What's your demon? Shine the torch of love straight into your heart. If you want to scream, that's it.. If something makes you cringe, that's it! Just by being aware, you got him!

Turmoil and ecstasy are hallmarks of the ocean, They ebb high, they ebb low. Turbulent waves stir up the hidden nooks of agony in my heart.. Tormented spirits come roaring to the shores of my mind. Ecstasy cleanses and free up my soul Calm waters ensue and I stand still On the shore of white sands digging my feet in Unperturbed and caressed by the soft waves Days and nights pass by The sounds of turmoil may come again They ebb high, they ebb low. Let me dig deeper into the white sands of love Melting into merging lines of blue skies and the ocean Ocean of love, who you are is who I AM.

Evil can not be defeated . But it can be transcended.

Karma wins . Not Kamala

I'm looking over my balcony across the ocean in my Capetown house.

October 31st, 1984. While I was heading to my work site of Indian Telephone Industries in Mankapur in the state UP in India from our quarters in the town, the shocking news about the assassination of the PM of India began rattling the country. The site was shut down as soon as the news reached there, and I decided to head towards my house in New Delhi. Traveling by an overnight crowded train from Lucknow, i arrived at ND Railway station in the early morning. As soon as I stepped onto the platform, some police men rounded me up as they thought I looked like a Sardar without a turban . I used to grow some light beard in those days, and I can't blame them for my suspicious looks. They questioned me about my background and whereabouts. I told them I was returning from my project site in UP, and I was an engineer for the project. They verified it with my ID and offered me police escort because I told them my house was within the vicinity of All India Institute of Medical Sciences (AIIMS). It was too risky to go anywhere near that area because the mob fury against Sardars at that time meant a life and death encounter. Fortunately, the police dropped me at the gate of my house, where I was welcomed by my landlord, who happened to be a Sardar. His opening remarks was that he would protect me at any cost even if he had to lay down his life. Then he handed me over a gun and asked me to go to the terrace and safeguard the property and my life. I just followed his instructions like a robot as my brain stopped processing anything like a human. Sitting over the parapet of the terrace, I could see balls of flames going up in air all along the main road in front of AIIMS. I reckon bloodshed was rampant, and I saw many scooters being snatched away from riders, and they were brutally attacked. I survived the saga. Otherwise, I would have been a martyr for nothing. That was my eye-opening experience towards the fear of terrorism. At that age of 24, having got a long career path ahead, I had to live within the metropolis of India trying to process all the data available to me to figure out how to shape up a path of life in my country. The second incident that shook my core was even more drastic than the news of Indira Gandhi. Now it was Rajiv Gandhi, her son in 1991, who succumbed to a suicide bomber. That was the first time I decided to look for career opportunities outside India. It took me to the Middle East and Africa. As I grew into bigger roles, I started working in many African countries and Europe, leading to my final destination in South Africa. Traveling in the Middle East and Africa and Europe until 2001 was, in fact, one of the most entertaining and informative phases of my life. I could expand my consciousness with many cultures and nations across the world. Middle East and Africa are the cradles of mankind and Europe was the fountain of innovation and modern technologies. Coming into close encounters with their origins was highly rewarding and enriching. But terrorism again raised its ugly head in 9/11, and in the subsequent travels, i could feel the negativity and fear amongst the authorities and travelers at every airport in the world. In a few years, I went deep into the rabbit hole of "the root" of all wars and terrorism and i soon became labeled as a conspiracy theorist. But it was not difficult for me to conclude that in most cases, what people discard as conspiracy is the truth. It was reinforced by my finding that money and power were the biggest soul-corrupting forces that are expressed in different forms and shades of terrorism. After four decades of experiencing and contemplating the "progress" of mankind, i believe we are at a crossroads here. Our path is forking. "Two men will be working in the field; one will be taken; other left behind." I have no doubt in my mind that Jesus's prophecy is coming true now. Jesus lived in the age of Pisces. We are now at the doorstep of the age of Aquarius. Not all of us will make it to the new age as envisioned by Jesus. I think the next year will make it more obvious. The reckoning is here now.

All through my career life, I was mostly guided by intuitive actions. Most often, people around me were often baffled by me as they couldn't intellectually process my actions. Whenever I was denied opportunities due to the intellectual dissonance between my actions and social norms. I had to go through periods of turbulence that would threaten my physical survival. But, my intuitive actions, in spite of defying intellectual demands, paid off handsomely in the end. But there was a fallout in terms of the number of people who would like to connect with me. As I would not fit within their programmed ways of intellectual processing befitting legal and traditional outfits, I was always considered an outlier by them. Eventually, my friends and family relatives started receding from me like the Doppler shift. It did unsettle me for a while, but wisdom resurfaced, and I always pulled myself together. My career life, though it was relatively much shorter than most of my peers, it was phenomenally more productive than theirs. I retired from the regular job when I turned 50 and became a freelancer in the electrical engineering profession for a few more years after that. To my pleasant surprise, some of my erstwhile corporate clients with whom I had good personal rapport became my personal clients and supported me to continue with a higher income generating capacity than that of my regular employment days. The biggest bottleneck was the uncertainty that was piling up about the sufficiency of savings to hang my boots and spend my evening of life in the most important thing I wanted, that is, a spiritual resort for my body-mind. I was always grooming myself in the path of spiritual awareness from my teenage days. It took me 30 years to come to a state of enlightenment that my opened towards infinite love and wisdom. I had gathered enough knowledge by then about the monetary systems of the world and how the central banks and governments were destroying the world by debasing currencies.I had no qualms about reaching the conclusion that money was at the root of all evil. Love and wisdom can not remain pure and unconditional in a complicated arena where money-making can destabilize your life. It was often traumatic to do a tight walk between the spiritual values of living and money-making. Then Bitcoin came one day serendipitously, and my intuition was so strong that I couldn't resist adopting it for all my money-making woes. Initially, in the first 5-6 years, it was turbulent, but it gave me a pristine vision that I never saw in banker's money. My life changed forever. Intuition is like a lighthouse. It will not come looking for you. You sail towards it, seeing the light within your own heart. It is very difficult to express its beauty to others until they too get it in their hearts and heads.

I was scammed by a fake auctioneer for cars today. Again, it was me who didn't do due diligence before transferring the money to someone I had no previous experience with. Psychologically, I was undergoing the traumatized experience of the car crash that I escaped miraculously 3 days back. Physically, i had no damage except a bruise near my ribcage. But the pain was excruciating. I was feeling the need strongly to buy a used car with whatever money I had. My mind was very foggy and succumbed to the scammer. Foggy minds get scammed easily. There is always some kind of fear that clouds you when you are thrown out of your comfy zone. Renting a car could have brought me back to the comfy zone. I didn't even have the patience to wait a few days to sort out the rental car from the insurance company. My bad!

I reckon i can feel the intensity of the earth's shift by way of physical uneasiness i am experiencing now. The comet C2023 is adding to the cause. It was extremely heavy when I went to bed in the late evening.

The seeds of thoughts are watered by your emotions.

Who can ruffle my feathers As I delve into the soul's depths? Who will call me out As I master the soundness of the silence? Who can shower me angles of light As meditate upon the angels of love? How radiant are the smiles On the countenance of of my parents! How beautiful are the petals Of the roses in my garden! There's not a moment I am lonely When I am alone...

MATURITY Someone said to me that "maturity is about the way you comprehend and perceive the world around you. It is how you consider other's feelings and choose your words around them with care and how you respond to challenges with grace. It is reflected in what you hold dear and what you choose to allow in your life. True maturity is in how you carry yourself and represent those around you as an adult. Growing old is like growing up." I contemplated upon the above thesis of maturity. It is the kind of maturity that most successful people in the world uphold. But I asked myself a question; Are all these mature minds happy? Sadly, you know that they are necessarily not happy. Growing up does not make sense or bring happiness unless you grow deeper into your own self. Most people forget to grow deeper into themselves even when they make claims about their maturity. Jesus was right when he said, "If you don't become like those children, you won't enter the kingdom of God." He was not referring to the worldly maturity of serious and successful people of the world. Worldly maturity brings seriousness but not happiness . When you grow deeper into your own self, you become like children. You become playful and unpredictable like Krsna and Sreeramkrisna paramhansa. Mature people are highly predictable in their nature. Maturity of the world will not bring happiness if you are not playful like Krsna. Uncertainty brings an adventerous spirit into life. Love is always an adventure. The mature people of this world often miss the beauty of adventures of unpredictable missions. Krsna gave the most mature advice to Arjuna about life. Don't glorify worldly maturity or success. Death will make them worthless. It will only make you look like a serious animal with a serious wrinkled face. Nothing more than that. Wildflowers enjoy themselves more than the tall trees that struggle to grow deeper.

Two of my friends visited us today. I wanted to entertain them with my skills of doing a steak braai. It's not a very easy task for me because I am still learning the ropes of making a good steak. At the end of the day, literally, while the sun was going down into the ocean before my eyes, I pulled off a great steak dish and served it with mashed potatoes and salads. The synchronicity was obvious to me from the angles of the love light from the sunset that blessed my performance. We had a good time together. Roderick and Abe came to embark upon a new phase of their life by constructing a house for Roderick's cousin in the Darling Green Country Estate, where I, too, have a stand to build. In fact, I was contemplating the services of them for my building as well. His cousin bought the stand following my advice. However, I had decided to postpone the construction of my house due to various issues related to finance and the fear of being a guinea pig for his construction adventure. Once his cousin's house is finished, I will have a spec house for my benchmark to consider them again. Roderick had been struggling with his career, and I will be the happiest person if he gets a breakthrough with this new venture.

I wake up in the morning and feel the vibes of a sobbing humanity. The ocean that hums a few meters away from my bedroom sets a sad tone to it. I am grateful to existence for not losing my soul. I remain sad during most of the waking hours of the day because I have to deal with the thoughts and actions of a lot of soulless characters in the simulation. I tend to spend more time with nature and silence rather than indulging in conversations. I wish I could meet up some men or women who share their thoughts soulfully. Why have they not become aware of their own receding souls?

The day when I started seeing myself as a spiritual being in a human avatar was the most important day in my life. I was quietly battling with a lot of confusion and dilemmas all through my journey about my true identity. Whenever I got bogged down with fear or greed, I ended up doing things I had to regret. But I didn't stop looking inwards and asking the tough questions I needed to ask myself from a vantage point. It is those answers that welled up from inner soul that often threw me out of gear and spin me with confusion and dilemmas. The agony of the dark nights of the soul was excruciating. The answers to my life and death questions never fitted with the norms and milieu of the social fabric in which i was living. Every intelligent answer saw me receding from the status quo and quietly stepping into the unknown. I was not quite comfortable to begin with. But, the adventure was more and more tranquilizing and rewarding as I traversed the unknown territory. I met angels who appeared whenever I needed help. They were available to me even before I asked for help. They might have saved me from many potholes and pitfalls. I still had many lessons to learn. They are angles of light that brighten my pathways to a field of better vision and clarity. My heart is beating with rhythms of love and compassion for the entire humanity.

My field of activities in this time of the year

Bitcoin is the second coming of Jesus.