Listening to music from my birth year, that would be playing when my parents were expecting. Quite the trip. The Cold War era was a tough time. // I’ve come to believe a lot of memories are stored in the body, every in infancy. These imprints can flare up later in life. Hence “the issue is in the tissue” and “the body keeps the score” //

I’m blown away. These lyrics (below) are exactly what I was wrestling with as a teen, suffocating from anxiety. I felt trapped and wondered if free will maybe didn’t exist at all. Like Wyatt says, I believed: “Had I been free, I could have chosen not to be me.” I never consciously listened to lyrics growing up, but I always am surprised when relistening, how closely the themes of my favorite music harmonized with my emotional landscape. Free Will and Testament - Robert Wyatt, 1997 Given free will but within certain limitations, I cannot will myself to limitless mutations, I cannot know what I would be if I were not me, I can only guess me. So when I say that I know me, how can I know that? What kind of spider understands arachnophobia? I have my senses and my sense of having senses. Do I guide them? Or they me? The weight of dust exceeds the weight of settled objects. What can it mean, such gravity without a centre? Is there freedom to un-be? Is there freedom from will-to-be? Sheer momentum makes us act this way or that way. We just invent or just assume a motivation. I would disperse, be disconnected. Is this possible? What are soldiers without a foe? Be in the air, but not be air, be in the no air. Be on the loose, neither compacted nor suspended. Neither born nor left to die. Had I been free, I could have chosen not to be me. Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill. Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill. Let me off please, I am so tired. Let me off please, I am so very tired.

Rediscovering Robert Wyatt’s “Shleep” album. I was really into it when it came out—I was around 15. Surprised to discover it deals with insomnia, an issue I didn’t become aware of until I was in my thirties.

Really appreciating Ram Dass lately. Audio version of “Becoming Nobody” is my pick of the week.

Classical Music: who are your favorite composers?

Welcome to the era of censorship (reminds of the 1940s). Survey results for millennials, n=1,500.

Life as a carnivore is so simple. No more decision fatigue in the grocery store, restaurant, or shopping street.

Midjourney afraid of Moslim backlash, so it seems

Just did 45 mins 🧊🛀 in 59°F. Some shivers towards the end, that’s my cue to get out. It’s my path to meditation, so far the most effective method to slow down my system.

What are your favorite African musical artists? High on the list for me are: S.E. Rogie Ali Farka Touré Zap Mama Tiken Jah Fakoly Doudou N’Diaye Rose African Jazz Pioneers Fela Kuti

Some impressions of Denver CO

Vintage Mid Century Modern furniture seems hugely overpriced compared to older antiques of much higher quality. First piece selling for $3,000, second for $575 (no typo) I guess… that means, more for us 🤷‍♂️☺️