Two days down. One to go. More thinking than working done today. Some questions answered, some new ones posed. Relax time.

Time feels like it's standing still. Locked in a stalemate. Where do we go from here?

Big mood.

GM. Day two of my little getaway. Perfect weather. I guess If I'm going to be racking my brain I might as well do it in the sunshine.

Don't underestimate the power of giving yourself a break. Even Superman needs the fortress of solitude eventually. Went to the gym. 6 hours of coding. Cooked myself dinner for the next 4 days. Not a bad first day at all. Now for a hot bath, and some time alone with my thoughts without any screens in front of me. After that, a movie and a bowl of popcorn all to myself. Might even go to bed early and make sure I get the best sleep I can. Then tomorrow is another day.

First time in forever that I have a full weekend with a place to myself alone. Hoping to get a lot of work done, doing some self-care, and taking some time to think about life. The past 365 days I've been on such a roller coaster ride feeling like I knew what I wanted in life, having that goal shattered, finding new purpose, having it shattered again... And again. Feels like I've lost the plot in so many ways. Not sure if I'm looking for a sign or an epiphany at this point, but I do know that every time I find that purpose, the drive and determination I get is unmatched. It's time to listen, inward and outward.

Obligatory star wars post

Home is too quiet and the inner demons are too loud. Good day to take the laptop and change the scenery.

Forget the two wolves inside you, this is the real never-ending conflict.

This guy in the sauna is wearing icy hot and it's killing us all.

You shouldn't rest on your laurels, but definitely stop and appreciate it when you finally get a win no matter how big or small.

First real show with my name on the ticket since I started performing again, plus it's leg day. Bring it.

If you love someone, set them free.

Missing bulking season right now in so many ways for so many reasons...

Life is so strange. When it's Boring, we crave excitement. When it's exciting it becomes stressful. When it's stressful we crave safety. When it's safe it becomes boring. Rinse and repeat.

First time back on stage in a month. Lots of mistakes. Messed up my signature routine. Rowdy audience... Easy to brush off though because it feels insignificant when I remember what was really missing from tonight... Or rather WHO.

In the end, everything will be okay. And if things aren't ok, then it's not the end.

I haven't been to the gym after 5:00 p.m. in 6 years. I have a feeling I'm about to remember why mornings are better.... Wish me luck