometimes, I want to scream and tell the world how not okay I am. I want to say that I'm slowly losing my mind and all my hope to live. But instead of doing it, I stayed silent and acted as if there was nothing wrong with me.
The truth is, sometimes I just want to cry in front of everyone. I want to tell them that I am slowly giving up and that I couldn't help myself from my own thoughts. The voices in my head are getting louder, and they are telling me how worthless I am. I need someone to understand what I feel, but how can somebody understand me when I can't even speak about what is happening to me? I can't even speak about my pain.
I'm tired. I used to tell myself that I'd be okay soon. But now, it feels like I'm losing my sanity. I'm tired of this feeling. I wish I could just forget that I'm hurting.
β Shiori X
