i’m still young you were young once, too and if you didn’t do the same stupid shit i won’t apologise to say you’re probably boring

i love an inside joke with anyone it’s like our secret language that no one else understands

i started tracking my sleep last night for the first time with an apple watch my sleep score is 97 7 hours and 44 minutes kind of expected i have always been a good sleeper

even though i came out of the womb with two brothers, they grew up more like twins and i am the extra they never made me feel left out though always invited me, always kept me company i wasn’t good at making friends still, maybe i was a little jealous when we were young that they did guy things with their guy friends and i wasn’t a part of it that was young me speaking now i am their boss the ringleader

once again jordan fish left his print on this northlane track loving the riffage and heaviness, plus the electronic bits

YouTube Music

Crucified

Single • Northlane

sitting in the passenger seat in a car park whilst my boyfriend is in the grocery store the lady in her g-wagon parked next to us gets out of her car, steps back to look at me like a criminal who might steal whatever treasure is in her car bitch do you look in the mirror and think to yourself, i own so much everyone wants to steal from me

two chicks came to the house looking for my brothers i don't know them and no one told me they were coming i told them to wait outside whilst i check i'm not letting strangers in my house i never called my brothers that was an hour ago maybe they've melted in the heat or died or left *shrug*

if hell had a soundtrack

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Dawn Of The Iconoclast

Album • Worm Shepherd

i picked today's workout music i sometimes call it sex music some call it deftones and chino's voice my brothers didn't mind onlyfans guy asked if we can change it yes sure but has to tell me why he said it makes him uncomfortable he uses it for his onlyfans "performances" hahaha i felt bad so i changed it to worm shepherd hell's soundtrack

my boyfriend has confessed he hates my candles he said they smell like food and hates that it tricks his brain into thinking there's banana bread

the producer i declined to work with has responded to me in text saying, “good luck with your career” sarcasm? most likely i said thanks anyway

my spidey stranger danger sense was firing on all cylinders this morning at a new session job i was supposed to do i was so relieved to arrive home where i feel safe it was draining that i took a nap i told my boyfriend and brothers about it after my brother asked "should we call kostya and niko? do we need to rearrange someone's face?" i said, no. feeling grossed out doesn't warrant violence but of course, they're always ready for it

i have a dark and ugly feeling that i'm working with a sleazy producer on this job and i don't want to go back in the studio i am properly armed but i think i'll make up an excuse and not go back i don't care i don't feel safe i have been uncomfortable in a room full of men i have never worked with before in the last 5 hours either they look at me funny or i don't exist at all

my boyfriend has bought me an apple watch because i'm terrible at bringing my phone with me said watch can make and take calls, i can also listen to music with it apparently as if i wouldn't be equally terrible at remembering to wear the watch

i read one highly recommended book with dragons but with smut in it and kindle keeps recommending me more smutty books dungeon crawler carl it is then