I don’t understand when people think like ‘there’s nothing on earth to spend my time on, I’ll go watch some Netflix’. Like seriously your life lacks hobbies, some inner interest this much? How? Why?

It’s frustrating to see how little people are self actualized

My problem with most men is that I’m more directed than they are.

Chào buổi sáng Việt Nam 🇻🇳 Be safe

Chào buổi sáng / good morning! I’m restoring myself with silence, low information intake and generation. Today it improved, I was capable to share some shoe and bag photos to my mum, replied to one friend and one guy about collaboration (time sensitive). Also I made a happy bd post to our president. I feel I am done for today :)

I feel some sort of nostalgic memory on the coming winter, it’s cold and I’m alone and I feel how the reality breaks my illusions. The more I admit my potential to myself, the worse and the better. The worse when you feel, the better when you act. Soon, I’ll meet some people who feel close despite in person we haven’t spent that much time together. That’s a gift.

Running around the lake, ‘oh European man’ I thought, he was walking. Our eyes met; he walked, and I thought, maybe I could say something. But then I sabotaged the moment and just kept running. What another weirdo can travel to Dalat alone? And well, me, I am enough of a weirdo, what a man could bear it? I mean some could, a very few, those able to see and admit the whole true me, those few ones; maybe I sabotage that too by not even giving a chance to the many… or maybe I don’t even care. Part of me feels the desire, the honest want for connection, genuinely being oneself, trusting to a man who deserves it (those few), yet maybe, maybe, not too quickly. And the end of the day, it is those few who dare to speak themselves, as I don’t aim to lead. Yeah, I know I do set direction, an inspiration to some; but that’s not the dynamics I seek in the relationship. So yeah. There are a few who dare, and then there are some who just sabotage themselves because of the low self esteem or something. And then there are those who don’t, but who never admit my potential and would tear me down over time. And then there are those who admit it but in sort of a sad way where I see their weakness, I see it just wouldn’t work over time, I wouldn’t grow, I would be silent about the growth as I would feel sort of ashamed for the speed of my life right next to someone who’s driving this life experience at a way slower pace, I don’t know which one of us could bear it. I don’t know what’s the worst case. And then it feels to me I slowed down, I do without doing, I work a little but efficiently, I move fast without trying. I relax, finally, I feel how the tension is leaving my shoulders and I breathe, I became so uninterested to the many things except for the conscious experience, watching the cats play and just the leaves of the trees and talking to locals, integrating myself somehow. I want the real world connection so bad. But yet, my pace, my way of slowing down, is yet so fast to the way how the average lives. And well no, I couldn’t go for the average, even slightly above because we don’t understand each other. I don’t mind sabotaging meeting a stranger, but I can’t sabotage myself. 💎

👠💄🇻🇳🐈‍⬛

I have a little mental orgasm here in the small Vietnamese town with slower drivers who are not changing speed, are predictable, reliable and pretty responsible [just have nonexistent attention span], and beside the honking, it’s pretty silent and very green. I relax! / my body feels tense from the travels and change though

Solution to overcome your ‘ending summer’ / ‘leaves falling’ problem is the one way flight ticket.

Chào buổi sáng Việt Nam 🇻🇳💄👠 Good morning, Vietnam 🐈‍⬛

Little pleasures thanks to my premium cards from SOLO :)

Maybe if I sat down and replied to all those messages I get (and not only to the very few people), I would get to know my future husband pretty quickly.

I’m moving out of Georgia and it’s a pain, I expect that emotional hit I rely on myself and trust myself Despite I have zero clue what’s ahead Yet I know it will be good, it will be very good

Georgian taxi drivers must hate me as I ask usually to turn off the music and they have to be on their own, enjoying own presence 😀 lol I see how the guy is annoyed.

I truly value now the connection with other self actualized people. It truly upgrades the emotional experience on something you can’t experience on your own; while you feel interested and enjoying own life on your own too. Freeing and upgrading. Beautiful.

Meh the Georgian ghosting and incapacity to tell the truth (to tell ‘I don’t know’ or ‘I can’t’) is very frustrating. I prefer adult-adult honest conversations.

Only now I perceive how much I created in Georgia and what a value it means to the people here. It’s a bit sad to leave.

‘And there, is it better?’ ‘Well, you know, it’s still a state.’

One of the best upgrades of my life are the airport lounges :) (and fast track)