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Notes to my self
Mind is addicted to experience
The ignorance , mystery , mission worth solving. Actually factually.


The one(me/u) watching the night dream is watching the day dream also . Day dream is v long, beleived to be THE reality so real me( self) is forgotten . Self is so the world exists.
The matrix
Mind is deluded self . Mind is self's tool to experience. Mind is the server . You're the ๐คด
You are not being equanimous, you are equanimity itself . There's no entity in it or entity experiencing equanimity . Presence is equanimity. Self is equanimity. Awareness is choice less equanimity.
Its a bad experience like a nightmare . Life doesn't end. Mind would like it to end . Mind has limited knowledge as it firmly believes its the body . What Mind really want is the bad experience to end . I/ u will never end . Its the formless awareness . Aware of everything.
Is this my soul tribe?
When mind is too much in me n u( mind is u n me) and heart is closed then diversity is unacceptable. Heart is universality as self is one . Mind can't understand this as its a very little limited entity portraying to worship truth but does not have the capability as truth is beyond it . Heart gets it ๐ โฅ๏ธ mind is incomplete. Its just a tool ๐ง that's operating thru conditioning n past experience (n knowledge?)
Some people we meet briefly and they have strong impression in our minds . That pleasant memory is unforgettable ๐
I experience connection problem with this app when there is no such thing on youtube .
Body is for experiencing like car is for travelling .
Mind body is always going to be depressed and opposite of depressed after sometime , looking for next interesting thing , running away from boredom , defeat , hurt , undesired outcomes , death . We have to realize at this point that we are aware of it all , we are not it . We will see our bodies dying . We are the deathless awareness . There's no body in deep sleep but awareness was there. We are the awareness. We get up and say we had a good sleep . Body comes and goes.
Mind needs something interesting all the time
Every thought has corresponding feeling in body
All the knowledge has to integrate within to be of real use
Person has a personality. Good news is im just the awareness of it . All good bad ugly , im aware of it . I give energy in form of attention . And there are million other aspects person could "fix" to be good personality.
We need to realize who we are . We're not the person.
This way we will be the cow that jumps over the moon ( mind) !
When whole damn thing is happening in me then why im so obsessed with what's the feeling within and the assumed little me!