You can just read things you don’t understand.

The best thing about AI is I can just put totally batshit nonsensical shit into it when I am high AF, and it will somehow get where I am going with it and give me back something that makes a lot more sense that the babble that I put into it.

At a concert and a girl asked for my gram. I asked for her npub. She didn’t have one.

Ugh, I am constantly reminded at the need to deconstruct contemporary politics through the lens of the historic philosophical development of liberalism and socialism to explain why pretty much every ‘socialist’ I meet today is retarded and full of totalizing contradictions that should cause their ideology to collapse if their commitment to scientific rigor was actually a real thing and not just an authoritarian belief they project.

Don’t let it happen to you.

“It’s zero risk” Like how fucking stupid are you actually, because you can’t really believe that there is something that is zero risk.

Remember when eth was suppose to flip BTC? lol, lmao.

I started road biking again after taking like 4 years off. I forgot how good it feels just to ride like 20+ miles somewhere and just be engrossed in my body and the experience. I get into a kind of meditative state when I’m doing it—I forgot about it and I’ve missed it.

A thought I frequently have when I’m about 30 minutes into keeping my heart rate >130 is who is the real me? Is it this person here, active and moving in the world, or is it the version of me when I am at rest? My mind seems to function differently in each space where by body is in these different states.

Confession: For the first 4 years I was involved with bitcoin, I thought it was the meme-pool, not mem. The memepool is what processes retarded transactions; not Bitcoin.

More and more I am noticing the tension of opposites across almost the whole spectrum. It’s like building towards a zeitgeist where before a hegelian synthesis can occur, the thesis and antithesis need to reach their maximum absurdity to pronounce their own death to end the interregnum before a new truth is produced.

I hate that so often I will get everything right and actually get myself into bed at the right time, and I’ll be pretty tired, but my brain is like: “Oh yeah? You want a good night of sleep to wake up refreshed and to take on a big day of responsibility and getting shit done tomorrow? How about instead I fuck you over by having you loop over and over on stupid shit from throughout the that doesn’t really matter and just causes you anxiety? Would you like to spend the next 3 hours thinking about that? Go ahead and try to do meditative exercises, or counting sheep, doesn’t matter, you won’t go to sleep because I decided tonight is one of those nights that I am just going to totally fuck up your day tomorrow for no reason other than that I can. Worse part is, there is no one to blame but yourself because I am you!” Sometimes it be like that.

I’m so happy that Nostr exist so I have some kind of social media that isn’t a completely unhinged brainwashing clickbait experience. Everyday the experience on the other apps gets more and more extreme, deranged, and frankly scary.

Man, being back in an urban environment after years of being out in the forest is a real mindfuck. I just notice the constant human pattern algorithms playing. All of the micro transactions between people, the unsaid normative system at play, the default mode of everyday being that permeates everything. It’s wild to see how the architecture of modernism itself dictates our entire way of being. Most fucked up is how I’ve missed it. How the comfort of the system of constant appraisal and social cohesion and its overtures towards a nostalgic component of desire that never actualizes. You wouldn’t believe it, but spend a few years living alone out in the forest and you’ll be surprised at what you miss.

There is a possibility of building something extraordinary that could last for thousands of years, and could contribute to the liberation of human from the shackles of statism forever. But you wanna feel safe according to false and pretentious societal standards, so you sell your labor to corporate oligarchs who use your talents to help design system of digital slavery from which you will never escape. Yeah, I dont think we have a lot to talk about.

I sometimes forget that I’m at least two standard deviations away from what most normies would consider normal. I just grenade their world view in about 4 paragraphs, lol.