Well the social division is about to get even more unbearable. Fucking wonderful.

Free speech is wildly important. It allows us to see the truth of someone and sort them accordingly. The right way to handle people with horrific ideas is to let them be public fools, and to have better ideas. Violence makes them martyrs. It does not help.

Charlie Kirk is an awful human being. Shooting him is not only clearly wrong, it's not going to help anything. This shit will now get worse.

I have a hard time with social context. At this point, at 42 yrs old, I have developed a lot of social context skills, and so generally I do pretty well. But still, when I'm around very polished or proper people I'm always a little bit anxious, a little bit on guard. For this reason, I tend to be dramatically more comfortable around people who are a bit... rough around the edges. The nerds, the mildly autistic, whose with no filters. The mild assholes. Their roughness gives me license to say something that might not be totally appropriate in that moment. I can relax around them.

Do you think there really is such a thing as a 'very sensitive person'? I'm thinking that we are all 'very sensitive' but often also very repressed and so that sensitivity stays buried. For the majority of my life I would have told you, and some partners of mine would have told you, that I was a rather cold person. That was a lie. I am very sensitive and always have been and only recently am I less repressed and more honest about that. And I am thinking here not so much about how people present to the world, but more about their internal experience. I think, perhaps, we are all very, very sensitive.

My therapist suggest I add some more creative expression to my life. ...does making fabulous slides for a presentation count??? Feels like it does. I love some good slides!!!

American cities really do have a violence problem. I've witnessed it, I've experienced it. It's bad. But this recent outrage hits me as very political and disingenuous. If Iryna Zarutska had been just a normal looking black lady... would any of us know her name?

When we talk about the declining birth rate we always seem to talk about women and their choices... why don't we talk more about men? I do know some women who have chosen to not have kids, but I know a lot more women who really do want to have children but who can't find a man who wants to take on the responsibility of being a husband and a father.

I have 7 nodes... is that too many? ...do I have a problem? 🤪

Goals

What's you're fav Linux admin command? Like what do you type in your sleep? Mine is $ sudo lsof -n -P -i | grep LISTEN

The dude that was lecturing me on men and women last night told some stories about his grandfather beating his father, and his father beating him. This quote is all I could think about 😢

Every. F#$%%^. Time. Sometimes I gotta go look in the mirror and check to see if “please lecture me about masculinity” is tattooed on my forehead. Whenever one of these crypto bros spots me it’s like they just can’t help themselves. I was out on a date with my husband last night. We were just chilling on the patio of some funky bar in San Juan when a pack of dudes walks in and shares the patio table with us. They looked familiar, after a few min we sorted out that we’ve met them before at one of the local crypto events. I never start these conversations. “masculinity” and “femininity” are not a part of my day to day vocabulary. Not one time ever have I started this conversation. But I’ve done it so many damn times I can spot it a mile away and map out the whole thing. The beginning of the convo has lots of lovely words and includes things like “women are amazing”, “men are strong”, “men and women are not the same”, “I love to see a traditional family”, etc. The middle of the convo starts to get dark and includes things like “men are inherently violent”, “women are just complex and emotional creatures”, “men should be men and women should be women”, “men are the natural leaders”, “the world is inherently violent and hierarchical”, etc. etc. The end of the conversation is really the part that they love and can’t wait to get to. Sometimes I think they might nut in their pants if we make it all the way to this part. “men should be the decision makers”, “women will naturally submit to a dominant man, it’s just nature”, “women don’t really want to make decisions, it’s too stressful for them”, “the world should be led by men”, “we lost our way when women got brain washed into thinking they should be like men”… “repeal the 19th!” Well yesterday it started with one dude wanting to talk about parenting. “you have daughters?” And he wanted to tell me all about his daughters, but I can see it coming a mile away. He wasn’t talking with me, he was talking at me. He was just loving the opening to start lecturing me about women’s nature. I tried to wrap it up and change the topic, but that was never going to work. It started at the beginning of the convo with lovely things like “I love my daughters” and then we got to the dark middle “men are inherently violent”, “the world is run by violence.” I tried to diplomatically disagree and told him that I have a higher view of men, and we get to chose what we lean into, etc. But of course he then started into the ugly end of the convo with him running through scenarios trying to demonstrate why violence rules the world, and the part he was really waiting for… “that’s the hard truth. I can tell you about the hard truth of women too!” And nope, nope, nopidy nope. I just got up and left. Every. F#$%%^. Time.

The writing was on the wall with the “have fun staying poor”. I came to the Bitcoin because I wanted to demolish power structures. HFSP very clearly states “I’m here to create a monetary hierarchy where I am above you”. The American Bitcoin influencers now are motivated by being above others, and they try to sell Bitcoin by promising that those who adopt it will also be above others. It’s the antithesis of what I thought we were doing here and it’s heart breaking.

I’m really saddened and disgusted with the Bitcoin world right now. And to be very clear I mean the loud, American, Bitcoin social media ‘influencers’. Most of them anyhow. They are a pack of tyrant worshiping, blatantly misogynistic, fame whoring sociopaths. At this point I’m embarrassed to have ever hung out with them, or to now have any association with them. I’m debating what to do about this. I’ve left Bitcoin Twitter and don’t plan to engage with that world anymore. I want to keep speaking about this tech, but I won’t be focusing on that audience. They don’t want tech, they want to be above others. I’m not sure what is a good strategy here. I thought maybe I could help make things there better, but it’s gotten so bad that I can’t in good conscience be associated with it. Should I work on forming better Bitcoin communities? Should I just leave them to rot by themselves and focus on expanding the use of this tech in better communities? ...something else I haven’t thought of yet? I’d love some ideas here.