Ingwie Phoenix (aka. birb)

Youtube decided to send me a LSDJ track in my recommendations... AND ITS A MOTHERFUCKING BANGER OF A CHIPTUNE OMG <3 <3 <3 #tunestr https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQk7p7nzz7w

Welp, Bitcoin is officially about to chew out my SSD. root@coinboi ~# df -H . Filesystem Size Used Avail Use% Mounted on /dev/nvme0n1p1 985G 971G 3.9G 100% / This is a problem. o.o

Recompiled and reconfigured btc and cln. What a hassle... x.x And NONE of the cln plugins I use for Nostr integrations have seen an update in forever. Fun... Is non-custodial this dead? xD

migumon uwu #tunestr https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/1jvRRj23Uwk5hr0UcCVn5V

Seit wann haben wir so viele talentierte deutsche singende VTuber? o.o Kannte bisher nur Selphius als Sängerin und später VA - aber da haben sich ja noch paar eingeschlichen und die sind... echt hörbar...sogar tanzbar. Huh. : ( ) #tunestr https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/1LrC776fnagnzAfmzezOVs

So Chat Control in the EU has taken another hurdle. Fun... I hate it, with a passion. The other day I was thinking about what a "cloud in the dark web" would be; Tor for the access, i2p for the infrastructure. The edges would be tor<->i2p nodes, acting as a reverse proxy to the internals, that are linked via i2p. It's like, you get access by going into an alley, but each alley is connected by a sewer system. Yep... somehow I ended up with that metaphor. Cloud vs. Sewers. xD

Japanese EDM has such an epic vibe. Seriously, idk what it is, but after finding Amateras Records and digging around in their vicinity, I found myself listening to so much of this. I could dance to that. :D #tunestr https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/7mJF5nMT2jfZQLwanJEiAY

migu makes me happy. ^.^ #tunestr https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/5XzakR0b10jH6nx939bEM2

Whenever you think the world is done for, you discover a tiny gem. #neat https://github.com/Facepunch/sbox-public

I remember buying cartridges and discs, being stupidly excited when I learned about modchips and CFWs and my first programming adventure was automating the conversion of PS1 discs to PSP PBPs to play my favorites on the go - POPstation and PALNinja, won't forget those names ever x) Nowadays? You aquire a license to a timed product that eventually evaporates and leaves behind a memory, that you will never be able to share with the next generation. You end up buying into hype because you are (made) unable to see the alternatives - namely, the indies and small-scale studios, because certain players simply play with an unfair advantage. Most of gaming is now an "opportunity" - a revenue opportunity, a calculated business descision based off stats and metrics...not passion and the desire to make something that sticks. Soulless, heartless, cobbled together and these days partially AI generated crap floods storefronts - and because newer generations literally do not know better, they are gobbled up and bought. Pokémon ZA, the new CoD BO, the yearly FiFa. You can probably think of a few yourself also. This, together with how the internet was one escapism in itself, is the reason for my pure "digital depression". And I feel entirely, utterly and most definitively powerless. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_YSYDUUZQ8 And now, add ontop the recent GrapheneOS posts; France is trying their damndest, and they are a four hour drive away from me. Anti-Privacy meassures are becoming more vulgar and, dare I say, "open and direct". It's starting to not be hidden behind "Fight terrorists!" or "Save the children!" acts anymore; its blatant, obvious, on the nose. And the only people profiting from it are either rich people who will become richer, or the people who have been playing unfair from the getgo anyway; they just get more or other opportunities. A scammer isn't affected or hurt by those laws - but someone who just wishes to protect themselves a little, is. Working in IT has given me both the blessing and curse of "knowing what's up". I know how the whole stack from the low-level hardware to the high-level software is composed, how things scale in a network or even across a wide area network via clouds - and also, how those networks tie into applications on end-users. Everything from how device manufacturers directly control device access through binary, proprietary blobs that are loaded as firmware by the kernel and executed verbatim at the most volunerable layer to how "verified and secure" applications on 1st party app stores are actually loaded with additional software to harvest and spy on data and usage. Perhaps a service like Posthog was not ment to be used for such, but any service like it that can send performance or usage metrics, behavioural patterns or other forms of telemetry, quietly runs without the end-user seing it. Because why would they pop a debugger, gawk at a tcpdump output or, heaven forbid, run a firewall in their network that can do real-time traffic analysis? ISPs give them a modem, access point, router and gateway in one device and make setup seamless; but actually put literal black boxes into customer homes. Look at all the CVEs hitting those devices these days - or, how Google kept collecting logs and telemetry from disabled Nest devices. Sure, too unsafe to connect to the internet, but safe enough to still act as a data collection agent; a rich man's Telegraf alternative ((Telegraf = metrics collector, Go, by InfluxData)). I want to change the world but I can't: I have to work, to pay my rent, to pay my internet, to be able to have a bed so I can go to work. So I can buy food and utilities so I can survive, so I can go to work. This system sucks, is unbalanced and urgently needs a rebalance patch but... that will never happen. Crazy, hot take. At the rate things are going here, I am convinced that we may become even more "aggressive" than China. And they have the whole GFW (which, at least I heared, was built by the US company CISCO, ironically enough - however, that's really just heresay). I really don't know where we're headed - I am both curious (and morbidly so...) and also scared. After all, I used to run a furry community, where the number ONE aspect was to interact and socialize with people under pseudonyms, different names and different settings to escape from the real world to either overcome mental challenges or to just "have a different live for a little while". Sure, there are furries I wish I could say a few things to...and offer them a knuckle sandwhich while I am at it... but I remember that community, that was the first to accept me and my nerdy, introvertedness, very fondly. And this is dying. Hard. I wonder, where is the next escape after the previous places have been "closed down"? The internet was one, gaming was another, the anonymity of protecting your privacy was also one. But they are being destroyed one piece at a time, one bill at a time, one software update a day. Years ago I joked that Japan was probably the safest place because they had a habbit of keeping to themselves and being more focused on national interests. Well that sure aged like ... something. I just don't want to feel all this pressure and stress anymore. Pressure from having a *very* broad understanding of the whole tech-stack behind most of this and stress from constantly keeping my eyes out and virtually double-taking whenever I move. Should I create this account? - Ah, let me grab an alias, and a generated password, and store it in my password manager. Should I put my whole network on a VPN? - Well this will mean I pay in speed and quality, and some online games won't work anymore so I have to add a whitelist...but what if that whitelist ends up being leaky? Should I invest more in "hidden services" or "eepsites"? - Well sure, but doing that via my phone is a pain in the arse and there is not really a convenient way of finding things "just like that". You see? Even I want convenience, but I - and others - have to pay for it. And this constant stress of evaluating options, pros and cons and keeping up with the news to properly disable AI stuff and avoid tracking, keeping the tracker-blocking-enabled software like Piped and Brave updated as much as I can whilst also being concious which websites I randomly visit or browse by and shoeing every cookie banner whilst knowing full well that it takes but a simple `Cookie: ...` header. When I was a kid and played Drakengard or Crash Bandicoot, all I worried about was keeping my discs in order and clean, my controllers hygienic and ensuring the cables didn't get messed up. When carrying my Gameboy, I only had one or two games with me. When syncing music to my MP3 player or iPod, I had to deliberately pick and choose what went on there. When I had a PSP, my universe was as big as my MemoryStick Pro Duo (yep, I remember that name still). But when I got home from school or a hospital trip, I would just dash out of the house, to my friend and we would either LARP or talk random crap, play cards or shared a controller for some Sly Cooper. Or perhaps we grabbed our Beyblades and had fun. Yeah... having fun... Here I am installing BastilleBSD with Tor, I2Pd, Route-DNS (or ControlD; haven't decided yet), paying my ass out for homelab hardware to selfhost anything from Audiobookshelf to Timelineize and beyond to claw back my privacy, independence and alike. I am sad. Often lonely. Sometimes full of desires (at times just to have someone here to talk, other times just to have the fun bedtime things others have and at other times all I want is to escape or immerse myself somewhere or in something). A psychic wreck, fucked in the brain by the stress and pressure with no cure in sight. ...vent over. When I finish my OPNSense based setup, I plan to document i in a project and make a guide for it. And it has... a perculiar name that hasn't left me the moment it got in my head: Good bye, internet.

Brother this stuff is majestic as fuck. #tunestr https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/track/7HxhuorujGT3U6jj1fIfUC

It must be a me-thing - but I am still learning OPNSense and it is forcing me to read and pay attention. You can't _just_ make a VLAN, you have to go through a couple of screens. This is far from done, but I am getting somewhere and I love it. :D Still learning and progressing, still not ready to deploy it as my main and primary WAN - but, I am not far away from it either. :3 Also, IPv6 can suck. my. dick.

I see this in Primal's Trending column... ...and I wonder how many worlds apart we truely are. I still can not buy a cheeseburger with bitcoin, heck, not even regular bread, coffee or my smokes. Meanwhile, there's bitcoiners out there _apparently_ living this kinda world? Arite...

It's happened three times now: I heared weird noises that woke me up. Over this and the previous day, I have been falling alseep mid-day and waking up from distorded-sounding notification sounds on my headphones I was still wearing. My breaking point aint too far off at this point... that was a haunting experience, seriously. Too much stress and all that is really, _really_ getting at me. x.x

I have spent so much time in Excel as of late... Sanity check: - 2 out of 3 Radxa Orion O6 32GB units - OPNSense Firewall - OpenBao-dedicated system - SpacemiT MUSE Pi Pro, in the mail - Pi-esque rack mount + keystones - installed, ready to rock; missing the Pi boards, which will be MUSE Pi Pro + Radxa Dragon - Milk-V Pioneer for CI/CD and NAS - Secondary 8-bay NAS, OpenMediaVault, has NanoKVM for full power-down/-up backup scheduling Missing: - >8 Port 10G RJ45 + PoE switch (~450-650 €) - WiFi 7 AP (~100 €) - 3x 256GB NVMe Gen 4 SSD (Orion boot disk); Unknown, NAND prices... - 3x 2TB NVMe Gen4 SSD (Orion shared data disk; k8s Longhorn); Unknown, NAND still - 4x 2TB NVMe Gen3 SSD (NAS, "hot" tier, mergerFS+snapRAID); ...yes, NAND - 2x 4/5TB SATA-III SSD 2.5" (NAS, "warm" tier, mergerFS+snapRAID) - 2x 4TB SATA-III HDD 2.5" (NAS, "cold" tier); Unknown, havent checked yet - 1x ICY DOCK PCIe NVMe to OcuLink adapter - 1x 4x OcuLink to PCIe x16 adapter - ultra-low profile (HLHH) - 1x ICY DOCK SATA carrier - literally enclosure only, goes straight to mobo - 3x (Orion) + 1 (NAS) + 1 (Desktop) + 1 (AI Server) = 6 Sipeed NanoKVM (PoE option, ~100€) - Oh yeah an entire fucking AI Server... Dual MaxSun B60 48GB Turbo, AMD Epyc, 265GB RAM - highly unknown, DRAM. - 3x 1U short-depth Mini-ITX case (Orion); 50 € each - 1x 1U long-depth Micro-ATX case (Pioneer); 90 € - 1x Multi USB Type-C charger for Orions (at least 180W, 60W per socket) - 1x PSU for Pioneer - wattate completely unknown. xD Optional: - Desktop PC upgrade from R9 3900X -> 9000-series (32GB RAM and board, rest stays) Goal: - Orions will build Kubernetes cluster (k0s, NLLB + CPLB) to run all selfhosted things, automate them through ArgoCD, connect to OpenBao with External Secrets / Cert-Manager to keep them off-cluster - OPNSense acting as a whole-network VPN router to sink my entire traffic into a VPN bar exceptions - and also link with Tor and i2pd - Home Assistant for inter-device / inter-service and (local) smart-home automation - OpenBao for certs, secrets and sensitive data, HSM backed (NitroKey) - Pioneer to automate building and testing of all the projects I find cool, act as a NAS and CI/CD into oblivion with Concourse CI, using QEMU to go between ISAs if needed too. It may become my new BTC/CLN node while I am at it, and may run solo miners in the time between jobs...because, why not. Also a big maybe. But, XMRing looks nice. I am inching closer and closer and closer to replace every single cloud-service I need or want to use with a local option. It's basicaly my "Project: Good Bye Internet". I already prepared one of the pieces on the OPNSense within a BSD Jail and it will be glorious. =) Also, I will be fucking broke for a bit, but thats fine, because after this, I have the exact lab I want, for good, for real, and it's mine. No shitty -aaS will ever take this away. :3 Heck I might some day build a solar powered, 4G modem backed device to help me reach my homelab even when WAN goes offline or something like that - and to send SMS lol.

I have a Milk-V Pioneer at my table, 1.400 €. My homelab has been costing me a multitude of nerves, arms, legs and whatever else I could find. My goal to become fully self-sovereign is almost here but now I get buttfucked with DRAM and NAND prices. Brother. I am gonna be so happy when I can close my rack door, knowing that everything I wanted is inside now - for real, for good, and most definitively. XD

BROTHER I WANT TO SCREAM THAT AT RUST EVANGELISTS SO BAD HOLY SHIT #TUNESTR https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YjYz3EQ5fOo

I successfuly: - Flashed a FritzBox with OpenWrt - Set up a bridge (actually a relay) between the WiFi and LAN - Bought, installed, configured a Sipeed NanoKVM - And stuffed the whole thing into my basement segment! I can now turn this NAS on and off as I need. It's an Athlon 3000G, I intend to use it as my secondary NAS down the line (3-2-1). THIS IS SO COOL 0.0 I can turn it on, off, get into bios, everything! aaaaaa <3 SUCCESS

This goes so hard for no reason... xD #tunestr https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1vswT-V1pY

Compiled the zsbl, compiled edk2 - both with the properly pinned DTB. Now I just need _a linux_... xD That should be fun.