Hi- I haven’t posted daily updates because it felt important to allow myself enough time to draw material insights from the subtle shifts in consciousness I’ve experienced over the past few days of microdosing 🍄🍄‍🟫 So, without further ado, here are my day 3-6 insights: - the largest shifts remain the same as days 1&2: increased mental clarity, elevated mood, experiencing deeper connection to and presence within my environment, yet more detached from passing thoughts and emotions - I’m experiencing a subtly stronger connection to subconscious / God / spirituality, find myself focusing on it more & praying with ease, God feels like a more material part of my daily life — which I love. Im highly spiritual by nature & have felt a connection with a higher power since a young age. Lost it a bit due to mental health stuff yada yada but feels gratifying to feel like its natural to lean in - I feel more in control of how I respond to irritants and stressors. I feel an increased ability to maintain agency over my responses to my external environment - _significantly_ decreased PMDD symptoms leading up to my period which I’m so thankful for 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 those who live with pmdd will seriously benefit from this and it gives me hope. I will likely start microdosing during my luteal phase every month and tracking my symptoms. This part of my cycle is when I experience the greatest difficulty in maintaining healthy relationships with my mind & body bc of hormonal shifts that lead to extreme anxiety and depression. I feel like I’m cracking a code for integrated health intervention for pmdd and I’m pumped about it ⭐️overall I feel more authentically myself with just a subtle .1 mg of psilocybin in my system for the past 6 days. I feel more connected to my purpose, my environment, and the low time preference values I hope to lead my life with Looking forward to continuing the experience - I’m considering altering the dosage slightly after this 10 day round ends this weekend so will post about that if so

Microdosing day ✌🏼insights, I woke up feeling pretty low energy. Lethargic and foggy from the second I woke up. My body felt heavy as I walked my dog a few blocks. I took the .1 cap of psilocybin & a lions mane cap on an empty stomach, made breakfast, did virtual therapy, and within two hours I felt significantly more mentally clear, energetic, and overall in a more gratifying mood. This could be correlated to the mushrooms or the fact that my body had a few hours to turn on the engine. Either way not complaining about the turn around I decided to read 10 pages of the Bitcoin Standard everyday while I’m doing this. I’ve been picking it up, reading a few chapters, and trading in for a psychology book that is more my speed for a few months. Buuuut I challenged myself to finish it while on the microdose regimen bc I want to learn and it could be an interesting experience to assess I’m about halfway through the book and it’s the first time I’ve ever taken notes while reading. I was able to connect the dots more clearly between concepts relating to the economic impact of national currency & the current mental health epidemic and “toxic society” founded on loneliness, high time preferences, and trauma that I read about in Gabor mate’s most recent book. Again, could’ve been a placebo but making neural connections b/w new & old data felt more seamless today Other than that just a normal day, no material difference in my somatic processing or perception of surroundings (as expected given low dose and antidepressant suppression)

Microdosing day ☝🏻 insights.. As expected, nothing earth shattering happened today. I woke up, walked my dog, showered, did Breathwork, prayed, set an intention for the next month, and took my first .1 capsule. I’m in the luteal phase of my menstrual cycle (5 days out from my period) and as someone with premenstrual dysphoric disorder, that means chaos. Quick to tears/heightened sensitivity, irritability, decreased capacity to regulate emotions, decreased sense of self worth. It’s a party in my body right now 🥳 in all seriousness, I’m used to this as I experience it for a week out of the month, every month. With this, i’m taking it easy today. I went to the park with my dog and read a little bit. Grounded with the grass. Took a nap. Resting & being. My best friend is making me dinner tonight to keep me company because @dylan is out of the country for a few weeks. I’m hopeful that after a few days of microdosing, I might start to notice material improvements in my mood and relationship with my mind-body as I navigate the next week of PMDD symptoms. Will be taking the caps for the next 10 days, will take 5 days off to integrate, and then another 10 day cycle. Honestly no idea what to expect but I am hopeful and excited!

Love this. Therapists are trained to support you in reaching optimal clarity, authenticity, and integrity in your relationships with yourself, those you prioritize, and the ecosystems in which you reside. Therapists are NOT meant to act as authoritative figures in any capacity. If that’s the case in your therapeutic relationship, RUN and find someone who knows that they’ll never know you better than you know yourself. We are only here to help you remember the most authentic, powerful, and alive version of who you are.

Okay I didn’t start micro dosing today bc I did Breathwork and something in my subconscious told me to wait a day, BUT what I will say is that as far as seed oils go, funyans are slept on. ELETE processed snack

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Day 1 of microdose regimen starts tomorrow. Gonna use primal as my personal diary as I go. Stay tuned 🕺🏻❤️

Without a common sense of what is “right”, groups fracture and the fragments wander. Science and knowledge can guide action; they do not cause action. (The moral determinants of health, Berwick, MD)

Just read that healing does not equate to self improvement, but self retrieval 🤯

Nothing beats getting home from a night out and your dog greeting you at the door ready to give you a big slobbery kiss 🥰🥰🥰

My boyfriend is cool as fuck but don’t tell him I said that 🫂 just sold out the tshirts @dylan View quoted note →

Not daring to rock the boat, we risk sinking with it

God translates to “Yahweh” in Hebrew, which means I am what I will be. God is a verb. Re Testament, the Story of Moses on Netflix. Moving watch as the story is especially relevant to our current society.

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Top 5 Coachella sets I saw this weekend in my opinion as someone who went in with 0 expectations, 1. Tyler the Creator 2. J Balvin 3. Gesaffelstein 4. Everything Always 5. Grimes bc the meltdown was iconic

Still thinking about Tyler last night wow I love that guy. I notice things like how he speaks about and engages with his guests and crowd. Nothing but love and respect for everyone, genuinely just there to connect and give us a show. I believe he’s headlining Coachella bc of his creative of course, but also the way he treats people. I’ve always thought that his network goes crazier than most artists in the industry

Just saw Tyler’s headline at Coachella and he’s got a fan in me forever

Primal is the only app that doesn’t give anxiety and a stomach ache when I open it, and that’s why it’ll blow up

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Re last post, she was a well-intentioned doctor and I wasn’t upset that her thoughts patterns automatically led her to prescribing more medication without listening to me - it’s all she knows. However, I made it clear that I was literally THERE to decrease my medication. Doctors need to develop critical thinking and empathy skills when working with patients. Our health is the most important thing we have and we must be able to trust those who are responsible for it. It was just another example of feeling unheard, unseen, and like a # to the system. 🍅 🍅 🍅