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Notes to my self
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The one(me/u) watching the night dream is watching the day dream also . Day dream is v long, beleived to be THE reality so real me( self) is forgotten . Self is so the world exists.
Mind is deluded self . Mind is self's tool to experience. Mind is the server . You're the ๐Ÿคด
You are not being equanimous, you are equanimity itself . There's no entity in it or entity experiencing equanimity . Presence is equanimity. Self is equanimity. Awareness is choice less equanimity.
Its a bad experience like a nightmare . Life doesn't end. Mind would like it to end . Mind has limited knowledge as it firmly believes its the body . What Mind really want is the bad experience to end . I/ u will never end . Its the formless awareness . Aware of everything.
When mind is too much in me n u( mind is u n me) and heart is closed then diversity is unacceptable. Heart is universality as self is one . Mind can't understand this as its a very little limited entity portraying to worship truth but does not have the capability as truth is beyond it . Heart gets it ๐Ÿ’“ โ™ฅ๏ธ mind is incomplete. Its just a tool ๐Ÿ”ง that's operating thru conditioning n past experience (n knowledge?)
Some people we meet briefly and they have strong impression in our minds . That pleasant memory is unforgettable ๐Ÿ’–
I experience connection problem with this app when there is no such thing on youtube .
Mind body is always going to be depressed and opposite of depressed after sometime , looking for next interesting thing , running away from boredom , defeat , hurt , undesired outcomes , death . We have to realize at this point that we are aware of it all , we are not it . We will see our bodies dying . We are the deathless awareness . There's no body in deep sleep but awareness was there. We are the awareness. We get up and say we had a good sleep . Body comes and goes.
Person has a personality. Good news is im just the awareness of it . All good bad ugly , im aware of it . I give energy in form of attention . And there are million other aspects person could "fix" to be good personality. We need to realize who we are . We're not the person. This way we will be the cow that jumps over the moon ( mind) !
When whole damn thing is happening in me then why im so obsessed with what's the feeling within and the assumed little me!
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